4.37: The Right Thing

Well, I finally did it.

I kept putting it off and making excuses until I couldn’t stand it anymore.

So today, I decided to just suck it up and do it…

I broke up with Elliot.

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It was so horrible. I felt like I was going to be sick the entire time, and I barely made it through two sentences before I started crying. It was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

And he was so great about it… He didn’t yell or anything. I guess he’d been feeling the distance for the past couple of weeks, so it wasn’t a complete surprise. God, he was seriously so sweet. And I think that just made it even worse.

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He did ask why though. And I knew I had to tell him the truth. Elliot’s a great guy, and I love spending time with him…

But I don’t love him. And I’m not sure if I ever really could.

I told him we could still try to be friends, but he said he wasn’t sure. And I get it, I really do… But it still sucks. A lot. And I was still so sad when I got back to the apartment afterward.

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But then I was too distracted to feel sad anymore.

At the time, I had no idea what the hell was going on, but… Apparently Florian stopped by for a surprise visit.

And apparently he and Clara decided to make up… Very enthusiastically. On our couch.

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Oh God, I don’t think I can ever sit there again!

I ran out before they even saw me, thank God. And clearly they could use a little privacy… So I decided to just take a nice long walk back to campus. I really needed to clear my head a little anyway, and think about everything that’s going on.

And I decided that I’m still sad, but… I guess kind of relieved too. I know I did the right thing. For both of us. It wouldn’t be fair to string Elliot along, would it?

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But I guess the question is… What am I gonna do now? I mean, I think I know what I want to do, but… It’s way easier said than done. I can barely even look at Mark now. I just feel so terrified every time.

But that’s not the only thing I feel.

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And that’s why I know that ending things with Elliot was the right thing to do. When I look at Mark, I feel things I never felt when I was with Elliot. I used to think I did, but I didn’t. I know that now.

When I finally went back to the apartment (after texting Clara to warn her first), I felt a lot better. And for a little while, I almost forgot all about Elliot.

It was really great to see Florian again, and catch up about how things are going on tour (apparently not well with David and Mia. I never really liked them much anyway, to be honest). And seeing him and Clara together again made me so happy (especially now that they put some clothes on).

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Seriously though, I still can’t believe he flew all the way here just to fix things. Not many people would do that, I don’t think. It’s really beautiful, and romantic… And it kinda got me thinking.

You’re supposed to fight for the person you love, aren’t you? Take risks for them. Do whatever it takes to make sure you keep them in your life.  Anything to make sure they don’t slip away.

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Florian did that for Clara.

But what about me?

Am I brave enough to do the same?


68 thoughts on “4.37: The Right Thing

    1. I’m proud too! She’s one of the bravest Rosebrooks yet for sure hahaha. And Elliot really is a sweetheart. I know people wanted him to be mean or bad haha but he’s just a nice kid who really liked Joce, but the deep stuff just wasn’t there for them. 😦 We’ll see what Joce does from here! (After she’s done bleaching her eyeballs trying to un-see what happened on that couch 😂)

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    1. Hahaha oh yes, Jocelyne’s not like that. She definitely did the right thing!!!

      And yeah, Clara and Florian were a bit impatient I guess… 😛


  1. Hahaha the idea of Joce walking in on Florian and Clara is hilarious!

    On a more serious note – Joce, it was already super brave to be honest to Eliott and break up with him. So if you can manage that kind of bravery, surely you can be brave enough to be honest with Mark, right? 🙂
    I understand it’s super complicated, though. There are so many if’s and but’s, especially if you want to start a relationship with your boss, who is much older. However, I think she can’t ignore her feelings for much longer and she’ll have to act on them in some way.

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    1. Yes, that poor girl will probably never be able to look at either of them the same way again lmao

      And you’re right, Joce was already brave! Hopefully that courage can continue and carry her forward 🙂 Definitely a lot of uncertainty ahead… But if she never tries, she’ll never know, right?

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  2. Sure you are…

    Hahaha don’t you love that shocked animation? I so over-use it.

    Oh my gosh, they had sex on the sofa. Why? Why? Why? Why didn’t you go to the bedroom and do it privately?

    (We’ve officially had weird sex gen 4. The sofa, THAT YOU SHARE! Gen 1: Bush, Gen 2: Closet, Gen 3: A muddy floor in the middle of the woods.)

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  3. Yes yes this was a wise move on Jocelyn’s part. To continue a relationship with someone you are sure you can’t love is terrible breaking up with him was a good choice. However in regards to Marklyn if there is any possibility (There better not be) that this ship were to fall through The Ashes to Ashes Legacy Ship Club would like an introduction of any other potential canidates sooner better than later so we can observe our options. Thank you Citizen for another lovely chapter, Sincerely President of Ship Club.

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    1. Oh don’t worry as President I have to uphold the wishes of my club members. I know for a fact that Citizen will make the best choice possible and we’ll all love it. Just got do what I gotta do as president. P.S. the Club is really just me and about five friends who don’t have accounts of their own but are always telling me their opinions on things that happen in the story. They all binge read this and now it’s something we all enjoy together, but they no what’s up and who really controls the show.

