9.34: Sunrise

The longer the two of them sat there, the more Asher’s mind continued to race.

“Ollie, please… Just tell me what’s wrong.” His shaking voice finally broke the silence. 

Beside him, Oliver shrugged. “It’s… complicated.”

Asher felt himself growing suddenly angry at his friend’s words. “Seriously? ‘It’s complicated’?! That’s bullshit and you know it. You’re gonna have to do better than that.”

Ollie let out a heavy sigh. “I know. I’m sorry.”

“So what is it then? Are… are you afraid or something? Because of the whole ‘being with a guy’ thing? ‘Cause I mean, I get it, okay? But we can figure it out…”

His friend shook his head. “It’s not that.”

“Is it Landon?” This time, Asher felt more confident in his guess. “Is it because I still… y’know?” Still love him, he’d wanted to say. But saying those words out loud to Ollie felt wrong. “Because that’s… that’s not gonna change anything about us. I promise. I tried to make Landon see that, but he couldn’t. But I hope you can.” His voice was full of desperation.

“That’s… a tiny part of it, I guess.” Ollie admitted. At least they were finally getting somewhere.  “Can’t lie, that part feels a little weird.” He paused for a moment. “But that’s not really it. There’s something else.”

Asher felt a bit of his anger flaring up once more. “I’m getting really fucking tired of this guessing game! Just… tell me!”

Ollie took a deep breath. “Okay, okay… So, you remember the day you took your SATs right? When you got back home and… and I was there, and we talked and stuff?”

Asher nodded. It was many weeks ago now, but still so fresh in his mind. “How could I forget?” He asked.

“And, remember how I had to go? Because I was meeting Mom for dinner and she had some kind of ‘big news’ to tell me?”

Asher hesitated a moment before nodding this time. He had to dig a little deeper to recall that particular detail — his mind had been much more fixated on the warmth in Ollie’s eyes when he’d looked at him, or the gentle comfort of his embrace. “Yeah… I think so.”

Ollie’s voice shook nervously as he continued. “And I figured she was just excited about some stupid new movie role, same as always. But this time, it was different. She, uh, signed a deal for a TV show.”

Asher’s eyes widened. “Really? Cool!” Callie had filmed a few mini-series in the past, but as far as he knew, she’d never had a full-on television series under her belt. 

“Yeah… She calls it her ‘big career move’.” For a moment, Ollie’s lips twitched into a smile. “She got a three-season deal right off the bat. It’s one of those lame ‘female cop has tons of sexual tension with her male partner’ things. It’s been done about a million times, but Mom’s pretty excited about it.”

“That’s awesome! But I’m not really sure what that has to do with us…”

Oliver bit his lip. “Well, the thing is… They’re gonna film the show in New York. And instead of flying back and forth, Mom wants to… um…” He turned away from Asher, leaving the sentence unfinished.

Asher stared at Ollie for a moment, saying nothing as he let the words sink-in. It took only seconds for him to finally understand. His stomach lurched horribly as the realization hit him.

“You’re leaving.”

The moment the words passed his lips, Asher watched as his best friend burst into tears. “I didn’t know how to tell you. I’m sorry.” Ollie choked out between sobs. “I didn’t wanna ruin everything…”

Even seeing Oliver break down, Asher found himself unable to shed any tears of his own. He just felt numb and empty. “That’s why you’ve been so…” He wasn’t sure exactly how to describe it. Distant? Moody? Weird?

Oliver nodded. “I was scared.” He confessed tearfully, his voice shaking more than ever. “Because I knew if we got t-too close, it would just hurt m-ore when I’m g-gone…”

The heaviness in Asher’s chest had become so much that it was almost difficult to breathe. He forced the deepest breath he could muster before finally speaking again. “You should have told me.”

“I know. I’m an idiot.”

“But… But just ‘cause you’re leaving doesn’t mean we can’t be together!” A strange sense of deja vu washed over him then. For a moment, all the hopes and expectations he’d once held for himself and Landon seemed to return. “We could try and figure out the whole long distance thing…” 

“Asher, no.” Despite his tears, Ollie’s voice was surprisingly firm. “I’m not gonna put you through that… or myself.” He added almost guiltily.

