9.27: Speed Bump

Thank you so much to everyone for your patience with this recent schedule change! I’m so sorry that this chapter took nearly two weeks to complete… I promise the wait for the next one will not be nearly as long! Just wanted to remind everyone that I (for now!) no longer have a set update schedule, so it might be good to make sure that you are following and/or check back regularly so you don’t miss a chapter!

Thanks so much to everyone for being awesome ❤


Why can’t anything in my life ever get good… And then STAY that way? Am I cursed or something?

Everything was going amazing, for a while. I mean, minus the super-fucking-awkward mess of being confused about Ollie… but even that was starting to get a little better. 

It’s not like I can make all those feelings disappear overnight, you know? But I can stop thinking about them.

I just need to remember that I’m with Landon now. And I’m so happy with him. I love him. What we have is real.

Ollie and I never even had anything to begin with (well, besides being best friends, obviously). Anything else was just in my head. And sure, if any of those crackpot theories about parallel timelines or multiple realities are true, maybe there’s some version out there of me and Ollie who ARE together. And maybe in that reality, we’re perfect for each other. Who knows?

Not me. And that’s the point. I’ve gotta let go of all that wondering. Because I’m never gonna know. I’ve just gotta suck it up, accept it, and move on.

It was hard as hell at first. And there are some days when it still is, but it was finally starting to get easier. Especially once things with me and Landon really started taking off… 

God, he’s even more amazing than I realized. In ways I never realized either. And yes, part of that means he’s fucking amazing in bed. Like, mind-blowingly amazing. He took something I was absolutely terrified of and turned it into the most incredible thing in the entire world. 

Now when we’re together, it’s basically impossible to keep our hands (and mouths and… okay, you get the idea) off each other.

But it goes way beyond that too. We love spending time together… everything’s just better when I’m with him. Even if it’s just hanging out.

We still play video games and work on our Trig homework together. He sits with me while I study for my SATs, even quizzes me sometimes. It’s kinda fun hanging out in the library after school some days. Kinda like old times… Except it’s me doing the studying this time around. 

Landon’s so patient and sweet and funny (and hot, but that goes without saying at this point, doesn’t it?). It’s hard to believe that I spent so many years just like, mindlessly drooling over him and that perfect ass of his. I never even took the time to consider how amazing he is as a person. 

And somehow, against every friggin odd out there, he ended up choosing someone like me. It’s incredible, isn’t it?

(Okay, I know you’re waiting for the “But”… And here it comes).

Like I said, everything was totally perfect. But this week, something changed. All of a sudden, Landon’s been… I can’t really think of a better word to use for it than ‘distant’. He’s not smiling as much when we’re together at school, he’s making lame excuses for why he can’t hang out after school… It’s so fucking weird.

But I have a feeling I know what’s going on.

I think this means he finally picked his school for next year… And I’m pretty sure Ohio won. Which is equal parts amazing and horrible — Amazing for Landon, horrible for me. 

Can’t lie, I’ve been dreading this for a while. But what kind of a selfish dick would I be if I tried talking him out of it? I’ve spent the last month telling him he should ‘follow his heart’, or whatever, so this shouldn’t be so upsetting. But it kinda is. 

And for him too, from the looks of it. 

But we’re gonna find a way to make it work. I know we will. Like I keep telling him, people make this long distance thing work all the time! And it’s only one year til I graduate too. I’ve already been narrowing down where I’m gonna apply next year, and OSU does have a pretty great medical program… 

Of course, me going all the way to Ohio also means being thousands of miles away from Lily and Ollie too. Maybe that wouldn’t be such a bad thing though, given the circumstances?

I’ve still got all this unresolved… whatever with Ollie. And if I really wanna leave it behind me, maybe being away from him would make it easier.

Too bad being on the other side of the country from him would suck just as much as being away from Landon will too. Ugh. Fuck this stupid ‘feelings’ shit. Seriously.

Look, all I know is that the one person I definitely would NOT mind being thousands of miles away from is Penny. She’s been driving me fucking insane lately… (Yes, even more than usual, somehow).

It all started a couple weeks ago when Ollie dumped her. She’s somehow got it in her head that it’s MY fault, for some reason. Like I planned for this whole thing to happen because I wanted to steal Ollie from her or something. What the hell?!