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      1. Hahaha we’ll see if people actually love what happens! 😛 But I appreciate your trust too 😉

        And oh my goodness I love that you have friends who binge read and enjoy my story! It seriously just made my day to hear that. Tell them all I thank them ^_^


  4. OH my! She needs to get some courage herself, really, girl, go there and GET YOUR MAN, hon, you are NOT a plant to just wait for him, go there and SAY IT! Am I right, Marklyn shippers (this keybord don’t have the question mark…) *applaudes* And if he truly loves you, you will get it< You are a stong, independent woman who can decide who your are going to date! AKA, GO GET HIM, GIRL!

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  5. I was right! 😝 I guessed she might be breaking up with Elliott in this chapter… You go girl. Fight for what you want! she is an old soul and belongs with Mark. Uh – what is the age difference? I know you probably mentioned it somewhere.

    The look on her face was priceless when she walked in on the Clarian naked party! 😳 Oopsie! Can’t wait to see the nooboos. 😀

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    1. Hahahaha yes, when you guessed that was what she was doing I was like “um, how did she figure that out?!?!” Hahaha so you get a prize for that 😉

      Most people get a little nervous when I remind them of the age difference haha he is literally twice her age. He’s 44 and she’s 22. Definitely a large gap!


      1. Whoa. That is big. And someone else reminded us of the Humberto situation with Mari and then she found Jonas. I was thinking more along the lines of Mark being close to 40. But he is older than her parents. That will go over like a lead balloon. Drama…..I have a feeling that this won’t be Humberto though. But as you always say, we shall see…

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  6. Joce, you get two prizes: a sticker and a cookie! You’re so brave to tell Elliot why you decided to break up with him! I’m glad he didn’t like cry it out loud or get mad.

    OMG, that shocked amination! Oh, Joce. I find it funny that she walked in on Clara and Florian! I’m going to incorporate those animations and poses in my legacy.

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    1. Glad you enjoyed this one! Jocelyne is grateful for both her sticker and her cookie 😛 She was definitely brave here 🙂 (but got rewarded by a very uncomfortable show on her couch lmao)

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  7. Yes yes yes! That’s awesome! I’m not even sad that she broke up with Elliot. I really like him and all… just not for Jocelyne. Now she needs to keep going!! Although I can understand that it is difficult… telling someone twice the age as you that you love him… ugh :/

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    1. Haha I’m glad you’re so excited 🙂 Elliot is a great guy, but definitely not “the one”! But yeah, whatever’s ahead for Joce will not be easy haha

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  8. Yeah, I’m glad she didn’t too! I think Joce is very much a romantic who wants to save herself for someone she really loves 🙂

    And as for how Mark feels… We shall see!


    1. Haha I’m glad you’re happy, but I never understood why you hate the poor kid so much! He’s a nice guy. 🙂 Friendly, funny, kind… Just not “the one” for Jocelyne. But he never did anything bad at all! And I am rooting for him to find happiness after he handled that breakup with such grace ❤

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  9. I’m throwing a mini “YAY FOR THIS BREAK UP” party. Too soon? Is that too mean of me? 😉 😛

    Oh, well, great for Joce for being able to see her feelings for Mark. And she is definitely brave enough! ❤

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    1. Hahahaha It’s okay to be happy! Though don’t invite Elliot. It still hurts for him hahaha. We’ll find out soon if she’s brave enough! 😀


  10. I am proud of Joce, i am glad Elliot did not freak out on her like some guys would have done wow 22 and 44 that is a big age difference but Joce seems mature for her age they will make it work somehow, now Joce needs to go be brave again and take a chance on love and ask Mark out “Come on girl you can do it!”.

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  11. Did she actually tell Elliot it was MARK she loved? Or just that she loved another!! Wow, gah – if she said Mark, she’s braver than brave. Elliot would probably go to his office and call him a dirty old man or something obscene in his heartbreak.

    Be brave Joce, you will need ALL your bravery, but you can do this!

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    1. Hahaha she said neither! Sorry that wasn’t clear! When she said she told him the truth, the next couple lines were what she told him — that she doesn’t love him. 🙂

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  12. I’m so proud of Joce for acknowledging she isn’t interested in Elliot in a romantic fashion and having the guts to tell him, that would’ve been SO hard. She must of been so worried about his initial reaction, but it’s really sweet to see how good he was about it and I think even he was on the same page as her 🙂

    Haha XD Poor Joce, she’s starting to become like her brother – seeing things she doesn’t want to see 😛 I’m glad Clara was too ‘distracted’ to notice her though (thank goodness for that 😉 )

    Yes Joce! I know you’re brave enough! I shall hope it all works out with Mark. I really think there’s something between them and you should certainly fight for love ❤ 🙂

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    1. Nessy I’m so glad to have you commenting again! I had missed you ❤ I was really proud of Joce too, though I felt bad that the poor girl was essentially scarred for life lmao


  13. “Oh God, I don’t think I can ever sit there again!” BUAHAHA!! Oh my :O
    All of the happiness is surging back :O Gus Gus is starting to accept himself, Clara and Florian are getting their ish together, and Jocelyne BETTER go confess to Mark.

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  14. Yes a clean slate so things wont be messy (wink wink). I feel bad for Elliot but its for the best, he didn’t deserve just part of her he should have all of her. But she is into Mark right now and needs to see where that will go if it does.

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