5.28: Shift

Dear Diary,

Okay, remember last summer, after Zayne 16th birthday? When I said I didn’t think a flip got switched that magically made you an adult, even when you turn 18?

Well… I still think that. There’s no switch-flipping. But I guess maybe it’s almost like one of those fancy dimmer lights… You know the ones I’m talking about, right? The lights don’t just snap from being off to on. You turn the dial and it’s a slow shift. Maybe that’s a super weird or dumb metaphor, but I guess it’s the best way I can explain it.

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And ever since my birthday, I’ve been feeling that shift.

I guess the biggest change is things with mom and dad. I mean, up until now, we’ve had this whole ‘custody agreement’ thing we had to follow. For as long as I can remember, we’ve been with mom pretty much every weekday during the school year, dad almost every weekend, and alternating weeks during the summer.

But we don’t have to follow that anymore. We could pick one parent and never visit the other one again, if we wanted to (not that we’d ever do that!). It’s just weird, I guess… The freedom to pick where we wanna go. Tony and Alex are already taking advantage of that… Kinda making their own schedule.

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But I’ve been too nervous to change. It just feels so weird to do anything else, I guess. And at least mom and dad don’t seem to mind.

The other big thing is being able to drive without mom or dad anymore. At first I was preparing myself to start bugging mom to borrow her car all the time… But Opa went WAY overboard for our birthday this year… It felt so weird.  I hate talking about it, but it’s no secret that Opa’s filthy rich. He was one of the most famous footballers in the entire world. But he’s always been so careful not to spoil us…

Until now.

“You only turn eighteen once,” he told us. And then he handed each of us a set of keys… To three brand-new cars.

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I never realized how amazing it would be to not have to rely on the bus to get around anymore. It’s incredible, and all three of us are really loving it (even though Alex already got into a fender-bender with her car… Yeah, Opa wasn’t too happy about that).

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So yeah… Minus Zayne being a total piece of shit and skipping out on our party, turning 18 was pretty awesome.

I know, I know… somehow I always end up complaining about Zayne. I just can’t believe him lately! He’s changed so much, and I have no idea where it’s coming from.

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I mean, he’s been ignoring all of us worse than he ever has before… Even his friends at school. I don’t think he’s even invited Dom over in weeks! It’s like he’s replaced all of us with his stupid uni friends.

I just can’t help feeling so mad about this whole thing. Haven’t I always been there for him? I even covered for him at his stupid little party last month! I’ve been trying so hard to be supportive. Following “The Sibling Code”, as Alex calls it. I know I complain about Zayne a lot… But no matter what, I still love him. We grew up together. I can’t forget about that.

But apparently he can.

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It hurt so much when I found out he lied to miss our birthday dinner. What the hell could have been more important than that?! He never told me. He just said he was sorry over and over again, and made me promise not to tell mom… And I listened, because I don’t want her falling into her usual Zayne obsession again. That’s the last thing I need right now.

Except now… Well, that’s what this whole rant is leading up to. I think Zayne might be mixed up in something bad. And pretty soon, I might not have a choice. I might have to tell mom about it…

Basically, back when he started making all that extra money, Zayne told us he’d been doing some ‘odd jobs’ to help out his neighbor with his ‘business’ for some extra cash. And I never really thought much of it, at the time. But yesterday when Ben came over, he got all weird and serious and told me he needed to talk to me about Zayne.

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I guess his cousin’s roommate has fallen pretty deep into the drug scene… And Tyler and Ben have always been pretty close, so he was kinda venting about the whole thing. And Ben says the name of the guy’s dealer came up… Eun.

Ben’s so sure it’s the same guy we met at Zayne’s party… That neighbor he’s been “working” for. And if it is…. I mean God, could Zayne really be involved in drugs?! I can’t help but think about how much money he started making all of a sudden… Those Christmas gifts he bought us… That fancy bracelet he got me for my birthday… Did all that money really just come from doing little ‘odd’ jobs? Or is he…?

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I don’t know. I think I’m just overreacting. I mean, there’s no proof this is the same Eun Tyler told Ben about. And even if it is, Zayne’s not dumb enough to get mixed up in anything like that. If I try telling mom about it, it’ll just make her worry and start freaking out over nothing, and Zayne will probably hate me for it.

So until I know more, I guess I’m staying out of it. I have more important stuff to be worrying about anyway, right?

I’m sure he’s fine.

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50 thoughts on “5.28: Shift

  1. ” there’s no proof this is the same Eun Tyler told Ben about”
    But there’s no proof that it isn’t! Best to tell your ma anyway, even if she does freak out. (Besides, you know any other guys named Eun in the area?)

    “Zayne’s not dumb enough to get mixed up in anything like that”
    HAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-

    “Zayne will probably hate me for it”
    Considering how much of a puke sack he’s been lately, I’d say that’s the least of your problems.

    Yeah, Chuck better hurry up and tell somebody (I guess it doesn’t even have to be her mom), before Zayne ends up in prison and probably gets shanked.

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    1. I had a feeling people would enjoy the “Zayne’s not dumb enough” line 😉 Hehehehehehe

      You are so right that she really needs to tell someone before anything bad happens… But will she? 😛

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  2. I really do like Charlie. But she needs to tell – especially now that she knows there is likely drugs involved. Stop burying your head in the sand Charlie, your gonna hate yourself when something really bad happens. So far the last chapter is as bad as it’s been so we are still waiting for the really bad thing that citizen has in store for us. And Charlie could have stopped it and didn’t because he isn’t dumb enough. 🤣

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  3. You know I love a good Charlie chapter! I enjoy that she’s so hesitant like she’s really trying t see how far Zayne can push her conscience before she caves it’s intriguing! Besides I can never have enough of Charlen favorite ship of Gen 5 so far! I can’t wait to see the adorable nooboos they’ll make together! With out further ado here’s this weeks Survival points!

