4.36: Someone to Love

Alright, I feel like I have so much to write about that I’m almost not sure where to start. Let’s just say there’s a hell of a lot going on with the kids right now — the good, the bad, and, unfortunately, the ugly too.

Guess I should start with the good, huh?

You’ll never guess where Gus is right now.

He went to the movies… With Emma.

Lettie and I were literally shocked. Speechless. And when Mama and Papa get home from work and I tell them about it, I bet they won’t believe it either.

I mean, I knew he’d finally managed to talk to her again. But it didn’t really seem to go well…

It all started a couple days ago. I don’t know what Gus said to finally convince her to come, but she showed up at our doorstep one afternoon. The poor girl looked so uncomfortable to be here… It was so awkward, but honestly? It was really nice to see her again. Emma’s always been like part of the family.

I just wish it was under better circumstances.

And anyway, she didn’t stay around for very long. The two of them left for a walk together, and were gone for nearly an hour. When they finally came home, they both looked like they’d been crying. And Emma didn’t stick around for very long after that.

Of course, Gus wouldn’t say a word about what happened. It looked pretty bad, and he spent a lot of time in his room for the rest of the day…

So imagine my shock when the doorbell rang this afternoon and I saw Emma waiting on the other side. She was even smiling! And so was he, when he saw her.

What the hell could be going on? Could they have somehow gotten back together? Colette seems convinced, but I’m not so sure… We don’t wanna nag him too much about it, obviously. We’re just so happy to have him smiling again! I was so worried. We all were… I know it’s pretty soon to say for sure, but I think that maybe – just maybe – we finally have our Gus back.

Now the only question is, does he have Emma back? We’re definitely gonna have a few questions for him when he gets home.

And speaking of questions… Well, Gus isn’t the only one to fall under the “good” category, thankfully.

I think Lettie’s been driving poor Lucas crazy with all the interrogation about his new girlfriend. Every time he calls, she practically rips the phone out of my hands to start grilling him. It’s actually kind of cute.

Y’know, I really never thought I’d see my son like this. I mean, he hasn’t even been with Hazel for two weeks, but he’s already talking about moving in with her when he comes back from the tour. They’ve even been checking out apartments online… Crazy, right? Colette and I aren’t exactly thrilled with the idea, but… Who are we to stop him?

You know what though? I’m happy for him. I really am. I just really hope Lucas knows what he’s doing. He’s been hurt so many times before… It almost reminds me of Stefan, and all the trouble he had with girls when we were growing up… But his string of bad luck led to something really wonderful, in the end.

And maybe that’s what Lucas finally found too.

This Hazel definitely sounds like a nice girl… And my son is absolutely head-over-heels for her. The way he talks about her almost reminds me of the way I used to talk about Colette every summer after camp. Or the way Clara used to talk about Florian, when they first got together.

Y’know, this probably sounds bad, but… I don’t think I’ve ever heard Jocelyne talk about Elliot that way. Come to think of it, she’s barely even mentioned him much lately. Classes? Sure. Theater? Always. Work? Definitely – she’s always passing on funny or interesting stories her boss told her. But her boyfriend? Lettie and I usually have to ask before she’ll say anything about him.

I know she’s always been a little more reserved, but… I guess it’s kinda weird. Lucas and Hazel have barely started dating, and yet he never stops talking about her… But we never really hear much about Elliot.

It makes me wonder what might be going on with them…

And the worst part is, according to Lucas, Jocelyne might not be the only one having relationship trouble. This is where it gets ugly, I guess.

It almost makes me feel sick to write this… But I guess things are rough with Clara and Florian right now. REALLY rough. Lucas wouldn’t give us many details, but I guess they got into some kind of nasty fight a few days ago. He wouldn’t say whether he thought they’d actually broken up or not, just that things were bad. Worse than they’ve ever been, from the sound of it.

I just hope they can work through it. We all love Florian. He’s family. He has been ever since he was a little kid. And if anything bad happened between him and Clara… It would be horrible. For all of us.

I’m so glad things are going well for Gus and Emma again, and Lucas and Hazel too. But I can’t help worrying about Jocelyne and Clara… All I want is for them to be happy too, y’know?

I mean, I think about grandpa and vovó, Mama and Papa, Diego and Rachelle, Josh and Krys… That’s what I want my kids to have someday. Someone to share their life with. Someone who’ll stay by them even through the worst times. Someone to laugh with. Someone to love, forever.

I was lucky enough to find that with my Lettie.

But what about my kids?

Will they find it too?