5.33: Yours Forever

Dear Jonas,

I can’t believe it. I really can’t.

Fifty-five years… God, doesn’t that make you feel ancient?

It’s such a stupid cliché, but it literally feels like it was only yesterday. I can still remember every moment of that day in perfect detail. How handsome that suit looked on you. How delicious the cake tasted. How beautiful I felt in my dress. How adorable Tobi and Stefan were during the ceremony. How much dad and mãe and my Schwesters cried. How amazing it felt to say “I do” and become Mrs. Mariana Klein… I’ll never forget any of it.


But do you know what my favorite part was?

It wasn’t the ceremony, no matter how adorable you were stumbling over your vows. It wasn’t the reception either. Not the cake. Not the first dance. Not even our wedding night.

It was when you held me in your arms and told me I was worth something. When I was panicking and jittery and moments away from becoming the living cliché of the ‘runaway bride’, and you came in and made everything okay. Just like you always did, time and time again, for the rest of our lives together.

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And baby, I would give anything – ANYTHING – for you to hold me in your arms like that again. Just one more time. I need you here with me. I need you to make it all okay. And it kills me to know that you can’t. That you never will again.

Every day is a struggle. Each week goes by and I tell myself it will get easier… But who am I kidding? It’s been nearly twenty years now since we lost our Lucas, and that pain never went away. And neither will this. But I’m trying so hard. What more can I do?

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And the kids have been trying so hard too. You’d be so proud of them.

Our Stefan finally came home to us. For good. Can you believe it? We had an entire ocean separating us for more than forty years. And now, he’s barely a ten minute drive away. I just couldn’t be more grateful to have him here with me and Tobi… Especially now, after all we’ve lost.  He told me this was something he’d been planning for a long time, and as soon as you started taking a turn for the worse, he tried so hard to make it happen — he just didn’t realize we had such little time left. None of us did.

Stefan was there when you left though… He made sure of it. I don’t think you knew it, but he was there, right by your side. He held your hand, and for the first time in my entire life, I heard him call you “Papa”. I really hope you heard it too.


As for Tobi, well, he’s been a godsend these past few months. He’s hurting so much, but he’s been putting on such a brave face for all of us. He was the one who used to make sure I was eating every day (Please don’t worry, I’m a lot better about that now. I promise). He and Colette have been working so hard to keep me busy and get me out of the house too. It’s sweet. And he still lets me sit with him on the bad days and just cry when I need it. Our son may not share your blood, baby. But boy, does he have your heart.


And then there’s Clara… I can’t lie. Our little girl is struggling a lot. And I can’t say I blame her. I was just a few years older than her when I lost my dad – You remember that, don’t you? I was a mess. I don’t know how I could have made it through that without you. But you know Florian… He’s been her rock through this whole thing, just like you were mine. So I know she’ll be okay.


I guess the poor thing just has a lot on her mind right now, so that probably isn’t helping… You remember what’s coming up, don’t you? Rory’s heading off to uni in just a few weeks. Yes, already! I still remember how excited you were when she got her acceptance letter (and how you teased her about it making up for never getting a Hogwarts letter. You fucking goof ❤ ).


And she’s not the only one with some changes coming – Auggy and Noah’s little Sasha is another who’s just growing up way too fast… In less than two months, she’ll be starting first grade!


There are lots of mixed feelings all-around, I think. It’s always so hard to see your babies grow up so quickly, right before your eyes. You know that just as well as I do, huh?

Oh, and speaking of babies growing… Leo’s been talking more and more lately. Just little sentences here and there, but he’s getting braver about using his words every time I see him. Remi’s been trying to teach him “Ur-Oma”, but it’s still too much of a mouthful, I think. I wish you could have seen the look on Clara’s face when he finally said “Oma” last week though. She was so excited at first… Until it hit her that a little human being just called her his grandmother. God, I remember that feeling! Remi and Layla couldn’t stop laughing. And I know you wouldn’t have been able to either.


I know you’ve only been gone a few months, but the more I think about it, the more I’m realizing how much you’ve been missing already. Maybe not everything’s quite as exciting as starting school or learning to talk… But even the smallest moments matter, don’t they? And I just wish you could be here with us to see them.

Things have pretty quiet around the house lately… But we’ve had a few milestones. Colette finally retired from her teaching job last month, after forty-five years! And Tobi celebrated by buying them a beautiful vacation home up in the mountains (Yes, seriously! But it’s nothing compared to that fancy watch I got you when you retired, right? 😉 ).


