Interlude: Yet

The cool summer breeze tickled Hope’s cheeks, contrasting sharply with the pair of full, warm lips that moved slowly against hers. She felt a large, rough hand reach up, entwining its fingers in her long brown hair as it pulled her closer.

The kiss was amazing – clearly this guy knew what he was doing. But all Hope could think of in that moment was Zayne. It sent an unpleasant twisting sensation through her stomach. What am I doing?!

“Cut! That was perfect, guys!”

Hope eagerly broke away from the man’s embrace the moment the director’s cry reached her ears. They’d done four takes of the kiss already, and Hope prayed that this time when he said ‘perfect’, he meant it.

“Let’s take ten and we’ll start on the last scene.” He continued. “Hope, I think that’s a wrap for you, sweetheart. You were amazing!”

Thank God.

“Hey, are you okay?” Garrett asked softly as the blinding lights shining on their faces finally turned off.

Hope shrugged slightly at her colleague’s question. “Yeah… Why?”

“I dunno… I guess you didn’t seem super into it… And I mean, I get it. Trust me.” He let out a small laugh. “My trick is to think of my boyfriend.” He confessed, smiling. “No offense.”

Yeah, that’s the problem. Hope wanted to say. All she’d been able to think about was Zayne the entire shoot. She forced a smile. “I promise, I’m fine. Nice job today.”

“You too! See you backstage tomorrow?” The other model asked kindly.

The girl nodded. “See you then!”

Hope headed straight for the dressing room, eager to change back into her own clothes, stop thinking about Zayne, and start focusing on tomorrow’s fashion show. That was the real reason she was in San Myshuno anyway – Francisco San Martín had requested that she walk in the debut of his new line. She’d booked that job weeks ago. The commercial, on the other hand, was something of a lucky coincidence.

According to Louis, there’d been some sort of scheduling conflict, and the model set to be in this perfume commercial was no longer able to do the job. It just so happened to be shooting the same weekend she’d be in the city for the fashion show, and the job was up for grabs.

The moment she learned the nature of the shoot, Hope had eagerly accepted. She knew how petty it was, but she’d really taken the job as something of a “screw you” to Zayne more than anything else. If he wants to be jealous, I’ll give him something to be jealous of. She’d told herself at the time.

But Hope found herself regretting her decision almost the moment she’d arrived at the shoot. No matter how hard she tried, all she could think of was Zayne sitting back home in Windenburg, completely unaware that she was halfway across the world making out with another guy. A gay guy, yes… But somehow that didn’t help her feel much better.

What’s he going to think of me when he sees this? The girl wondered as she finished putting her street clothes back on. God, we haven’t even broken up yet, and I’m already –

Hope’s entire body froze.

Yet. Had she really thought that? Yet?

Almost without warning, Hope felt the hot wetness of tears on her cheeks. Oh my God.

Had she really made her mind up so soon?  Could she really throw away everything they had without giving him a second chance? But I’ve already given him so many of those. She reminded herself. The thought did nothing but make her feel worse.

Hope headed back toward her hotel on foot, hoping the fresh air would help clear her head. It felt like all the doubt, worry, and regret she’d been battling for the past two weeks had come rushing back at her all at once. Had she been too hard on him? Pushed too much? What could she have done differently? Hope did her best to chase the thoughts away just as quickly as they’d come. There was no use dwelling. There was nothing she or Zayne could do to change the past now.

But what about the future? We could start over, couldn’t we? Do things differently this time around?

Hope slowed her pace a bit as she continued down the sidewalk, savoring the sights and sounds of the city around her, and hoping they’d do something to lift her spirits.

She’d always loved San Myshuno, and even after all these years, it still managed to feel like home. She’d been trying to stay close to Windenburg and take as many local jobs as she could… But lately it was becoming harder and harder to turn down all the amazing opportunities the city had to offer. And the more time she’d been spending there, the more she realized just how much she missed it.

Y’know, I probably would have already moved back here by now, Hope realized. If it weren’t for…

The uncomfortable twisting in her stomach slowly began creeping its way back. And, try as she might, she could not will the feeling away. Maybe there was more to their problems than she’d thought… Had Zayne really been holding her back? And what if she’d been holding him back too…?

God damn it. Stop thinking shit like that!

She needed to give him another chance, didn’t she?

Zayne was everything to her. Her best friend. Her lover. Her confidant. The person she dreamed of spending the rest of her life with.

I love him. Hope reminded herself firmly. More than anything.

But was that enough?

By the time she made it back to her hotel, she’d made up her mind.

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62 Responses to Interlude: Yet

  1. Trip says:

    Less fucking, more ambitions (and Zayne getting his shit together). Our at least I’m hoping for that. You’re more of a romantic than I am, though. 😛

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  2. audreyfld says:

    That was a little petty. I wonder if she would feel guilty if she taken the job under different circumstances. A little worried she is going to break up though. Gotta get my bucket and duck tape!

