Interlude: Tell Me About It

Jocelyne’s eyes scanned the small coffee shop, searching. Did she get sick of waiting and leave? She wondered. Her aunt had been rather moody lately, so it wouldn’t have surprised her if she’d simply gotten fed up and left.

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But then her gaze fell upon a heavily tattooed figure sitting at one of the tables. With a soft smile, she approached.

“Hey, sorry I’m late.” Jocelyne called as she drew closer. “That took a lot longer than I thought it would…”

“No worries.” Clara returned her niece’s smile. “Layla decided now was a good time to flood my phone with disgustingly cute pictures of Leo, so I’ve been pretty distracted anyway.”

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Jocelyne laughed. She loved hearing Clara talk about her grandson. She was completely head-over-heels for the little boy, and her joy every time she spoke about him was contagious. It was a nice change from how oddly sullen she’d been the past few months.

“Do I get to see?” She asked.

Clara eagerly slid her phone across the table. “Your Papa’s gonna flip… Leo kicked a ball right into his toy box from all the way across the room! Future football star.” She grinned. “Look.”

Jocelyne peered down at the small screen. Honestly it looked more like Leo tripped on the ball and it just happened to roll into the toybox… But Jocelyne wasn’t about to say that. And besides, he’s pretty damn adorable no matter what.

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“So cute!” She beamed, returning the phone to Clara’s hand. “I’ll let Alex know she has some competition.” Jocelyne winked as she spoke.

Her aunt just laughed. “I know, I know. I’m turning into one of those annoying-as-fuck grandmothers who oohs and ahhs over every little thing. But if I have to deal with the horrifying realization that one of my babies has a baby of his own now…” She shook her head as though in disbelief. “Well, I’m gonna take full advantage of it.”

Jocelyne joined in Clara’s laughter. “Understandable.”

“Okay, so now that I’ve gotten that out of my system…” Clara smiled. “How did the dress shopping go?”

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“It was really fun… But not as easy as I was hoping it’d be.” Jocelyne replied. “Emma found a great one at the first store we went to, of course.” She shook her head. “Ben’s mother and I were a bit more challenging. Guess we’re kind of picky.” She laughed softly.

“I still remember how much Mama agonized over what to wear when Florian and I got married.” Clara smiled at the memory. “I guess no one warns you that finding your mother-of-the-bride dress can be almost as stressful as finding your wedding dress, huh?”

Jocelyne felt herself bristle at her aunt’s words. “Well I wouldn’t know anything about that, would I?” She muttered.

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The smile vanished from Clara’s face instantly. “Jocelyne, what the hell’s going on with you lately?” She sighed.

Jocelyne mentally kicked herself for losing her cool so easily. Lately the littlest thing was enough to set her off. “What are you talking about?” She feigned ignorance.

“Cut the crap. You keep getting all weird and mopey almost every time someone mentions the wedding. Or Mark.” She narrowed her eyes almost suspiciously. “What gives?”

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“Nothing. I’m fine.”

“Bullshit.”

Jocelyne felt her irritation rising. Is she seriously gonna do this right now? “Oh, you’re one to talk, Clara.”

“What?!”

You’re the one acting weird! Ever since Rory left for school, you haven’t been yourself. We all see it.”

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It was Clara’s turn to look annoyed. “Hey, don’t make this about me, okay? That’s not why I’m here.”

Jocelyne’s eyes widened. “Oh, so this is about me then? What, you invited me for coffee so you could try to psychoanalyze me or something?”

“Um… kinda, yeah.” Clara admitted almost guiltily.

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One look at Clara’s face, and Jocelyne found herself laughing despite herself. “Jesus, what are we? Sixteen again? Listen to us!”

“I know.” Her aunt joined in her laughter for a moment. “This is almost embarrassing.”

“Tell me about it.”

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At last, Clara’s laughter began to die away. “So… judging by our reactions, we both obviously have some shit going on that we don’t wanna talk about…”

Jocelyne nodded. “And apparently we suck at hiding it. But… I’m willing to spill if you are?” She offered, still amused by the ridiculousness of it all.

“Deal.”

She hesitated for a few moments. Part of her felt almost relieved at the chance to open up to someone about how she was feeling, yet another part of her felt so foolish speaking the words aloud.

“I’ve just been thinking a lot since Mark’s birthday.” She said at last. “It’s really starting to hit me that he’s getting older now. And it kinda feels we’re running out of time or something. Know what I mean?”

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Clara nodded.

