1.14: Worth It

Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written anything.  I just  

Alright, scratch that.

I think I’m gonna stop apologizing or making excuses when I neglect this thing for a while. I mean, who am I apologizing to anyway? The wrinkly, grey-haired version of myself who’s probably laughing his ass off right now at what a dumb kid he was?

Yeah, something tells me he’ll understand…

Anyway, it feels like so much has happened since the last time I wrote… But actually, I guess not that much has changed, really. Still stuck in the same old job, still hanging out at the library almost every day, and still in love with the most amazing girl in the world.

Jade and I have been living in that cramped little tent on my huge, empty lot for almost a year now. I was kind of surprised she was so willing to move in with me, to be honest. I mean, she was leaving behind a big beautiful house with electricity, a toilet, a real bed… But when I finally got the courage to bring it up one day, she didn’t even hesitate. And I’m so happy she didn’t.

Not too long after I proposed, I finally took Jade back to Newcrest with me to meet my parents. I was so nervous. I mean, they’d talked to her on the phone plenty of times, but finally meeting them in person… It was huge. And a little scary. But they really seemed to hit it off.

And seeing just how well she got along with my family really helped me realize that I made the right decision… that Jade’s the one I’m meant to be with for the rest of my life.

Now, we still haven’t tied the knot… We’re trying to worry about other things first – Mostly our careers… and living situation. Four walls and a roof above our heads would be a nice start. And actually, that’s how I ended up digging out this old notebook again in the first place.

It took a long time, but we’ve finally saved up enough that we can start building. It won’t be more than a shack, really. But it’ll be better than what we have now… Well, let’s be honest – anything would be. Anyway, we can’t afford a real architect, or even a real contractor, for that matter… So I’ll be doing a lot of the work myself.

But it’ll be worth it.

Of course, we had to get all our things out of the way, and it was when we were packing up all our stuff that I found this journal again, and decided I was overdue for a bit of an update.

So… Things are pretty good right now. We’ve been staying at Jade’s old place for a little over a week, and we’ll probably be there for about a month or so, until I get our new place fixed up.

Paolo, Marcus, and Eva seem really excited to have us around, actually. I’ve gotta admit, our old gang hasn’t been going out quite as often as we used to… Or I should say, Jade and I haven’t been going out as much. We’re just so busy with our jobs, and trying to save up for the house and the wedding. But when we’re all under the same roof, it’s a little bit harder to say no…

And speaking of being under a roof, living in an actual house has been pretty amazing, and being back in Jade’s old bedroom reminds me of all the nights I used so spend there when we’d first started dating. And I think those memories have, uh… brought back a little bit of the old ‘spark’ in both of us…

Anyway, the next time I write, we’ll have our own bedroom in our own house… And I can’t wait. It won’t be much, but it’ll be a new beginning for us. And, with any luck, we’ll have enough money to turn it into something great in no time.