7.61: Well Enough

Everybody always talks about how “time flies when you’re having fun”. And obviously time doesn’t actually move any faster. It’s all in our heads. It’s an illusion.

But you don’t have to be having fun for that illusion to take effect either. Sometimes time flies when you’re insanely busy. Or incredibly stressed out. Or both. Anything but bored, really.

The last few months haven’t been ‘fun’ at all… But they’ve definitely been busy. And stressful as hell. So they flew by.

But it was worth it, because they all led up to one of the most amazing moments of my entire life.

This is probably the craziest thing I’ve ever had to write, but… I’m a father now.

Our little Emberlynn decided to make her grand entrance two weeks sooner than we expected. She took us all by surprise.

Gigi had been feeling some contractions throughout the day, but we really didn’t think anything of it at first. She thought it was the usual kind she’d been getting. The kind that don’t really mean anything.

But when we were over at Papa and Rubi’s for dinner that night, we realized it was go-time.

And then, about eight hours later, our little girl was here.

Gigi did so great. She was screaming and swearing the entire time, but it’s not like I could blame her. And seeing her go through that… I dunno. It’s like I saw her in a different way or something. A way I’d never seen before. And it made me feel a lot closer to her.

Especially when I got to see our daughter for the first time. The little human being we created together. It’s one of the oldest cliches, but seriously, I fell completely in love with her the second I saw her. It was incredible.

I’ll be honest though, it’s kind of bizarre too. If you think about it, it doesn’t make a lot of sense.

Like, you’re holding this squishy little thing in your arms that screams and cries and poops and essentially looks like a wrinkly little potato. And yet all you can think is “Oh my God, I would literally die for this smelly little lump.”

Tam says all newborns automatically cast a level 20 charm spell on anybody who looks at them. And, well, I’ve gotta agree. She’s got us all wrapped around her little fingers (all of them!) already.

The first couple days, we were totally on cloud nine. It felt so amazing to be able to have Gigi and Emberlynn in my arms and just know that we’re a family. A whole one. Complete. What I’ve always wanted.

It hasn’t been quite so easy since we came home though. I’m not really sure what changed. Being in the hospital just felt different, I guess.

Even with Mama and Dev and Oma and even Lila helping out, it’s just so much work. Like, more work than I ever thought it’d be. Between doing work for my classes and trying to take care of the baby, I can’t even remember the last time I slept for more than like four hours at a time. And I know it’s just as bad for Gigi too.

But that hasn’t been making things any easier for the two of us. We stopped going to therapy back in October. It finally felt like we were getting somewhere. We really didn’t think we’d need it anymore. And things were pretty good for a while.

But now that the ‘high’ of having a new baby wore off, we’re just… tired. Of everything. Including each other, most days. We always get into these stupid fights over the most pointless shit. Like whose turn it is to feed Emberlynn. Or change her diaper. Or get up and check on her when she cries at night.

I guess we’re back into that old pattern again — it’s like a rollercoaster. We have amazing days, where everything feels perfect. And then we have terrible ones, where it feels like we can’t stand each other.

I’m really hoping it all wears off soon. I think it’s normal to have some extra stress at first, isn’t it? We’ve just gotta get into a routine. Then things will be better again. They’ve gotta be.

For now, it’s just hard.

And when things get hard, I catch myself thinking about Lola. I know I shouldn’t. I’ve tried so hard to put her behind me, especially after that night she called me.

But I just can’t help worrying a little. If my math’s right, she should be having her baby in just a couple months. Will she be alright? Is this Jorden guy still treating her okay? Are they gonna be able to handle all the stinky diapers and spit up and sleepless nights? Will he stick by her through it all?

I still talk to Addy and Niko sometimes. Not nearly as much as I’d hoped we would, but every once in a while. And as much as I hate trying to spy, I’ve gotten them to tell me a bit. They said Jorden’s a nice guy. They say Lola’s happy and she’s doing well… But that’s all they really say. And I think I know why.

I have a feeling Lola doesn’t really want them talking about her with me. She’s totally shut me out again. I’ve tried reaching out to her a couple times over the past few months, but she ignored me. So I gave up.