“Seriously? You’re just gonna throw it all away, just like that?” Asher snapped. “You’re not even gonna consider it?”

“I’m not.” Oliver wasn’t backing down. He let out a small, impatient sigh and paused to wipe the tears from his eyes. “Ash, do you know why my parents broke up back when I was a kid?”

He shook his head. Ollie’s parents had been broken up for nearly three years before Asher even met him.  

“Mom was out here in LA working on her acting career, and Dad flew back to London to record with his band all the time. And when he wasn’t doing that, he’d be off on some stupid world tour. He’d be gone for months. They spent more time on opposite sides of the world than they did together. And do you know what happened?”

Asher said nothing, but did not shake his head this time. He had a very bad feeling he could guess the answer. 

“Dad cheated on Mom. More than once. The tabloids found out before she did. But he didn’t even try to deny it.” His voice was dripping with disgust as he spoke.

“That’s awful.” Asher admitted. “I wish I could say it was surprising too, but…”

Ollie nodded. “Yeah, I know.”

“But… I don’t get it. You think I’d cheat on you or something?!” It was impossible to mask how offended he felt at the idea. “Or… Or that you’d cheat on me?”

“I don’t know!” Ollie cried. “I wanna believe that neither of us would do something like that… But I’m sure Mom believed that too.” He added softly. “Hell, I know my dad’s an asshole, but I’m pretty damn sure he didn’t believe he’d do it either. Not back then. I remember how it used to be. He loved Mom. But… people change. Especially when they’re in that kind of situation.”

“Yeah, but not everybody!” Asher insisted. “There are plenty of people who make it work!”

Ollie shook his head. “Look, I’m not gonna fight about this. Long distance friendship is gonna be hard enough as it is. Especially when we go to college next year too… Who the hell knows where we’re both gonna end up?” 

Asher said nothing. The logical, rational side of him could understand where Ollie was coming from. Long distance would be hard, especially for people as young as they were… Maybe he and Landon would have been doomed no matter what. 

But at least they’d had a few amazing months together. It was something Asher knew he would cherish for the rest of his life. But why should he only have that chance with Landon? What about Ollie?

Asher took a breath. “When are you leaving?” He asked softly.

“I’m not sure, exactly. I made Mom promise to let me finish the school year here, and they don’t start filming til August… so probably sometime in July?”

Asher’s heart sank even further. That was around the same time Landon was supposed to be moving to Ohio to start football training. In barely two months, they’d both be gone. Maybe forever.

“Shit. That’s not a lot of time.” He replied at last.

Ollie’s voice was pained. “I know.”

“Okay, so… I know there’s no changing your mind on the long distance thing… And I get it.”

Ollie eyed him warily. “Ash…”

Though Asher’s heart was breaking, he felt a strange sort of determination rising up within him. “Just hear me out. We’ve already wasted enough time, haven’t we? So why should we waste these last couple months we have together? This might be our only chance.”

“Fuck, Asher.” It was clear just how torn his best friend felt at this suggestion. “I dunno…”

“We don’t have to put a label on anything.” Asher insisted. “We don’t even have to tell anybody. Not even Lily, if you don’t want to. I just hate the idea of always wondering, you know? We’ve finally made it this far. We can’t… We can’t just throw it away. Not after all this.” He was practically begging now. “We’ve gotta try it. Even if it’s just for a little while…”

“This is just gonna make everything hurt even more when I leave, you know.” Ollie’s voice was a whisper.

“It will.” Asher agreed. And though a small smile had found its way onto his lips, he finally felt as though he were about to cry. “But you’re worth it.”

His friend said nothing then, and neither did Asher… What more was there to say?

Oliver’s dark eyes gazed deeply into his for several long moments.

And then, well, they both decided to let their bodies do the talking.

He and Ollie didn’t go all the way that night, but Asher didn’t mind. Even if they never made it to that point before they parted ways, what they shared there in the dim light of Ollie’s bedroom was enough. That night was so incredibly special to Asher, and meant just as much to him as those beautiful firsts he had once shared with Landon.

He knew it was something he would remember for the rest of his life.

When it was all over, they pulled their pajamas back on and laid together in Ollie’s soft, warm bed, holding each other in the silence until Ollie finally drifted off to sleep. 