And Jocelyne just wrapped up her fiftieth production with the theater company. They surprised her with a cake and everything – she was so touched. And I just love seeing Jocelyne doing something that makes her so happy (though never quite as happy as Mark does).


And that’s pretty much it around the house, I think. Then we have all our travelers…

River and Coleen are off on another tour together, and it sounds like they’re having a blast. I know how much you love hearing their stories – just like the ones Lucas used to come home with.


Tony’s still loving grad school at Havencrest… Sometimes I wonder whether she’ll end up staying in the US, like our Stefan did. Maybe it’d be good for her. Sometimes we all need a change… And I think Jocelyne will understand. As long as she’s happy, right?


And I know Alex definitely is. Her football contract with Champs Les Sims just got renewed for another three years… Tobi’s so proud. And Colette still loves having more excuses to visit France again, so it’s kind of a win-win for everyone, huh?


Nothing new to report with Charlie and Zayne, really. She’s still busy planning for the wedding, and we’re all so excited for it. Remember how lovely Auggy and Noah’s was? We all really needed it, after the hell we’d gone through losing Lucas and Hazel. And I think Charlie and Ben’s wedding is exactly what we all need right now too – something to look forward to, after all this pain. I just wish you could be there to see it with us.


And Zayne… Well, it’s pretty much same old, same old for him right now. Still living downtown. Still single. Still working down at the restaurant. And there’s nothing wrong with any of that… But remember what you told him, back before things got bad? About finding his calling? I think he wants to, Jonas. So damn badly. But I don’t think it’ll be easy for him. I kind of get the sense he’s a bit ‘lost’ right now… But I know he’ll find his way, eventually. We always do in this family, don’t we?


I’m sorry for rambling so much… I just looked back and realized how many pages I’ve filled up. I just got carried away, I guess. I wanted to tell you everything. There’s so much you’ve missed already… And even more that you will miss. It’s just not fair. None of this is.

You were my rock. My anchor. You held me together. You reminded me that my life was worth something, and that is one of the greatest gifts you’ve ever given me. That, and our beautiful family. And when I think back on our life together, I will always be so grateful for every single moment we shared.


I know you told me not to rush. I still remember your promise — That you’d wait for me and you’d… What was it you said? “Scope out the place and find a nice little spot for us to spend eternity together.” Well, I still promise not to rush… But I hope I won’t keep you waiting too long.

Until then, give your parents and mine all my love. Grab a few drinks with Josh. Find Lucas and Hazel and tell them what an amazing young man their son turned out to be. And save me a seat at the bar, okay?

Happy Anniversary, baby. I love you.

Yours forever,

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I think Mari’s letter said it all ❤ I love you, Jonas, and I will miss you so much.

Welcome to the YA years. I promise things will be a little happier from here 🙂

98 thoughts on “5.33: Yours Forever

  1. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭No not my Jonas! No matter what to our the number one Rosebrook Legacy spouse hands down! Moving forward all future spouses have some big shoes to fill!

    Now on to the other news Laymus gets my attention with the introduction of the adorable nooboo Leo! Eeeeeek I need that!

    Look how beautiful Aurora they’ll have to an eye on her she’s to cute to be ignored!

    River and Coleen they’ve grown on me!

    Nuggy’s daughter Sasha is cute too I was secretly hoping they got a daughter!

    I’m glad the other two triplets our doing okay!

    Yay! Stefan’s back and calling Jonas papa 😭!

    But the biggest news the wedding! Yes Charlen is canon! Here comes the bride and the grooom boy long after a new adorable nooboos!😝

    How long it the time skip poor Zayne but I feel for you later right now it’s all about Jonas waaaaaah Jonas!😭

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    1. I knowwwwww. This killed my soul 😥

      I’m glad you enjoyed the updates on everyone though 🙂 Yes, Stefan is back ^_^ It felt right for him to come back home in his retirement/old age (with his wife, of course) now that he’s retired and his kids are grown 🙂

      And yes, Remi has a family now! And Ben and Charlie will be tying the not soon 🙂

      As for the time skip, it’ll be mentioned in a couple chapters, but it’s been 7 years. So (quick math time 😛 Zayne is 23 (turning 24 in an upcoming chapter, actually :P), the triplets are 25, Remi and River are 26, Auggy’s 41, Joce/Clara are 48, Florian’s 53, Tobi is 65, Colette’s 66, Mark is 70, Mari is 85). A couple of those numbers might be a year off. Birthdays make it hard haha since, depending on the time of year, some might be just about to turn the next year older. But there you go 😛

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  2. RIP Jonas, best spouse ever. Honestly, Maras (?) were one of my faves. Poor Mari, but she’s quite old now, isn’t she…so she’ll be joining him very soon (which will also be sad, I’m one of the people who actually loves Mari).

