1.12: Listen to Your Heart

Holy crap.

It’s been nearly a year since I’ve touched this old notebook.

Yes, you read that correctly. And no, a bunch of pages haven’t fallen out of this thing. I just, well… kinda forgot about it, to be honest.

Originally, this little journal was just supposed to be something to keep me busy. Just to have something to do, and not be so bored all the time. I guess after a while, I didn’t really need it anymore… I had plenty to do on my own!

Maybe I’m not living the most exciting life, but it’s not boring either, I guess.

Okay, so maybe a few things have been boring… But they’re keeping me busy, at least. I started a vegetable garden, and I’ve been selling what I grow down at the local market for some extra cash.

I’ve been trying to do some fishing too, but I’m not very good at it.

And I actually got a really nice promotion at work, if you can believe it! I still hate that place though… Poor Jade. She’s so driven, and really loves her job… And yet somehow, while I got bumped up the ranks a bit, she’s still stuck as nothing more than the cute little secretary. I keep trying to put a good word in for her, but it hasn’t worked yet.

Of course, she’s never complained or anything. Not even once. She just tells me how happy she is for me, and how proud she is. I guess I should be proud too, but… To be honest, I’m thinking of quitting soon, and looking for something better. We’ll see what happens.

Anyway, as for Jade… Well, that’s actually why I decided to dig out this old journal and start writing. I’ve been thinking about our relationship a lot lately…

The ups and the downs. The good and the bad… We’ve been through a lot together this past year. Some of it’s been absolutely incredible. And some of it, well… Some of it’s been pretty rough.

After everything we’ve been through, I think I know what I want to do. What I have to do. But it definitely won’t be easy… And how can I be sure it’s the right thing, for either of us?

Bjorn came over earlier tonight, and we talked about it for a long time. He always gives the best advice. And this time, his suggestion was simple: “Hör auf dein Herz.”

So that’s what I’m going to do.

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Author’s Note: Thank you to everyone for reading, and a very Merry Christmas to all of you! 🙂