7.26: Decision

Even from inside his bedroom, the sound of the opening apartment door reached Phoenix’s ears. He knew exactly who it was. Even Jasper and Tam still knocked whenever they came to visit. But he and Gigi were well past the point of knocking on each other’s doors anymore.

Phoenix sighed to himself as he placed his pencil on the desk beside his journal. He’d been trying to get all his thoughts down before she arrived, but she’d shown up a bit earlier than he’d been expecting.

God, I hope this goes better than last time.

Gigi had come over a few times since their fight last Tuesday, but every time they tried talking about things, they never seemed to make much progress. No matter what happened, it always seemed to end with Gigi bursting into tears.

“I’m sorry. I know I’m being a selfish bitch,” she’d kept saying.

There were moments when a small, bitter voice in the back of Phoenix’s mind wanted to agree. I do EVERYTHING for you, Gigi. It wanted to say. Please, let me do this ONE thing for myself for once.

But Phoenix knew he’d brought this on himself by waiting so long to tell her the truth. He should have listened to Tam and told her back when he’d first applied. Then she would have at least had time to process it all.

Yeah… but at least it gave ME a little time to hold on to the dream… That little voice whispered once more. Maybe that’s the real reason I waited. I was afraid she was gonna do this. I was afraid she’d try and guilt me out of it…

The last time she’d come over, Gigi had reluctantly told him she changed her mind, and that she wanted him to go follow his dream… But Phoenix knew her better than that. She hadn’t changed her mind, she was still hoping he would change his.

And he finally had.

I’m just gonna tell her I made up my mind, he decided. I’m not gonna go. Then we can finally move on from all this crap and she can be happy again.

It killed him to see her so upset, and to feel like he’d let her down. Phoenix wasn’t sure how much more of it he could take.

Gigi threw her arms around him as he stepped out into the kitchen. “Hey, baby.” She whispered softly as she pulled him into a warm embrace.

“Hey.” Phoenix brushed his lips against her cheek as he replied.

This was the warmest greeting she’d given him all week… But why? Could she sense what was coming? Did she know what he was going to tell her?

Phoenix guided her to the couch as they finally broke apart. It felt almost uncomfortably familiar, sitting back in the same spots they’d been in when he’d broken the news the first time.

“Alright… I know how much you hate it when I give you a giant preamble.” Despite everything, Phoenix couldn’t help a small laugh as he spoke. “So… I’m just gonna say it. I finally made my decision… And I’m not going.” Though he managed to keep a straight face, he could almost feel a piece of his heart breaking as he said the words aloud.

Gigi blinked in disbelief. “You’re not?”

“Nope.” He shook his head. “I’m staying right here. With you.”

“But… Why not? Going to Brindleton Bay is your dream.”

“Yeah, a pipe dream, maybe.” Phoenix forced a chuckle. “I just really don’t think I can leave everybody behind like that… I know it’d totally kill my parents. And poor Lila too… And you know what a rough time Jasper’s been having with school. It’s really been taking a toll on Tam too… I’ve never seen them so stressed before.” He paused for a moment. “I just feel like they really need me right now. I can’t leave them.”

Gigi shook her head. “Phoenix, we both know that’s total bullshit.”

“It’s not.” He insisted. “You’ve seen how they are lately…”

“Oh, I know that.” She assured him. “Tam and Jasper are definitely having a rough time. And yeah, your parents and Lila probably wouldn’t be too happy… But we both know the real reason you wanna stay…” Gigi’s face was etched with guilt as she spoke.

She’d seen right through him, of course. She always knew how to read him like an open book.

A soft sigh passed his lips. “That’s… probably the biggest reason.” He confessed. “Yeah.”

His girlfriend shook her head slowly. “And it’s not fair. You can’t give this up just for me. This is like, once-in-a-lifetime! You have to go.”

“Wait a minute… Just a few days ago, you were practically begging me to stay. I thought you’d be happy!” He cried, failing at hiding his frustration. No matter what he did, he couldn’t win, it seemed.

“I know, I know.” Gigi bit her lip. “I totally sound like I’m contradicting myself. But just hear me out, okay?”