    Nice way to get the update on everyone’s lives. Nice to see Remus has a family, and I’m glad River’s settled. Glad to see Joce and friends happy too.

    Now…what happened when things got bad? That’s what I wanna know. Zayne, be OK, pls.

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    1. Definitely best Legacy Spouse (so far, at least!) I cried so hard when I killed him (and wrote this chapter!). It was so hard! I’m glad you liked the update on everyone though 🙂 And as for Zayne, his troubles are mostly career-related, nothing to be super concerned about (yet 😛 hehe)


  3. Aww this was beautiful. Poor Mari. Though to me the most heart-breaking moment of the chapter was Stefan and Jonas. I’m glad Stefan made it back on time. But that moment alone made me want to curl up and eat brownies.

    I like that this chapter is showing that in spite of the fact Jonas is gone, life does and has to go on. Looks like the triplets are all having the time of their lives. And Havencrest, eh? I wonder if Tony’s met Valerie… hopefully she’s staid out of all the lshe cal drama, haha! Also, I reckon Clara will be one badass grandma!

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    1. Oh yeah, that moment just killed me. It felt right for Stefan to come home in his old age, and it also felt right for him to finally overcome a lifetime of stubbornness and acknowledge Jonas as his true father at the end. I think that closure was really important for Stefan to get before it was too late.

      And yes, hopefully Tony is staying out of the Havencrest drama! 😛 I think she’d have zero patience for Valerie or any of that mess hahahaha 😛

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  4. So sad and heartwarming. I started to read this in the car on the way to church and had to just put it down. First of all I new I would cry and second of all I wanted to take it all in. Now that I am home, I got to see the pics in their full glory and cried all the way through it.

    Mari and Jonas forever….❤
    Rory is beautiful! 🙂
    Charlie will make a lovely bride…can’t wait for nooboos!😁
    Leo is adorable…so happy we have toddlers now and happy Remi found someone😍
    Stefan and Jonas broke my heart into a million pieces (You killed him! How could you?)😭😭😭
    River stayed with Coleen and they are touring…assuming she took after Florian there😜
    Happy for Alex and Tony😀
    Gus and Noah’s little girl is so cute😌
    And then there’s Zayne. 🙄 What the hell Zayne. Didn’t you learn anything??? 😖Dying to know why he is living on his own again…

    Awesome chapter. Maybe one of the best time jumps ever…🤗

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    1. I’m glad you enjoyed this one, despite the sadness! It’s very sweet of you to say this is one of the best time jumps. I was really happy with how it came out! So sad for Mari and Jonas… But there are definitely a lot of exciting things going on with the family right now 🙂

      As for Zayne… Well, he’s 23 right now (turning 24 in a few chapters, actually). He moved out when he was twenty (we’ll find that out in the next chapter). He’s an adult now and is ready to live on his own. 🙂 Unlike the heirs before him, he’s not looking to stay in that house forever.


  5. Goodbye Jonas. You will be sorely misser 😥 ❤ this really made me sad, though i did like it. True testament to the way your story can mess with our feelings 😉

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  6. It’s so nice to hear from Mari again (: she’s experiencing so many feels…I’m experiencing so many feels…it’s awesome to see how the rest of the family is doing. I love how Alex continued on the athletic career of the Rosebrook’s.

    This is such a touching chapter and perfect way to end the teen years ❤️

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    1. Thank you! ^_^ I’m really glad you enjoyed this chapter. I loved writing it, even though it hurt very much 😦 And yes! Tobi is so proud of Alex 😀


  7. River and Colleen are touring doing what?

    It’s about daggone time Stefan called him papa. *snort* Talking about holding a grudge lol. That was nice though, and glad he came back home.


    1. Coleen’s in a band (that was mentioned once in the last arc) and River is their sound engineer (that part has not come up haha)

      And I wouldn’t call it a grudge when it comes to Stefan and Jonas… just a lot of repressed feelings. Stefan probably ended up closer to Josh than he ever was to Jonas, unfortunately, due to the living circumstances. I think that made it harder for him to fully accept Jonas in that role (until now, of course! Haha but better late than never?)

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      1. To me, it’s more like a grudge that never actually got resolved, you know? Like you said, he probably hasn’t had any hard feelings toward the man in some decades, but at the same time, did the “issue” ever really get resolved? Or was it more like he let it go and didn’t tell anyone lol. I’m juggling with believing if he really whole heartedly accepted him at the end, or was it more a guilt ridden thing. You know people do/say interesting things to people on their death beds.