How is it my fault that Ollie finally realized he can do so much better than my bratty little sister? Yeah, sure, maybe I feel some… things… about Ollie. But it’s not like he feels anything about me. And even if he did, well, Landon got there first. And I’m not about to dump my amazing boyfriend over some stupid fantasy. 

But Penny’s still convinced I was somehow behind this whole thing. She had this big blow-up at me about it a couple weeks ago, then went right back to her stupid silent treatment shit. Which is preferable to her fucking tantrums, but still.

It got to the point where Mom and Dad even tried getting involved, but it didn’t really seem to do anything… Until a few days ago.

I have no fucking clue what changed, but Penny’s been acting weird too. And by ‘weird’ I mean… actually acknowledging my existence. Even being… hmm… I don’t wanna say ‘nice’ to me. That’s a huge stretch. But she isn’t glaring at me or avoiding me the way she used to. It’s kind of the opposite, actually. She’s almost too interested in me. It’s like she’s keeping an eye on me or something. Scrutinizing what I say and do. It’s so fucking weird.

And unlike with Landon, I have no idea what could be causing it. But it’s kinda freaking me out.

I actually thought about bringing it up to Ollie… Seeing what he thinks about it and stuff. But for once, he’s actually one of the only people who’s acting halfway normal right now, and I really don’t wanna fuck that up.

Because minus my little sister deciding she hates my guts (even more than she used to) and then acting weird as hell all of a sudden, Ollie dumping Penny was actually the best thing that could have happened for me and him. We’d been kinda ‘losing each other’ for a while now, if you know what I mean. But now that he’s finally opened his eyes and realized he deserves someone better than Penny, he’s free to actually be my best friend again…

Sort of.

I guess I’m still kind of ‘careful’ around him now. Things aren’t gonna go back to exactly the same as they used to be. I’ve gotta make time for Landon. And I’ve gotta make sure I don’t start thinking things I shouldn’t… Having Lily around when we hang out helps. A lot. I make sure it’s always the three of us any time we hang out now.

But the point is… we’re hanging out again. I’ve really missed having Ollie around, and I’m happy we can finally go back to spending time together, even if things are never gonna be the same again.  Even if I feel weird mentioning Landon in front of him. Even if it’s still hard to be near him sometimes. It’s still better than how it used to be.

So at least I’ve got that going for me?

Next step is to figure out what’s going on with Landon… Like I said, it’s probably the Ohio thing. Which does suck, but we’re gonna get through it. It’s just a speed bump we’ve gotta get over. That’s all. We’re gonna be fine.

And as for Penny and her weird shit…

Well, she’s Penny. So who the hell knows?

16 thoughts on “9.27: Speed Bump

  1. “I’ve gotta let go of all that wondering. Because I’m never gonna know.” 🙄. Hmmmm. Methinks he might find out if Landon is cooling his heels because he is going to OSU…. 😳. I always wanted him with Ollie, but now I’m not sure. Haha. Neither is Asher but at least he is trying his best to convince himself he has zero feelings for Ollie. But given a chance, would he take it – just to see? Hmmm. 🤔🤔🤔

    But …. Penny 😈 …. dun dun dunnn. Why is she all of a sudden Dr.Jekyll and Mr. Hyde …. something is up. And it’s can’t be good where she is concerned…..

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    1. Penny has clearly finally matured enough that she can see past her jealousy and behave cordially toward her brother again. Not sure why you’d think otherwise! 😇

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  2. It’s nice seeing Asher getting over all of his confusion and keeping some clear line towards Ollie here without making himself miserable, and it’s great Ollie seems to be able to deal with it and go back to being a friend, even if it won’t be what it was. Let’s see what the future holds here. Whatever Asher will pick in the end, if he wants a decent university for his science stuff he might want to move away at least some distance. While Landon shouldn’t be the main reason, the issue would come up any way.

    Even if Penny shows herself “nice”, I don’t think what she wants will happen. There is not a lot of chance for her to win over Landon or making Asher jealous, but she might sow some distrust or bad thoughts to bring them apart, hence her watching him.

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    1. Yeah, Asher is slowly starting to semi-figure it out haha and it looks like Ollie is too… But we’ll see how long that can last!

