Note: Couple of slightly NSFW/sexual screenshots, but no nudity.
Well, THAT was the most interesting GeekCon I’ve ever been to. Even more interesting than the time me and Zelda snuck backstage at one of the panels and almost met Austin Dunford! (Ughhh stupid security guards. We were so freaking close!)
ANYWAY, it was like a week ago now, but I’ve been way too busy to try writing about it yet (more on that later…)
So first off, I won third place in the costume contest, which was CRAZY. I worked my butt off on that costume, and I guess it finally paid off! Obviously second or first place would’ve been even better, but you know what? I’ll take what I can get at this point. Everybody’s gotta start somewhere, right? (Even future world-famous costume designer Emberlynn Rosebrook)
And speaking of starting somewhere… There’s something else that made GeekCon so interesting too. Or someone, I mean. And he’s the reason I’ve been so busy too.
His name’s Mason. We met after he asked the stupidest question at one of the panels last weekend. It was totally ridiculous, but it was so freaking funny. How could I not go up and say hi?
And I ended up being totally right about this guy. He was really funny, and sweet… And did I mention British? Oh my God, that accent! Unnnngh. Totally worth struggling through an English conversation for (with the added bonus of learning I’m a total freaking idiot who can’t figure out that “robot” means “Roboter”. Um, DUH).
Anyway, he was really fun. We ended up talking for a lot longer than I thought we would.
And doing a lot more than just talking too. Ahhhhh it was the best!
When he said he had to go, I was afraid I was never gonna see him again or something, since he lives so far away. But I guess his Papa grew up around here before he moved to England, and he comes back to visit for a few weeks every summer. Apparently this time, Mason decided to come too.
And I’m pretty freaking glad he did. It sucks that he’s gonna have to leave so soon, but I try not to think about it too much. Right now we’re just making the most of the time we have until he has to go back.
We’ve already hung out like four times since last week. And by “hanging out”, I guess I really mean making out. And, uh… a bunch of other stuff too. Stuff I’ve thought a lot about doing someday. Some stuff I’ve even tried by myself before.
But never with anybody else. Not til now.
And let’s see… So far, I’d say it’s been like 10% gross, 15% terrifying, 20% confusing as hell, and maybe like 50% fun and exciting? Does that even equal 100? I’m too lazy to count.
The point is, I expected the “fun and exciting” percentage to be a little higher… But it’s still enough that it’s worth it! Mason’s so hot, and he’s really fun and sweet and patient about all that kind of stuff. I feel like I’m figuring a lot out. I think we both are.
Mason says he’s only ever had one girlfriend before (zero boyfriends for me, so he’s already winning there!), and I think we’ve already gone farther than the two of them ever did.
We haven’t like, DONE IT or anything. But we’ve done other stuff that would probably give both my parents a heart attack.
It’s hard to describe exactly what me and Mason are… If we’re anything. I’m not sure if we really are. We barely know each other, and we aren’t even dating or anything. But he’s fun, and I like him a lot. So I guess we’re… Is it still friends with benefits if you aren’t having actual sex? Does other stuff still count? Those are still benefits, right? They definitely feel like it to me…
I still have no idea how the heck I ended up going from never having a REAL kiss to… this in like a week. Sometimes I kinda wonder if this thing is moving way too fast or something
Zelda keeps telling me I’m crazy, but I’m pretty sure she means it as a compliment. And honestly, I don’t FEEL crazy. It doesn’t feel wrong or anything. It just feels… well, all that stuff I already listed before. Terrifying and confusing and a little gross sometimes… But mostly fun and exciting.
I don’t know what’s gonna happen when he goes home. We haven’t really talked about it yet. Not that we do THAT much talking when we’re together anyway… We don’t really have to. It’s hard to explain. Things just sorta happen when we’re together. And it feels right.
I just wish we didn’t have to sneak around so much. We’ve only ever met up at the park — that’s the only place we can go where our parents won’t know about it. And we’ve usually gotta go pretty late at night… How else can we have any fun without anybody else seeing?
It’s just kinda hard though. I totally suck at lying, so making up excuses for Mama and Papa is SO awkward.
And the other night, I snuck out at like 2am to go see him and I swear to God, every step on the stairs decided to creak loud enough to shake the whole freaking house!
I have a feeling Tristan might be on to me. Maybe he doesn’t know exactly what’s going on, but I think he can tell I’m hiding something. He’s giving me these weird looks all the time. Annoying little-brother looks that have me secretly flipping out that he’s gonna tell Mama and Papa on me.
Joke’s on him though. If he says a word to either of them, I’m showing them all those nasty websites and chatrooms he keeps looking at when he’s home alone. That kid needs to learn how to clear a browser history! I’ve been deleting it for him like twice a week, but if he says one word to Mama or Papa about this, I’m willing to sacrifice my “World’s Best Big Sister” trophy in the name of revenge.
Anyway, I’m not gonna let myself worry about it too much right now. What would be the point? If the twerp spills, he spills. I’ll deal with it. And I guess the world won’t like, end or anything if Mama and Papa find out about me and Mason. Long as I don’t get pregnant or something, who cares? They know I’m not an idiot. I know what I’m doing.
And it’s not like they’ll have to worry for very long anyway. Once Mason goes back home, it’s gonna suck, and it’s gonna be over.
And who knows when the heck another guy is gonna wanna get anywhere near me after him? I’ve known all those guys at school for years, and they’ve never been interested before (they’re too stupid to know perfection when they see it, obviously. Ha!). So why would it change now?
Mason’s kind of a fluke, I guess. A charming, funny, hot-as-hell fluke. Meeting him was kinda like I got a nat 20 on my Charisma roll or something. Total dumb luck.
And I’m gonna make sure I enjoy it while it lasts.