Phoenix simply nodded.

“I was being super selfish before. All I cared about was how you leaving would effect me, instead of being happy for you. Which was seriously awful of me. And I’m sorry.”

“You were just surprised… I totally sprung this on you way too late. How else were you supposed to react?” He asked. “So seriously, don’t worry about it. It’s okay.”

“No, it’s not… I was being so unfair to you. Yeah, you should have told me about this sooner. We both know that. But there’s still no excuse for how selfish I was.” Gigi replied firmly. “And I know this means so much to you. You really want this, don’t you?”

Phoenix hesitated before replying. “I do.” He confessed. “I don’t wanna leave you. At all. But… I really wanna go.” Why did he feel so damn guilty saying it?

“Then I seriously think you should. You shouldn’t give up on your dream just because of me.”

He was silent for a few moments. That most definitely wasn’t what he’d been expecting her to say. “Really?”

“Really.”

“But… what about us? Like you said, two years is such a long time…”

“Don’t worry about it.” She assured him. “It’s gonna be okay. I promise.”

“You’re sure?”

“I am.”

Phoenix let out a breath he hadn’t even realized he was holding. “We’re gonna make this work. I swear to God, we’ll find a way.” He promised. “I love you so much.”

He leaned forward to press his lips against hers. He felt so guilty for thinking she was selfish before. How could he ever think that?  I should’ve known she’d come around… After all, she was the sweetest, most amazing woman in the entire world.

He smiled against her lips, deepening the kiss as he began pushing down the straps on her tank top.

Gigi pulled away before he could get very far, letting out a soft laugh as she did so. “Woah there, mister. Hold on a second.”

He shrugged, smirking playfully. “What? Just figured I’d thank you for being so amazing about this… Or, if you’d rather, I guess I could punish you instead, for being such a bad girl…” Phoenix hoped his voice sounded convincing enough. It was always so much easier to pretend when he was caught up in the moment.

His girlfriend giggled. “Either one is fine with me.” She assured him with a small wink. “But there was just one more thing I wanted to talk to you about first…”

He held back a soft groan of disappointment. It can wait. He reminded himself. We’ve got plenty of time. Or at least, they would for the next few months anyway. But after that… Phoenix did his best to chase the thought from his mind. For now, he’d focus on being happy. He could save the worrying for later.

“Sure.” He replied at last. “What is it?”

Gigi took a deep breath. “Well, like I said, I really think you should go to Brindleton Bay. I don’t want you holding yourself back for me… But…”

Phoenix’s heart sank instantly. “But’ what?”

“Nothing bad!” She promised. “I just… I really don’t know how I’d be able to handle you being so far away for so long. And I was doing a lot of thinking about everything… What we both want, what would make us both happy… And do you remember? How you said you’d bring me with you if you could?”

He nodded. “In a heartbeat… But… we’ve talked about this before. You can’t come.” His voice was pained.

To his surprise, she smiled in reply. “Nope. I figured it out… And I can! As long as you still want me to, I mean…”

“Wait, seriously?! You found a way?” His entire face lit up as he spoke.

“I did.” She replied seriously.

“But… what about your job? You can’t leave that behind just for me. If you won’t let me do it, I won’t let you either.”

“I already got it all worked out… They’ll let me work from home.” Gigi assured him, smiling.

A smile slowly found its way onto Phoenix’s lips at her reply. “Really?! That’s great!” He paused for a moment, shaking his head in amazement. “So… So you can seriously come with me?” He was having such a hard time believing it. “But… How?”

His girlfriend giggled softly. “So… is that a ‘yes’, then? You want me to come?”

He beamed at her. “Of course!”

“Well, in that case, there’s just one little thing you have to do first…” Gigi’s smile widened as she slowly slid herself off the couch. “Phoenix… Will you marry me?”

47 thoughts on “7.26: Decision

  1. Hooooo boy. Well, I definitely did not see that coming! Overall, I’m happy that Pheonix isn’t giving up on h is dream, however, just… wow.