I guess it’s really over now. And as much as I hate to admit it… it still hurts. So fucking bad.

I know things will get easier, eventually. I’ll be able to move on, and stop thinking about Lola. Gigi and I will settle into a routine and stop being so miserable. And we’ll get to watch our little girl grow up together.

She’s what makes this whole thing worth it. When I think back on how fucked up this whole thing is, how different this all is from what I ever wanted, or imagined… I just keep reminding myself that if none of it had happened, we wouldn’t have Emberlynn. She wouldn’t exist.

And now that she’s here… How could I ever wish for a life without her?

There are a hell of a lot of things I regret about the last couple of years. But she’ll never be one of them. She’s everything to us now. And for her, we’re gonna find a way to make this thing work.

I know things will never be the same again. Even if we didn’t have Emberlynn, things are always gonna be pretty fucked up between me and Gigi. Some things are just too broken to ever go back to how they used to be.

But just because you can’t make something as good as new again doesn’t mean you can’t still patch it up. Maybe there are still cracks. A few holes. A leak or two…

But even something beaten, banged-up, and hanging on by a thread can still work, can’t it?

It reminds me of that old food processor Opa used to have. He loved that thing. He had it for years. But after a while, the motor kept dying, the blades had to be replaced way too many times, and the plastic cover had this huge crack in it. And Opa could’ve easily thrown it away and gotten a new one. But he didn’t.

He’d always tell us that it was because he’d had it for so long, and he didn’t wanna give up on it.

Because as banged up and broken as it was, it still worked. Definitely not perfectly… but well enough.

I know Gigi and I can never be perfect either. We’ll never work together as well as we used to… but it’s not time to throw us away yet either.

As much as I used to dream of having this perfect, happy marriage, I’m starting to think I can learn to live with ‘well enough’.

And I think Gigi can too.

I just hope that’s enough for our Emberlynn.

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And on that note, we bid goodbye to Phoenix’s generation 😮 My shortest generation aside from Alex’s and Mari’s (yes, even Tobi and Stefan’s was longer!) but honestly one of my favorites. I hope you all enjoyed it too!

Like I did at the end of the teen arc, I wanna give some quick shoutouts for people who helped made the YA arc special (including a second round of applause for OJenn and Wagonfruit for Gigi and Tam! I gave them shoutouts in the teen arc, but they deserve another round!) But this time I’d also like to add some huge thanks to…

haswh, for creating Gigi and Phoenix’s Windenburg apartment

Bugsie2016for Tam and Jasper’s apartment

cecrose0208, for creating the vacation home Gigi and Phoenix lived in in Brindleton Bay

OJenn, for creating Phoenix’s friend Niko

YJB19299, for creating Phoenix’s other friend, Addy

BBQPenguinWings, for the unforgettable Lola

I’m so grateful to all of you for submitting these sims and lots for me! They were all wonderful and I loved using them in my story ❤

Thank you all so much for reading this rollercoaster ride of a generation!

See you sometime next week with the debut of Generation Eight: Emberlynn ^_^

46 thoughts on “7.61: Well Enough

  1. Welcome to the world Emberlynn!! I wish you the best of luck and to be spared of the drama. However you are a Rosebrook so that is impossible.
    I feel that maybe it would be better if Phoenix and Gigi split up. Even though Erik and Harper weren’t together, they were able to resolve their issues.
    Good chapter!

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    1. I fear she will need all the luck she can get 😂 You might be right that breaking up would have been better after all, but I guess time will tell… thank you for reading and I’m glad you enjoyed! ^_^

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    1. Yeah… I kinda spoiled it in my new banner, whoops 😂 Hopefully it won’t be all bad though? We shall see… I’m so excited to write her story 🙂 Thank you for reading ❤️

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  2. Oh goodness. I hope they go back to therapy if they need it. Babies can be tough (so I hear) and I hope they better themselves and don’t resent each other for trying to pretend.

    But yay for Emberlynn! We welcome you to the world and I can not wait to see your story unfold!