      And you’re right that Penny seems to be wanting something to happen… but what? We’ll see in the next few chapters… hehehe 😉 Thanks so much for reading ❤


  3. This story is always worth the wait, no matter how long.
    Of course I’m dying to find out what Penny’s plan is 😱.
    I don’t really like her(no hate, she’s just a teenager. It’s more that she annoys me haha), but Asher is acting like an a-hole to her so… This is all quite terrible 😀
    Not sure how I feel about Asher regarding the angsty love triangle. Can’t blame him for being confused about Ollie and wanting to be happy with Landon; he’a not actually doing anything wrong but then… if Landon knew what goes through Asher’s mind, he’d be hurt. So isn’t not really fair either. And since I’m guessing he IS going to find out, ouch :(. Such a good kid that has done nothing to deserve being caught up in this mess.
    Also, lol at the first line. Does Asher read our comments?
    Have fun in you real life and I’ll be patiently waiting for the disaster to surely come.

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    1. Long time no see ❤️❤️❤️

      You’re so right — Asher is being an asshole in his own way to her. They do NOT get along, plain and simple, so they’re always horrible to each other. Gotta love teenage siblings huh? 😂

      And you’re right — technically Asher isn’t doing anything wrong, but it’s really bad to have so many romantic thoughts about someone else while you’re in a relationship! Poor Landon. Good thing he has no idea…

      And lol yes, I threw in the “curse” part as a little joke hehe glad you enjoyed! It was nice to see you commenting! ❤️ Glad you’re eager for the disaster to come 😈😈😈


  4. Penny…what are you up to?? 🤨🤨🤨

    And it’s sad Landon is pulling back because they’re about to be apart. Usually you’d want to spend every moment with your bf before you leave. 🧐

    I’m glad his relationship with Ollie is getting better. They should still be friends after the Penny fallout.

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    1. There definitely seems to be something odd going on with both Penny AND Landon… 🤔 😈 🤷🏻‍♀️

      And yes, at least he can be friends with Ollie again! Very very careful friends 😂

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  5. hmm hopefully Landon and Asher can figure out things whether it’s his leaving to OU or something else…as for Penny I don’t trust her at all.. Can’t wait till next chapter.

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  6. Hummm, I don’t know, I think there’s more lurking on the surface as to why Landon is upset. I mean, yeah, it could be the whole uni thing, but if it was the case, I’d think he would say something about it, try to talk it out with Asher. Actually, it might be the uni thing, but not because they’ll be apart, as per say, but because Asher might find himself far away from Landon, and closer to Ollie, and that’s freaking Landon out.

    I’m glad the three of them are going out again and interacting with each other. But I do wonder for how long. Lily already knows that Ollie likes Asher, and I’m not sure that both her and Ollie would be able to keep facing Asher for a longer period of time without talking to him about that. I’m glad Asher *at least* considered the possibilty that Oliie like’s him and was like ”should have tried earlier!Missed ya chance, bo!” But if things do go down, it surely will be diferent then in theory.

    I wonder how is Penny working.She clearly has something going own, and I wonder just how long she’ll go for her petty revange. As others mencioned, Asher isn’t exactly as flower when interacting with her, so I can get where her anger comes from. Still doesn’t make her any more right. I wonder if Landon being weird and she being nicer already shows that she’s already working behind the curtains, in a way that’s going to come together and blow up in Asher’s face in the end.

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    1. You might be right that there’s more to Landon being upset than just his decision about where to go for uni… Next chapter we’ll find out exactly what’s been going on with him! And it’s true that things are a little complicated with him hanging out with Ollie again. He definitely seems to have a a “whoops, you were too slow, sorry!” sort of attitude, but could he be hiding something behind all that?

      And Penny… yeah, her brother is far from a saint, so she’s got her reasons for being so angry and mean. But how far will she take it??? That another question that will be answered in time… 😉

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  7. Now that I’ve finally been alive enough to catch up on my reading…

    DO NOT TRUST PENNY!!! That girl is up to something.

    Landon becomes a Buckeye. Asher becomes a Buckeye a year later. They live happily ever after because Ollie is secretely a Wolverine fan.

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    1. What are you talking about? Penny is an angel and 1000% trustworthy! Why would you think otherwise?! 😮 (Also, you are totally right. Perfect happy ending incoming 😉 )

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