Asher brushed his lips against the other boy’s forehead before gently untangling himself from Ollie’s embrace and rising from the bed. The sun had already begun to rise and yet still, sleep eluded him.

He walked across the hall and out onto one of the mansion’s many balconies, looking out at the beautifully glowing sky as the sun continued creeping higher and higher over the horizon. 

It was breathtakingly beautiful, and yet so fleeting. Asher knew that in just a few minutes’ time, it would all be over. The day would carry on, but that perfect view of the glorious sunrise would be nothing but a memory… 

And though another sunrise would arrive the next morning, it would never be quite the same as this one.

Nothing ever lasts, does it? Asher realized. No matter how much we want it to.

The beautiful view in front of him became a misshapen blur as he finally allowed his tears to fall.

17 thoughts on “9.34: Sunrise

  1. As much as I’ve been rooting for these two to hookup, this was incredibly sad. I think Asher is going to be the one hurt even more than Ollie or Landon was. Asher pushed Ollie when he said no. He should’ve respected his wishes even though they both wanted it.

    So now Asher’s heart will 100% broken into a bunch of itty bitty pieces after both his lovers leave. He’ll be forever jaded that love just doesn’t last. I hoe not and he finds someone as an adult. Ohhhh. This means the adult years are coming! Yikes…..

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    1. That’s true — Asher is just hurting them both more by convincing Ollie to let it happen… But he was just so desperate to have that chance with him, even if it’s brief…

      You could be right 😬 Asher might end up totally cynical about love, much like his mother was (but for a very different reason!). We’ll see though… time jump to adult is indeed coming up very soon! 😈

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  2. Dark WitcHazard: You can feel the agony in this chapter ooh I love it I love it I love it!🥰

    Lover WitcHazard: Asher why just why this isn’t going to help you in the long run! I mean after this when you see those pics of both of them moving on with someone else it’s already gonna hurt now it’s going to hurt like a motherfucker! Where are we are on this teen arc? All this teen love drama is making me depressed I’m ready for some drunk YA shenanigans!

    Shipper WitcHazard:😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    Anti Shipper: Asher aren’t you tired? Love shouldn’t be like the trials of Hercules nobody got time for all that! It’s supposed to come naturally! You’re not suppose to be begging for table scraps when you deserve the whole meal! Maybe right now isn’t the time for love and that’s not a bad thing! For now just focus on school work, improving family relationships except for one you can resolve it after she’s dead. Go off to college start your career. And if the urge comes up it’s not illegal to bang a rando! As long as there’s consent and you use protection. And then when you Keats expect it love will find you! Or not and to that I say there’s nothing wrong with being a bachelor for the rest of your life! Down with ships!!!🤬

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    1. Ha! Glad Dark was excited at least 😂 Yes, lots of agony here! And Lover is right, Asher’s kinda doing it to himself right now 😬

      As for where we are in the teen arc… the next chapter is actually the last teen chapter! Then we are jumping ahead! 😁

      I hope Shipper doesn’t drown in tears 😬😭 and Anti actually spoke with a bit of reason here 😛 Asher should probably focus on other things for now and just see what happens…

      Thanks to the court for their insights! Hope they aren’t all going crazy quarantined together 😉

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  3. Hehe. This chapter was amazing! Still a little annoyed that Penny hasn’t been caught out yet but love the fact that these two finally hooked up. I’m still rooting for a Landon, Ollie, Asher three-way relationship but I’ll settle with this for now.

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    1. That was both beautifully bittersweet and “horndoggy”.

      My oh my, the heartache. Can’t wait for the resolution to this teenage drama 😀

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      1. Haha a good mix 😂 As for the teenage drama… the end is very, very soon! 😱 Can’t wait!

        Thank you very much for your comment, as always! 😁

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    2. Hehehe yes, Penny still has gotten away with what she did 😱 I’m glad you liked the chapter! Even if it won’t last, at least he and Ollie get to be together for a little while ❤️

      Sorry you still haven’t gotten your three-way 😭

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  4. I am not sure Asher will be ok after two horrible heart breaks. I hope things start working and falling into place for him. I can’t wait to see what’s up with Penny and Lilly too.