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    1. More therapy definitely couldn’t hurt! But we’ll see 😬 Hopefully things can be better for “well enough” for them.

      I’m glad you’re excited about Emberlynn! Me too ^_^ Thanks for reading ❤️❤️

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  3. *sigh* Oh, Phoenix, when will learn that ”well enought” will not work out after you been pretty much miserable for years…Emberlynn is gonna feel her parent’s dislike for one another sooner or later.

    This ”ending”’ is unsetling because I, at least, think things are going to be really bad for both Gigi and Phoenix…But, there are worse ones, like Joce’s, and Harper’s.

    It’s ironic they stayed together for the baby, but most likely will do more harm then good.

    I hope when the time comes, they break up. Yes, still talking about that, but ,one things is to have hope, another thing is being delusional…

    Liked this gen because teen arc was quite…something…*Flashbacks of girl puking on Phoenix’s…you-know-what”’ And the young adult certain was diferent, since it’s a messed up situation, but in a diferent scale than Harper’s.

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    1. Yeah that’s the problem with “well enough”… the broken thing hangs on by a thread and keeps going, but one day it just won’t work anymore… but Phoenix is still hopeful haha

      And yes, this isn’t exactly the “happy ending” we’ve had in past gens :-/ but things might get better? Maybe? Or maybe they’ll break up, like you said…

      I’m glad you enjoyed this generation! I definitely wanted to do something a little different for both arcs. Glad it felt that way to you! Thank you for reading ❤️

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  4. Poor Phee…guess he doesn’t get a happily ever after, but somehow they’ll make it work?

    At least he has Emberlynn in his life. Dysfunctional as they will be, I’m hoping they keep their fighting behind closed doors as much as possible. 😬

    Can’t wait to meet the new heir! Welcome to the Rosebrooks! I’ll be praying for you, sweet girl! 😊😂😂😭

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    1. Half-happily ever after? 🤷‍♀️ Haha he isn’t entirely miserable but yes, definitely not as happy as past heirs :-/

      I’m glad you’re eager for Emberlynn! I am too! And she could probably use those prayers… 😬😈

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  5. I was hoping they would find their way back, but it seems like they didn’t. 😢 So sad and I’m sure Emberlynn will eventually feel the tension. I am curious to see how things play out and very excited for the next gen. 😊

    Those pictures of Phoenix and Emberlynn at the end were so emotional. ❤️❤️❤️

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    1. They found their way halfway back, kinda? But yeah… still very much lost with only glow sticks to light their way 😬

      Emberlynn will definitely be feeling it a little 😭 and I’m glad you liked those pics! I loved that looking-in-the-crib pose I found. Phoenix loves his little girl very much ❤

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  6. Nooboos WitcHazard: Nooboos Nooboos Nooboos Nooboos Nooboos! She’s so cute!❤️❤️❤️ They’re going to ruin her life these monsters!😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    Dark WitcHazard: I’m still putting my money on we haven’t heard the last of Lola!(fingers crossed) Love how over it Emberlynn and company look in the new banner hahah priceless!😝

    Lover WitcHazard: I hate seeing Phegi this way but since I was against them from the beginning it doesn’t hurt too much! Stay strong Emberlynn!

    Shipper WitcHazard: Well there they go still trying to figure out how Phegi is still sea worthy but I guess it hasn’t completely fallen apart yet! They really need to go back to therapy! Which is weird since Phoenix should know it doesn’t just work over night and when you think you doing well is usually a sign that your not doing well enough!

    Anti Shipper: Emberlynn has until she becomes a teenager then one or both of them hem will have another affair and call it quits!

    Shipper WitcHazard: Why is it getting harder to refute you?

    Anti Shipper: Cause I’m amazing! That’s why!

    Shipper WitcHazard: 😒

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    1. I knew Nooboos would love this one! 😛 Hopefully there won’t be any life-ruining though 😬 She definitely seems totally over the fighting in the banner, Dark is right! Haha

      The SS PheeGi is still technically sailing! But lots of holes. Still, it works “well enough”? LOL More therapy would probably help patch up a few of them!