“And just I keep thinking of all that time we wasted when I was back in the US. All the stuff we could have done if I hadn’t left… Stuff like getting married.” She confessed. “And I know there’s nothing I can do to change the past now… But what about the future? I just feel like I need time to slow down or something. Before it’s too late.”

Her aunt nodded yet again. “I get it.” She said at last. “I don’t blame you for feeling like that. I probably would too, in your shoes.” Clara paused. “But… have you tried talking to Mark about all this? I mean… No offense, but duh.” She laughed softly. “He needs to know how you feel.”

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“Oh, and how is that conversation supposed to go, exactly?” Jocelyne practically rolled her eyes. “’Hey, Honey. I couldn’t help but notice you’re getting kind of old, and I’m pretty terrified about you dying and leaving me all alone. So if you could try to live to be a hundred, that’d be great.’ Yeah, I don’t think so.”

“Well that wouldn’t be my choice of words, but…” Clara sighed. “Look, I’m just saying you should try. It couldn’t hurt, could it?”

Jocelyne shrugged. “I don’t know. I’ll think about it, okay?” She paused for a moment. “Alright, you got me to spill my soul. Now it’s your turn.”

“It’s stupid.” Clara muttered.

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“Yeah, so was mine. So what?” Jocelyne leaned closer to her. “You know you can talk to me. What’s going on, Clara?”

She took a deep breath before replying. “It’s the kids.” She said at last. “I just miss them so damn much. I guess I feel like everything’s so empty now that Rory’s gone. You always hear people whine about ‘empty nest syndrome’… God, I had no idea it was a real thing.” Clara shook her head. “How the hell do you do it?”

“Some days it’s not easy.” Jocelyne confessed. “Especially with Alex and Tony so far away… But I got lucky with Charlie and Zayne. I get to see them a lot. So that helps.”

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“And what about when you don’t see them?”

“Well, having Mark helps a hell of a lot. And work too… It keeps me busy.” Jocelyne bit her lip. “But I guess you and Florian don’t have that option anymore.” She knew her aunt and Florian had both retired from their respective careers just a few years ago.

“Nope. We just sit around all day doing nothing, basically.” Clara sighed. “It’s so fucking sad.” She almost laughed.

“Well, have you tried talking to Florian about it?” Jocelyne echoed her aunt’s suggestion. “Maybe ask him how he feels?”

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“Kind of.” Clara shrugged her shoulders. “I mean, he already knows how I feel. And he’s told me he feels pretty much the same way I do… We’re just kinda stuck, I guess. We miss the way things used to be. I guess we got too used to being parents, and we aren’t sure what to do with ourselves anymore.”

“I think you need to talk to him again.” Jocelyne insisted. “And figure out how to fix this. You can’t stay miserable, Clara.”

Her aunt laughed. “Well, do you know anyone who knows how to turn back time?”

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“God, I wish!” If only things could really be that easy. Jocelyne paused before continuing. “Alright, look. If I promise to talk to Mark, do you promise you’ll try talking to Florian again?” She said seriously. “And maybe we can both stop being so miserable?”

Clara hesitated. “Alright.” She replied at last. “I guess it couldn’t hurt… As long as you swear you’ll talk to Mark too.”

“I will.” Jocelyne’s lips stretched into a smile. “I promise.”

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“I’ll hold you to it.” Clara took another sip of her coffee and the two women fell into silence.

Jocelyne bit her lip. Things had gotten a bit awkard… But it was worth it, wasn’t it? If she could count on anyone to give her good advice, it was Clara. Jocelyne just hoped she could find the courage to take it.

At last, she cleared her throat softly, breaking the silence.”So… now that the tough stuff’s all settled, can we get back to gushing about cute grandchildren and wedding planning?” She asked hopefully.

“Yes! Please.” Clara replied, her relief apparent on her face. “As long as you promise to give me all the details about Zayne’s girlfriend…” She smiled playfully. “Facebook stalking can only tell you so much.”

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35 Responses to Interlude: Tell Me About It

  1. Senna says:

    I don’t think either talk is going to go well, to be honest. :/

    It’d be awesome if they both did, but…

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  2. “Live to be 100 years” I see what you did there… And yes, he must live to be 100.

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  3. peaoorko says:

    Clara sounds like Marie sometimes 😀 I loved their conversation, I missed their friendship- turbulent as it may get. I’m super curious what will happen to Clarian. Will they get a hobby, do some charity work?