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  3. EddieSims says:

    I don’t think Hope will break up with Zayne but if she does then I can understand why. This chapter did a good job at explaining her perspective but also showing that just because you love someone doesn’t mean they are right for you. With so many professional opportunities coming her way, it makes sense for Hope to evaluate whether salvaging their relationship will be worth giving up those opportunities, especially since Zayne was such an ass towards the end. I think all the problems they are having are normal problems people in relationships have so I don’t want either one of them to throw in the towel. Zayne needs to get it together but Hope also needs to take a step back and realise that in spite of his recent douche-ness, Zayne makes her happy and that’s worth a lot.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      This is a great analysis, Eddie! I’m glad you’re rooting for them to make it work. I am too! I agree that the happiness Zayne gives her (and he DOES! I think it’s maybe hard to remember given his recent actions haha) is definitely worth so much. And I think Hope knows that — that’s why she’s wrestling with it right now… because it’s also true what you said about balancing the worth of her relationship with her job opportunities :-/

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  4. kaffepigen says:

    Saturday should be so much close! I hope we get the answer then 🙂 awesome chapter and Hope Was sooo beauty fuld in that shoot

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks! I agree that she was so lovely!

      Saturday we will learn about the conversation Zayne and Hope have when she gets back from San Myshuno (and when their month is up)

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  5. shamanarza says:

    On the one hand, Hope has opportunities galore, commercial success, adventure, the lure of the Novel.

    On the other hand, models have a very short expiration date. When the casting calls stop, when the jet lag accumulates, what do you have left?

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  6. Tizy says:

    Can we pretend today is saturday????

    Omgoshhh

    I dont know how will I be able to wait!!!

    So many hopes for Hope. Fly free dove!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha wow, that eager for Zayne’s heart to be crushed? 😉 We’ll see… that is a big possibility at this point. This weekend we’ll see what happens next for the two of them.

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  7. sourocha1 says:

    Whatever Hope chooses to do, I think it’s for the best, they kind of need a time apart anyway, to both grow up in their careers and such…they need each other, after all, but, like Hope says, love isn’t enough…And that was kind of a low move, hope to kiss the other guy in the photo, at least, again, it shows she do care what she think of him, otherwise, why do this for someone she don’t truly love?

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, taking this job was a super low move on her part. Very petty 😦 But she knows it haha

      We will see soon what her ultimate decision is about how to move forward from here.

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  8. azzywoods says:

    Wow Hope, that is an impressive level of petty you have going on there.

    I was really into this ship at first too. But I think Zayne has screwed up too many times, they’re not communicating enough, and there just might not be anything to salvage…

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha you’re not alone. Many people have abandoned ship at this point, unfortunately! I still love them together though. But it’s not about how I feel, it’s about how the characters feel! Haha

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  9. sonniejj says:

    I think that if Hope does decide to give Zayne another chance, things might backfire as soon as he finds out about this commercial. Maybe he won’t accept this and see it as a sogn that they aren’t right for each other after all?

    I’m not sure about these two. They were really cute in the beginning, but they need to make some serious changes if they want to make this work and I’m just not sure either of them are ready or willing to do that.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha you aren’t alone, I think most people are feeling that way! These two have a lot of love for each other, but they have a lot of issues they need to work through too!

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  10. Whatever she’s decided, I hope Zayne is on the same page.

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  11. julyvee94 says:

    I mostly agree with Eddie’s comment. Also such a great job on this chapter! It gave perspective from Hope without being onesided. Portrayed her inner battle very well.

    Btw first I was like come one, give him a Chance, as soon as he gets this Restaurant going the pressure/Stress will be gone and everything will be okay. But then I thought, if Zayne can’t handle pressure now, can he in the future? He might learn from this. Or he might not. I am on the fence and watching patiently. Haven’t decided whether to jump off the Hozay or not.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I’m glad you liked this chapter, July!

      I think it’s a tough situation for sure, so I get why you’re on the fence! I think that’s why Hope is struggling so much too. We’ll see where these two go from here!

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    • Brass Buckles says:

      Honestly, after he starts the restaurant, the pressure will be even higher. Not only will he have to focus on getting customers to visit the restaurant, but he’ll also have to be able to convince people to KEEP coming to the restaurant. Then there’s the issue of finances–because even if he manages to keep the restaurant afloat for the first year, he may take a loss all the same. And it doesn’t matter if he’s an amazing chef if his employees are rude or unskilled.

      So I still don’t think a month is going to be enough time to solve all their problems, and I think they need to break up, even if only for a year or so. They both need to pull themselves together and grow up a bit (though at their age that already should have happened!).