    I was really happy that Gigi seemed to be really mature about all of this while reading the chapter, but with that ending, I feel like she was maybe acting like that because she saw this as a way she could marry him. Pheonix doesn’t look like he’s gonna say yes…. They are pretty young and it does seem like she just wants to tie herself to him in some way.

    That being said, my brother went to Japan to teach English for a year and his girlfriend went with him. At the time, my family was harassing him to propose to this poor girl, because they had been dating just as long as Pheonix and Gigi and she was willing to move to a different continent. Like, c’mon bro. He didn’t propose to her while they were in Japan, but they did get married several years later, so I suppose it all worked out, BUT I can see why it wouldn’t be so crazy if they got married.

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    1. Yeah, this is tricky. Was she maybe being a little manipulative with suddenly being so mature about things? Hopefully not… hopefully she just finally realized that this would be so important to him and the proposal was just a bonus?

      And as for Phoenix’s answer, we’ll see on Wednesday! No matter what it is, I think he was just as shocked as you were when she got down on one knee like that!

      Thanks for sharing your story about your brother! It gives some really interesting perspective to the situation. I’m glad it all worked out for them too!

      Thank you so much for reading ❤️

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  2. Dark WitcHazard: Pheonix’s face hats going to be an awkward yes or even better a awkward no if I ever saw one! Haha this girl is obsessed with that good ol Rosebrook Dick! 😝

    Lover WitcHazard: Shipper!

    Shipper WitcHazard: Phigi is young I’m sure they’ll work it out!

    Lover WitcHazard: Oh come now darling she said “work from home” what fresh out of college student can go to a job and make demands this smells fishy! I think she has enough savings she’s hoping will last for a time but she’ll get a better job their so it doesn’t look weird!

    Shipper WitcHazard: It’s still plausible that she’s telling the truth!

    Lover WitcHazard: What was she thinking is she that threatened that he leave her that she’ll use this a ameasure to keep him! I’m just glad she want pregnant! Sorry Nooboos!

    Nooboos WitcHazard: (Throws confetti canon in the trash and walks away sadly)

    Lover WitcHazard: And the look on Pheonix’s face when she proposed!

    Anti Shipper: Despite us having these four glorious years together I have never thought of you as Mrs. Pheonix Rosebrook!

    Charmer WitcHazard: I give it a year if he says yes one semester if he’s no!

    Anti Shipper: So generous! A semester of he says yes two to three months if he says no!

    Dark WitcHazard: You’re both wrong three months if he says yes and she ain’t going if he says no!

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    1. Hahahaha Next chapter we will see whether it was an awkward yes or an awkward no! And yes, at least no pregnancy to try and rope him in. Ha! 😂

      I will take note of all those bets placed in case we need them for later 😉 Hehehe

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  3. THIS HO. Omg.
    She only realizes she’s being selfish AFTER she finds a way to get what she wants.
    I SEE HOW IT IS.
    Is she a sociopath? Wait, no, don’t tell me, I want to be surprised! 😱

    And Phoenis! YOU BOY, all ready to be throwing away your dreams just because your gf is being a brat?
    NO BETTER SON. omg /breathes into a paper bag
    Setting himself up for a lifetime of bitterness, resentment and guilt, yeah that’s good for your relationship.

    /Hauls them both off for a non-sexy spanking and a time out

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    1. Haha you bring up some great points here. Gigi has a definite manipulative and selfish side to her. But I think it’s something she doesn’t even 100% recognize in herself. And she really does genuinely love Phoenix. She sees this proposal as a compromise. She wanted to get married. He wants to go follow his dream in B.B. In her mind, she’s found a solution that will make them both happy…. but will it, in the long run? That remains to be seen…

      And yes, Phoenix was seriously going to give it all up for her 😱 We know who the real dom and sub are in this relationship 😬

      But hopefully things will all work out for the best???? For now though, okay maybe that spanking and time out was deserved hahaha

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  4. It really is an uncomfortable decision. I am glad they are no longer fighting. I can understand Gigi being disappointed about not getting a proposal when she expected it, but I feel a little bit bad about that. I mean, that should be something they talk about first, in small steps, not something to push someone into because hey, it’s been x years. And I really don’t know. It’s cool Gigi will tag along and Phoenix can follow his dream, but that proposal, in that situation, seems a bit pushy. Out of a stressy situation. She propably doesn’t want to risk losing Phoenix, wants to make sure he will stay by her side. But it’s really not the right time. Not in that situation, not directly after fighting and Phoenix having to be thankful for Gigi “allowing” him to follow his dream and still be with her. As he already made clear he would put her over fulfilling his dream. He can’t possibly say no right now, and without a real choice, it won’t be the exact binding thing Gigi wants. This will bite her later.