      Anti’s Wish May eventually come true… find out next gen! 😉 Thank you for reading ❤️

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  7. You can’t just throw a patch on something and expect the hole not to still be there. Just kill Gigi in a car wreck or something, that is the only way to get rid of her. Phoenix’s will never come to his sense. Maybe, she will fall in love with someone else and leave him putting everyone out of their misery.😉

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    1. Yeah. Things can only stay patched up for so long before they’re too broken to be fixed!

      Not sure if I agree about killing Gigi though… she’s done some shitty things. But I don’t think she deserves to die for it!

      Hopefully things will get better, one way or another. We shall see next gen!

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  8. Someone tell Phoenix that people aren’t the same as food processors

    Emberlynn is such a pretty name, I really hope she’s enough to keep Phoenix and Gigi together, although that’s probably not the best reason for them to stay with each other.

    And Tam is as amazing as ever! I love his character so much and his constant D&D references. I hope he’s there for his niece later in her life.

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    1. LOL right? It’s not nearly as simple as Phoenix is making it out to be. He’s trying way too hard to justify what is probably a bad decision :-/

      Glad you like the name! It’s a personal favorite of mine and honestly I’ll probably name my daughter it one day if I have one! But for now, I’m willing to just use it as a character name 😛

      I’m glad you love Tam so much! I love him too, and we will see him in Emberlynn’s gen for sure 🙂 Not a lot, because the focus will be on her, of course! But Tam and Jasper *whisper* and their daughter*whisper* will certainly be a part of her life ^_^

      Thank you very much for reading ❤️

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  9. Aww! Cute baby! (Was wondering when next gen would start). Sad that Phee hasn’t realised it won’t work but excited to meet our heiress!

    (Btw, seems its baby season as my sims just had their’s a couple of days ago. Same couple I mentioned who got a wedding back when Gigi was wanting Phee to propose…)

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      1. Nah. I’m a slow writer (she was only pregnant for 20 chapters which took 6 months). xD

        Excited to see what her personality is. Will she be like any of our previous heiresses or not? Bit like Phee? We’ll see I guess.

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  10. Wait is over?! What? Oh my sweet lord. My poor baby Phee. It was fun seeing you grow this was my first gen to see start to end in real time. I’ll miss your geeky references. I’ll miss you bud. Gen 8 Emmberlyn I love her name. It’s like Anberlin. Still haven’t gotten computer and now I’m sick 🤒😷. Hopefully I’ll make a character for gen 8. I may just go Solid Snake and steal my sister’s computer. I’m so excited for this baby girl. I hope she’s not hot headed like every rosebrook though, that’s including get mother.

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    1. Yes, it ended quick! I’m glad you enjoyed Phoenix’s story! It will overlap a bit with his daughter’s, but the torch has been passed! Emberlynn is… strong willed 😂 You’ll see 😉

      I hope you feel better soon! ❤️❤️❤️

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      1. Thank you. I’m so sad about my sims/ computer😭 You don’t understand my pain. I’m missing my babies and not creating a sim for the gen (if possible) is killing me

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        1. You can still submit, it’ll be ok ❤️❤️❤️ casting call sims will mostly be for the teen and YA arcs 🙂

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  11. Very excited for Emberlynn’s story to start! And wow does Phoenix look a lot like Alex in that header. Despite everything, this gen seemed pretty low drama (especially compared to the one that came before it) so I imagine you have a lot waiting for Ember. Can’t wait to read it!

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    1. I didn’t even notice that until you pointed it out 😮 The rosebrook genes still live! Haha

      And yes, this was our breather gen after Harper 😂 As for Ember… we shall see 😇 Glad you’re excited!!!!