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  12. Bugsie2016 says:

    For once I don’t have to letter rant at Zayne’s actions. It makes a nice change although she really shouldn’t have taken the commercial job just to spite Zayne, it could ruin any future chances between them when he finds out.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, it wasn’t the best move on her part… :-/

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      • Bugsie2016 says:

        Maybe I should write out a short letter telling Hope why she SHOULDN’T have done that. 🙂

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        • Bugsie2016 says:

          Here we go:
          Dear Hope,
          You are right in the areaa that you were wrong to take the commercial because you did it to spite Zayne and that’s it. If it was because you enjoyed it and it was just a good opportunity then that would be ‘doing your job’. This isn’t. This is you using this to get to Zayne. It is understandable but you should have thought how this would affect you relationship as you haven’t officially broken up yet meaning you are still togethor. How would you like it if Zayne were kissing girls in adverts after you recently took a break? I bet you that it would hurt and you would hate it. So be prepared for when Zayne sees the advert as you have a hurricane approaching and No you can’t just magic away this argument like Dorothy from the wizard of Oz. Learn from this mistake and accept that he is gonna hate you for it.
          From Bugsie2016
          P.S You have both done stupid things but the least you can do is learn from the mistakes you make. You and Zayne.

          If it’s not one of them slipping up it’s the other.

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  13. CitizenErased14 says:

    Haha well, breaking up is a definite possibility, we’ll see! She definitely isn’t celebrating the thought of breaking up with him though. It’s very painful for her to consider 😦

    Thanks for reading 🙂

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  14. fabtiffsim says:

    oooohhhh what’s going to happen!?

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  15. Brass Buckles says:

    Ugh, Hope. If you’re actively trying to agitate him, no matter how guilty you feel now, then yeah, you probably actually do want to break up with him. You might think you want to give him another chance, but your gut impulse was to widen the gulf. And if your gut tells you GET AWAY, then there’s probably a reason for that.

    You know how I know this? Been there. Done that. Breaking up with the guy actually was a good decision, as it happens, though I wish I’d been mature enough to actually discuss it with him at the time, instead of actively pissing him off. Maybe then we could still have been friends. But looking back on some of the stuff he said? Yeah. Definitely dodged a bullet.

    As I said, a month is not going to be enough to turn his entire personality around. I think Hope and Zayne need to break up for at least a year. Otherwise, after all the second chances Hope has given him, Zayne will just go right back into his old habits. A month is just not enough time. If he and Hope are apart for long enough that he realizes he can actually lose someone through his bad behavior, and if Hope realizes that she hasn’t helped things by being petty and not communicating enough, then both of them will have the chance to grow and mature. Maybe dating other people can also give them more perspective. Then when they do get back together, they’ll both be better people for the experience.

    And maybe Zayne will stop deluding himself into thinking he’s better than, well, anyone else like he seems to be doing now.

    But I’m probably the only one hoping that Hope will actually break up with Zayne. Honestly I think a breakup would be good for both of them in the long run even if it hurts in the present.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I don’t think you’re the only one rooting for a breakup haha don’t worry! I think you make a great point about a month not being long enough — both of them have serious issues they need to work out (mostly Zayne, but Hope too, like you said!)

      We’ll have to wait and see. This weekend Hope and Zayne will have a talk when she’s back from San Myshuno. 🙂

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  16. Jes2G says:

    Nice cliff hanger.

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  17. OH this is just pure torture!!! I can’t even right now. What tears…that’s just an onion I’m chopping up.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha I had a feeling this one would get a reaction from you 😂 There might still be hope (lol). We will find out this weekend!

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  18. NoaLyn says:

    Ugh noo! I really hope she gives him another chance – I feel like San Myshuno would be THE place for them to be! Zayne should just get his sh*t together and follow her for once, and maybe he’ll be a successful restaurant owner in the city. Since he can’t seem to accomplish anything in Windenburg, I guess a change of scene would do him good! And Hope will be able to get all the good jobs without having to go far away. But well, of course we all know you and that it’s not going to be that easy xD

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I like your idea of them both going to San Myshuno together! And I’m glad you’re rooting for her to give him another chance 🙂

      Thanks for reading, NoaLyn!

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  19. Tizy says:

    Is it saturday yet????

    This is a torture!!!!!!

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  20. peaoorko says:

    Not that I think her reasons for taking the job were great, but her guilt is one of the problems. Because I think she’ she’s right. If they were still together and this commercial would be her a big opportunity and not just something she stumbled upon, Zayne would probably flip.
    I’m torn, I do like HoZay and they can be good together, even when the things are tough, but I’m not sure if they are right for each other. It’s not a figure of speech, I honestly don’t know what I want for them. So I guess I’m okay with whatever outcome you have planned. I’m still anxious to find out!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha this is definitely a rough situation all around… we’ll find out this weekend where things are going from here for them!

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  21. lisabeesims says:

    Lol had me going at the opener … very nice 😂❤️. … ask for her decision I’ll leave that with a cliffhanger and not even speculate .. I know what I would hope for but I also know that sometimes you don’t get with you hope for

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  22. Wow but uhmmmm Hope girl…. hair and dress for that filming scene…. care to share?

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  23. addbratlove225 says:

    I like Hope. She needs to stick around. And probably not with Zayne. I ship them, but she’s too good for him.

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