    Things won’t be easy for Gigi in Brindleton. Even if her boss allows her to “work from home”, there isn’t any guarantee this won’t change if her work starts lacking or someone else is unavailable and so on. What then? Getting pregnant would be the next “binding” thing, and make things very uncomfortable for an entry level worker and a student.

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    1. Yeah. This is a tough one 😬 That proposal from Gigi definitely came from a place of desperation. She saw it as their only chance at a true compromise — she gets to marry him, he gets to go to B.B. It’s what they both want…. but like you said, this really isn’t the best situation to get engaged. :-/

      And yeah, things might not be as smooth sailing once they get to the US, especially with Gigi’s job. But we’ll see… assuming Phoenix accepts the proposal!

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  5. His face says it all…

    Da boy was not expecting a proposal. Hmm…is he ready to get married? Like forever and ever. That’s what marriage is supposed to mean. Just so she can come with him? Not a great start to a marriage if you feel like you “have” to do it in order to stay together. Ugh. Poor guy. I feel like she’s guilting him into marrying her. Ahhhh!!!

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    1. Definitely not expecting it! Poor Phoenix haha And you bring up great questions about this whole thing too. This most definitely isn’t the most ideal way for two people to get engaged 😬

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  6. DON’T DO IT, PHOENIS

    (Lemme guess, he’s gonna do it because he’s a Rosebrook and Bad Decisions are part of his DNA.) Damn, this girl is thirsty for an engagement ring, even if she has to put it on her own damn finger.

    I feel like Gigi is way more enamored with the idea of getting married than being married, but she does seem to be really into or at least holding onto him, so…guess we’ll see how this pans out!

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    1. That’s a great point — she really does seem pretty desperate for marriage, and I think you’re right too that it’s that romanticized idea of marriage that she’s really craving.

      That being said, she does genuinely love Phoenix, so the idea of staying with him for the rest of her life is definitely appealing too! Haha But I wonder if she’s truly considered the implications of this kind of commitment (including moving overseas with him!)

      And Bad decisions DO tend to be an integral part of being a Rosebrook, so… LOLOLOL we’ll see? 😛

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  7. Uh oh. That face does not look like a ‘yes’. She really should have slid more gently into the whole marriage topic, instead of springing it on him like that. She’s pretty much doing the same thing he did. Spring it on him out of nowhere. Just like he sprung this univerisity thing on her out of nowhere. And they are both two very big things. Phoenix is not ready to get married. That is very clear.

    I was gonna write that she is proposing for the wrong reasons because a marriage proposal should come from love. But isn’t it love when you feel like you will be completely lost and unhappy to be without the love of your life for two – maybe three- years? I just worry that Phoenix hasn’t reached that revelation yet that she is the love of his life.

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    1. This is a great point — she basically did the same thing to him with this proposal! And it’s hard to say how he’ll react to it… he’s definitely shocked right now, to say the least! LOL

      As for the reasons.. it’s hard. They DO love each other, like you said. But honestly, if he hadn’t been going to the US, they would not have gotten engaged yet. They would have waited a few more years until they were both older and in better situations with their careers and finances… So the love is there, but the “real” reason she’s proposing is definitely because it feels like they “have” to get married… which probably is not a great reason :-/

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      1. For me, it was a logical step. My ex-idiot is from England and we had talked about him getting citizenship here and it being easier to do while married. We didn’t get married so he could get citizenship. We were already married a couple years before that came up. And in the end he never did it. It is what put the thought in my head though when Phoenix said that unless she was family, he couldn’t take her with him.