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  12. Emberlynn is too good for that couple. I will miss Tam and the many, many D&D references, but otherwise I am glad that drama won’t take the spotlight forever. Gigi and Phee might try to keep things going, but they just never learn and repeat the same shit all over. And leaving therapy the moment things seemed to work for a short time was a really bad idea. They still act like the only goal they want to archieve would be a harmonic life as a couple. Yet they can’t even properly share responsibilities for the kid. The kind of sharing responsibilities most roommates get going with cleaning or caring for pets. They are simply not able to take a step back and let each other some space, instead they force themselves in a place where they constantly have to act like a good couple without escape or cooldown time. By the time Emberlynn will write her first diary, she will be so fed up with this shit. I wouldn’t blame her if she wanted just some harmony in her own life.

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    1. They definitely don’t seem to be in a great position to start parenting, you’re right :-/ They’re just making themselves miserable right now. Hopefully things will somehow get better from here? But we shall see.

      Generation 8 starts very, very soon (like, tomorrow-soon. Shhh!) and we will get a little peek at how Emberlynn feels about her parents’ relationship. Thank you for reading!

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  13. Ooooommggggg!!

    I’ve been out for a month of two, three… I used to read your story on the train to work, but I’m biking now (yeay me!). But I just binch-read the whole thing from September until now! What a rollercoaster, your words, your storyline, your characters, it’s amazing!

    Thank you! 🙂

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    1. Awww thank you so much for coming back to binge ^_^ (and awesome that you’re biking to work now!)

      I’m so glad you enjoyed ❤️❤️❤️

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  14. Maybe Phoenix needs to have a conversation with his mother about what really happens when you sacrifice your happiness and peace of mind to stay together for a child… but i’m interested to see how it plays out and guessing from you banner Citizen… nothing good. but you can always change it right??? it looks set in stone, but we might can throw away the rock?? lol

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    1. I feel like there’s a lot of advice Phoenix should probably be listening to… But he doesn’t 😬 And LOL anything can change at any time, you never know with me! 😉 😛 Hehehehe Thank you very much for reading. Welcome to Gen 8 ^_^

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    1. Yeah, the end really snuck up on us here! They ended up kind of in a place where there wasn’t much left to tell — they had Emberlynn, Phee had a fleeting moment when things almost got crazy again/Lola almost re-entered his life, and now… Well, now they’ve gotta try and figure out some way to make this work for the little one… But we’ll see how successful they actually are!

      I’m glad you loved Phoenix! ❤ I hope you love Emberlynn too 😀 (And thank you for taking the time to read so many chapters!)

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  15. Can’t believe it’s the end of the generation with so much unresolved! Definitely entering in the next one with a recipe for a disaster already haha! I hope Phoenix doesn’t end up wasting too much of his life away… I mean they already felt trapped in the marriage they entered for visa reasons, how does he not see they’ll feel more and more trapped? And trapping a child in the middle of all this misery is just going to create more resentment from all parties involved. He needs to listen to Tam more, since he’s not doing anyone any service by staying in this loveless marriage (yes yes, they claim to love each other, though I doubt they even remember what that feels like anymore…)

    As for Jorden I’m not entirely convinced he’s real. It’s probably what Lola is planning to name the kid. Or there is a Jorden, but the kid is definitely Phee’s. I reckon Lola just thinks she’s taking the high road by sparing him the torment of knowing he can’t do what he considers “the right thing” either way. Damned if he stays with Gigi, damned if he leaves, either way he’d be ridden with guilt and it would not work between him and Lola, so she’s “sparing his feeling”… Or something along those lines…

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    1. You’re right that things still aren’t 100% resolved… the next gen will definitely have a bit of carry-over from this one! Phee has the rose colored glasses back on now, unfortunately. He thinks he’s doing the right thing for Emberlynn but… 🤷🏻‍♀️

      And that’s an interesting (and entirely possible!) theory about Lola! Maybe there will be some answers next gen? Or maybe I will just leave this all like this and be cruel 😛 😉

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  16. woo finally on generation 8 I’ve had to do a lot of reading to get to this point. Phee is struggling so much…and I suddenly thought there’s a difference between loving and being in love and which is he w/ gigi and lola? I’m not sure Emberlyn can save them…they need to work through all their issues to make a marriage work and from RL experience ….if you can’t get along you should NOT stay together for the kids.

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