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Clara is definitely like her Mama in many ways! 🙂 (Mostly the good ways 😛 ) I’m glad you loved this convo! Time will tell what the future holds for Clara and her hubby 🙂 Hopefully something good/positive!

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  4. audreyfld says:

    Well both conversations are going to be hard. Florian already got upset the first time Clara brought it up. But maybe they can start to travel or something and revitalize their relationship. I remember how they were like rabbits early in their relationship. I have more hope for this conversation going well than Jocelyn and Mark.

    I’m not sure what Jocelyn wants other than for him to be younger duh. Maybe she will apologize to him for hiding out for so long. Does she want to get married? It seems like that is part of it. I would really like to see them get married. That would be so sweet. They are so much in love, they should do this as a simple expression of their love. Mark is such a good guy that I think he wouldn’t get upset. Mark’s probably feeling her moodiness too. So I hope she chooses her words carefully.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, neither conversation is going to be easy… We’ll have to wait and see how they go! (I will spoil that we won’t actually see either convo happen… but I promise we will see the aftermath and/or follow up conversations 😛 )

      As for Jocelyne, I think she just wants to get her feelings out there to Mark. She’s just afraid to express them. She wants him to know how much she regrets the past and how afraid she is of the future. And I do think she’d love to marry him too haha but mostly, I think she just wants to be honest with him about her feelings so she can kind of get it all out, y’know?

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  5. These two always have a positive effect on each other eventually. I’m happy to see that with age, they effect happens much quicker. No turning back time ladies!! Work with the present to preserve your future!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, these two are always there for each other 🙂 Like two really close sisters ^_^ And they’re definitely both wiser with age too! 😉

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  6. raerei says:

    Love how their friendship has blossomed and matured over the years. I couldn’t see them having a talk like this back in college, but the seeds were there. It’s lovely to see them ‘all grown up’

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  7. sonniejj says:

    I love Clara. She definitely wasn’t my favorite when she was a teen, but she has grown up so much! Such an intelligent and loving woman, although she definitely had some attitude when it’s needed.

    Oh Joce… I do hope she’ll be with her man a long, long time. The girl deserves a break!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I’m glad Clara has grown on you so much 🙂 She has definitely had a lot of growth over the years!

      And yes, Joce deserves many long and happy years with Mark ❤

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  8. Jes2G says:

    Cute. As others have said, I love how Joce and Clara have remained the best of friends after all these years, and their friendship continues to get deeper. Things get so complicated when you grow up and start having your own families and stuff, and it takes intentional effort to maintain friendships like that. I guess it helps that they’re family, but still lol.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks 🙂 They definitely have a very special bond! Them being family does probably help a bit haha but I do think it still takes effort to keep the friendship going, and they both put in the effort ^_^

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  9. fabtiffsim says:

    They should have an adorable old person wedding! Get married now!

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  10. theplumbob says:

    It was so nice to see them together. And look at them communicating, albeit not with their respective partners – they both got so defensive bit then they worked through it. This is huge in this family haha! You can tell they’re growing up (and at their age, they’d better haha)

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      The Rosebrooks are such late bloomers, but they all learn eventually 😂 They’ve definitely come a long way!

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  11. Colourofmusic says:

    These kind of domestic family catch-up like chapters are some of my favorites. It’s chill, fun, but also serious in a relaxed kind of way. Just family catching up with a coffee. I love it.

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  12. SpurklyNinja says:

    The talk was sweet, even if some of the details were a little uncomfortable for them. That lasting friendship between the two always makes me smile! 🙂

    Now we’ll have to see if they actually have those talks…

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  13. Tizy says:

    So love this chapter ❤❤❤
    Joce sweet joce, you have been stolen from happiness for too many years. Now its true the time is running out but lets make a blast from what weve got left!

    Does Clara still updates her blog?

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Clara doesn’t write her blog anymore, no. She’s retired now 🙂 I’m glad you enjoyed this chapter so much

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  14. CitizenErased14 says:

    Thanks! I love how she’s matured over the years. It’s great to write!

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  15. lisabeesims says:

    I about choked on my biscuit when I read Joyce’s speculation and what she might say to Mark. LOL. Both of the ladies are under the misconception that life is over. It is not … in fact a whole new adventure awaits for them.

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  16. theceltygirly says:

    Awww that was so cute with the two of them. I love their aged and matured relationship.
    I’m gonna stop reading for now, but I’ll keep catching up soon.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, they’ve come such a long way as friends/”sisters” (since that’s essentially what they are 😉 haha).

      Thank you for reading, Celty!

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