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  8. YOU BETTER SAY YES, PHEE!!! MARRY HER! FUCK HER! MASTER HER! (My kinky ship is gonna stay afloat.)

    And on a related note: “Or, if you’d rather, I guess I could punish you instead, for being such a bad girl…” I SWEAR… Husband sent me a text today similar to these words, and I wanted to fucking scream at him for teasing me. Told you he and Phoenix are one and the same. Ugh. Men. LOL.

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  9. This was a rollercoaster for their relationship. I’m still feeling their relationship is doomed, but I’m glad Gigi made some moves of her own. I’m very excited to see Phoenix’s response!

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    1. Ha! Definitely a huge rollercoaster… the question now is whether they’ll survive the ride? (You seem to be betting on “no”? Hehe)

      We’ll find out how Phoenix answered in Wednesday’s chapter ^_^

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  10. Oh my! I was like Gigi’s being so sweet. And yes, she seems to adore Phoenix because he never says no….But they DO seem to care about each other like A lot! But the marriage seems for the wrong reasons. Somehow I just don’t see him saying no. Bad decision Genes and all. But they could possibly make it work. Wishing he would go without her though…..

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    1. Yeah it’s such a complicated situation! There’s lots of love and caring there, but this is definitely not the right reason to get married… 😬

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  11. 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣
    This was the invite solution all along, but we know Phoenix loves his whole life missing the obvious…

    I didn’t expect her to propose. But u really didn’t expect him to be horrified at the thought of her proposing. Poor Phoenix. Poor Gigi.

    He can’t say no though. He better not say no.

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    1. Hahaha I think Phoenix is just super shocked. He never even considered it… even though it was kind of the obvious solution, like you said haha.

      We’ll see in the next chapter what his answer is!

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  12. Ha! I thought she would do that…Either way, she gets what she wants! I was afraid for a moment, when Gigi said she founded a way, as I imagined something among the lines of ”German imigrant is found illegally working in the US.” Glad that ain’t happening!

    Phoenix you think this trought, marriage isn’t a ”fix everything” spell that will make living abroad easy. The worse part is, if he says no, they *will* break up…althought, at this point, I think that wouldn’t be all that bad.It’s best to end things now,than when you are 40, and have to share the custody of your childrem.

    This is not going that well. Down the line, I do think he will regret getting married.Everything will be flowers and love, for quite some months, after things eventually fall apart,( they barely know each other) and Gigi ends up disliking her situation, as she gave up everything in her country to do something that isn’t even working.

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    1. LOL thank goodness she didn’t respond to any kind of illegal means 😂 Just good ol’ fashioned marriage… though like you said, it’s not going to fix everything, and it might not end well!

      Phoenix and Gigi have been dating for four years now, so they know each other quite well, actually! Though they’ve both grown a and changed quite a bit since they first got together. And this sort of move still might be rather drastic… but we shall see! 😬

      Thank you for reading! ^_^

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  13. I’m not quite so anti-Phigi as Wagonfruit up there, but I don’t really ship these two. They were cute as teens, and had a hot couple of moments, but there are some alarm bells. Even if she isn’t fully trying to manipulate him, I think Phee recognizes (deep down, if not fully) that something isn’t right. The little thoughts about how much easier it is to pretend if he’s caught up in the moment, for example, or the little voice of bitterness. That won’t just go away, it will pop up about something else, and something else. Pay attention to the alarms!!

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    1. You make some good points about potential alarms here! I think Phoenix has gotten a bit too good at ignoring those doubts and negative feelings 😦 He and Gigi love each other very much. But their relationship most definitely has a few issues…

      Um, but obviously getting married is going to fix all of those, right? 😉 😂 😬

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  14. The face that Phoenix makes in the end was my face x10. I was so not expecting this from Gigi! But she seems to be a girl who gets what she wants 😉

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    1. Ha! Glad Gigi shocked you too 😉 And that’s a great description — this is a girl who knows what she wants and gets it one way or another! 😉

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  15. Ha, that’s one way to take matters in your own hands. I wonder if he’s ready for marriage – doesn’t sound like it’s something he’d thought about yet, but then guys take their sweet time lol

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