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    1. This is a good point, poor kid has gone through a lot in a short amount of time! 😭

      There is definitely more Penny and Lily to come… especially after the upcoming time jump 😉

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  5. Oh man I almost missed this!

    So…Oliver is MOVING! Well I can understand why he would want to tread cautiously. Fun fact: hubby and I were in the same situation and so we had fun for the summer. Our paths crossed six months later and the rest is history so I believe in them! 😭

    Loved all the cute kissy scenes (not thinking about Landon lurking on the sidelines! 😝)

    Great chapter! ❤️❤️❤️

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    1. Awww! I love hearing that story about you and your husband… sounds like it was really meant to be! ❤ Maybe Asher and Ollie will have similar luck? You never know!!!

      And LOL that's Asher's problem, huh? When he's with Landon, Ollie is lurking. When he's with Ollie, Landon's lurking! 😛 Hehe

      Glad you enjoyed this one ❤ ❤ ❤

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  6. Interresting enought. a relative of mine went throught a situation like this. He knew a girl would leave in a month, and yet dated her during that period of time. And yea, it still hurt a lot lol. They tried the online dating, but alas, the distance was too much to bare for someone you only had spent one month with.

    Well, I thought this would have something to do with moving. Strangely enought, I agree with Oliver. Long distant dating is a commitment, and people might change. Also, one things is spending like a year away from the husband you have been married with for 8 years, another thing is a months-long teenage relationship at an sexual desire is at it’s peak. As Asher said, people can work out, but the odds are agaisnt them.

    I hoep they’ll have a magical time together. Better regret have done it, then not. It will hurt a lot for Asher, but hey, he’ll get over it. He got over Landon after all.

    I’m suprised we haven’t touched the whole Penny ordeal yet, and by that I mean the way she most likely told Landon that Asher liked Ollie lol. Tbw I think the reveal might come from herself years later, as I’m pretty sure Asher has more in his mind then *that*.

    I wonder what the future holds for him. Both partner-wise and actual-future wise. Hopefully he’ll stop disliking his sister so much lol. (The same for her!No need to grow up with such dislike for your brother.)

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    1. Yeah, the point you brought up is exactly what’s going on here — If they were older and/or had been together for a longer amount of time, it would be worth it to try the long distance thing. But in this case… Ollie is being realistic. Their friendship has spanned years, yes. But after only a couple months together romantically, the likelihood it would have worked out was low :-/ Like Asher said, even if Landon had agreed to try long distance, it likely would have failed too…

      As for Penny’s situation… Guess she got away with it! As for whether it ever comes up again years down the line… we shall see!

      The answer to many of the things you’re wondering about will be revealed before too long… The future is sooner than you think 😉

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  7. Okay so somehow I got unsubscribed from your notifications and it took me six months to notice (oops) but I binged what I’ve missed and holy WOW I have so many feelings!

    First off, with Asher being a Rosebrook *and* being gay; poor boy never had a chance at having a drama-free life 😂 We all know the Rosebrooks can’t communicate to save their lives, and us gays can’t help but bring the drama wherever we go lol. The whole “crush on a friend you think is straight so you convince yourself it’ll never happen except later on you find out that they do in fact like you but everything is weird now” situation is definitely a familiar one!

    And Penny… hoo boy is that a whole other can of worms! I want to say that I can’t believe she’d do something like that, but I totally can! I’m definitely interested to see how that plays out (I see her there pouting on the banner, there’s got to be more drama coming!).

    I saw on one of the other comments that you said the teen arc is ending soon. Can’t wait to see what happens to these little messes of teens that whom I love so much ❤️

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    1. Hey there stranger!!! I’ve missed seeing you around! I’m so glad you’re back! ❤️ (WordPress is so weird like that, isn’t it???)

      I’m really glad you’ve been enjoying this drama-filled gen so far! 😁 It’s been fun to write 😈 And yes, teen-Penny sure was something 😂 Maybe adult-Penny will be a little better? 😬🤞🏻 We shall see…

      In fact, we will see very soon! 😉 Another chapter is coming out today! I’m shooting for Wednesday mornings (EST) as my new update day for now (unfortunately I’m down to once a week due to life being wild haha)

      Thanks for your comment, I’m happy to see you here again! 😁❤️

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