    Total Points at Beginning of Week 4: 57 points

    Tuesday’s Update 1/31/2017
    Gains 10 points for two weeks of living on his own bonus. I assume its been about two weeks from the party to the triplets birthday.
    Lost 2 points for poor reasoning. There was no third option.
    Lost 5 points lying to family. Double Penalty Pending
    Gains 3 points for getting a date. I’m only happy cause I want you see you fail.
    Lost 10 points caught in lie. Double Penalty acquired for : Lost 5 points lying to family. The first of many I’m sure!
    Lost 3 for after reading the text not understanding how much of a jerk he is. You Boob!
    Lost 2 points for another potential blackmail opportunity. Double Penalty Pending.
    Lost 2 points for lack of conscience activity. I don’t know about you but our red headed Pinocchio is in desperate need of his Jiminy Cricket!
    As of this update any strikes with the chance of Double Penalty will go down as pending.
    TPAU: 46 points And so Zayne’s Demise begins mwahahahahhah!
    Thursday’s Update 2/2/2017
    Lost 20 points. Cause I feel like it!
    Gains 5 points for emotional growth! Slow claps!
    TPAU:31 points

    Saturday’s Update 2/4/2017 Double Positive Survival Points
    Gains 10 points for still being alive.
    Lost 2 points for crying in front of Eun. Personally I would have been more pissed off that upset. I mean you almost got me killed by a unscheduled drop. Besides everyone knows you cry about your problems in the bathroom.
    Lost 3 points for taking the money Eun threw at him. Zayne you’re not a whore, you don’t take this shit from anyone! If they don’t have enough respect to put the money in your hand then don’t take it!
    Gains 4 points for home call. I’m am just waiting for the sweet heartfelt moment when Zayne calls Jocelyn mom!
    Gains 2 points for wanting to go home!
    Lost 3 points for his messed up reasoning. Just go home Zayne!
    TPAU: 39 points

    Sunday’s Update 2/5/2017
    Gains 10 points for another two weeks bonus since it’s been a month since the party.
    Lost 5 points for distancing self from friends and family. Those Uni friends won’t pay bail Zayne!
    Lost 3 points for potentially caught drug smuggling. Double Penalty Pending
    Week 4 Total Points: 41 points

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    1. Glad you enjoyed this chapter haha and I must always commend you for all the thought you put into these point totals! Haha nicely done 😛

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    2. I don’t know much about drugs but I DO know-that you never talk back to the Drug Overlord which is what Eun is-I don’t know if there’s anyone above Eun Citizen is there?) if not Eun is like the Drug eviquent of The Godfather (if you seen Zootopia I’m referring to the “Mr. Big” artic shew character)

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  4. Oi, shit’s about to hit the fan! I’m ready for a big gen 5 meltdown, followed by a reparation arc at the beginning of their young adulthood, only to fall apart again and then be built up over the next generation lol
    I’m hyped! I’m ready! Maybe I’m totally wrong and it will be gumdrops and sugar plums, but I’m ready for an explosion!

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      1. You know me, I cant help but look at the positive, sure she’s got her head still in the sand and she still reacting like a kid to both Zayne and the parent situation, but she is starting to see how it could be different. And to question what she’s doing and why. 😀

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  5. No, Charlie, he’s definitely NOT fine. If you can think of a way to extract him from the situation without making it explode, that would be good. That would be excellent in fact.

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  6. Charlie, my dear, Zayne is not FINE! Wake up and smell the bacon!

    T minus 2 days, or 4 days, or whenever, until Hurricane Charlie makes landfall with 200 mph winds, nasty tornadoes, golfball sized hail, and heavy rains! Maybe I’m wrong and it’s just Tropical Storm Charlie with 40 mph winds and the worst that will come out with just flooding and broken tree brances. Whatever the outcome is, I’m in my house of stones ready!

    I hope she’ll find a way to handle this troubling situation without exploding.

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  7. “So until I know more, I guess I’m staying out of it. I have more important stuff to be worrying about anyway, right?”

    Hmph. I don’t care what her last name is. She’s totally a Rosebrook!

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    1. Hehe you won’t have to wait long! I put out four new chapters a week (every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday). So there’s actually a new one tomorrow ^_^

      Thank you so much for reading and catching up. You’re awesome and I appreciate it 😀

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  8. I loved taking that shot of the girls hehe I’m glad you enjoyed it too! 🙂 And I’m glad you’ve warmed up to Ben a bit 🙂 He’s a very small character, but also a very nice guy. Yes, he’s still a teenage boy so he sneaks into her room to have sex with her and likes sending her crude texts LMAO *BUT* he also really loves her and cares about her and her family too. Best of both worlds 😛

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  9. I like the gradual light analogy 🙂 also, the lols on their faces when they got the cars were priceless (well, in theory there was a huge price tag attached, but you know 😀 ) Other than that, Charlie is following suite with her predecessors , of course haha. But I get it, she’s young and only has very little evidence. Zayne could always be working for Eun’s front business, right?

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    1. She may not have the Rosebrook last name, but she’s still a Rosebrook 😉 Hehehehehe I’m glad you enjoyed her metaphor and their excitement over their new cars 😛

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      1. Uhhh yeah … my dad got me a 1956 Buick station wagon that used more transmission fluid than gas … how that ratty old sucker ran I don’t know but I used to go places of it. My desperate friends as well too.

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    1. Haha I think she’s still feeling like if she says something to Joce, it’ll ruin things and make Jocelyne give Zayne more attention again. So she’s justifying it right now by convincing herself it isn’t a big deal… But we’ll see what happens 😛

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