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  8. I’m glad we got to hear from Mari again – maybe the last time, since the last last time wasn’t the last. Ha! What a sneaky yet perfect way to fill us in on the time jump activities. Looks like things have been calm for a while, but I fear that’s about to chance since we’re reading again. 🙂

    Those last shots were just heartwrenching.

    Looking forward to the shenanigans.

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  9. I LOVE this chapter!! The images, both present and past are amazing as always. I love the time jump and how you capture where everyone is at presently and their new hair styles/looks and what they are doing. Aww, Tobi and Stefan have aged up now and Mark. It’s always bound to happen. This chapter was sad but also beautiful. As for Zayne, he does look lost and sad. I love his hair like that, it suits him and where he’s at in himself.
    I can’t wait to read the YA years and follow our next heir in this amazing story!!
    R.I.P Jonus! Best husband ever! I also really enjoyed how you gave the age of the characters in a response to someone’s comment. I like knowing how old they all are now.

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    1. Thank you so much! I’m really happy you liked this 🙂 It was so sad to write, but it was also really fun to show everyone after the time jump, like you said 🙂 (and I’m so happy you love Zayne’s new look! He is so adorable. I definitely have a crush on YA-Zayne!)

      Glad you liked seeing the ages too 🙂 It’s very hard to work them in without it seeming forced, otherwise I’d try to mention it more in the actual writing haha. I do have an upcoming chapter where it’s mentioned that it’s Mark’s 70th bday, and then later it’s Zayne’s 24th. That’s the best way I can manage to do it haha


  10. I have been binge reading this legacy for a few weeks now and love it so much! Your writing is beautiful, especially this letter. Jonas was my favourite legacy spouse so far (probably will be for the rest of the legacy!) and I think Mari is one of the characters who has grown the most. And I love how Stefan called him Papa! I hope Jonas heard him and his final moments were happy ones. Also, love the update on how the rest of the Rosebrook clan are faring!

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    1. Oh wow! Thank you so much for reading! That’s amazing and it means so much to me, seriously ^_^

      I think Jonas will be a very difficult spouse to beat. He was such an amazing man and he was so important to Mari’s growth (she is my favorite character, btw!)

      Thank you again for reading. I hope you enjoy what’s to come! I post four new chapters a week so you never have to wait long for a new update 😀


    1. Yeah this one was so painful. I’ll always be so partial to that chapter where he came to fix Mari’s computer and gave her that ridiculous business card ❤

      I'm glad you liked the moment with Stefan too! That was so important. 🙂

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  11. I finally caught up with the story, and it’s incredible! Jonas was so sweet ! I’ll miss him😔
    (Are you going to update the family tree anytime soon? Cause I’m a little confused with the relationships 🤔)

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    1. Thanks so much for reading! 🙂 I appreciate it!

      I do plan on updating the family tree for the next arc pretty soon. But I might be able to help. Who are you confused about? 🙂


      1. Leo, mostly! (There are so many family members now that I felt like he just appeared from nowhere)
        Maybe it’s just me😜By the way, he’s SO cute and chubby!! Looking forward to the next update!

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        1. Well, he did appear somewhat out of nowhere 😛 We are now seven years in the future 🙂

          He is Remi’s son. If you re-read the paragraph about Leo, it mentions him (as well Layla, Remi’s girlfriend) 🙂 That’s why Leo calls Clara “Oma” (grandma)

          I know it’s a bit confounding and I know my family tree is getting big haha Thank you again for reading!


  12. It was nice to hear from Marie’s POV though, I love Rosebrooks in general, but she is my favourite. She’s grown into her wise and kingd great-grandma role, but still has her rebelious spirit. ❤ Jonas was, obviously, the best spouse IMO, so thank you for saying good-bye to him in such a beautiful way.
    Stefan's back?! Yaaay, I hope we will hear more about hum in the future.
    Bye, Jonas! Do all the things Marie told you to do and be happy.

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    1. Aw that makes me really happy 🙂 Mari is my favorite character too, so whenever I find out she’s someone else’s too, it makes me very excited! ^_^


  13. 😭😭😭

    So many updates that I can’t possibly comment on them all, but this chapter was so beautiful! All of the feels are happening right now, though.. *sniffle*

    By the way, I also read Forgotten Hollow and I LOL’d when you appeared as a vampire that sucked all of my happiness and wanted to use my worst memories in your stories. Could not have been more accurate. XD

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    1. I’m glad you enjoyed this one! It was so emotional to write (in both good and bad ways haha)

      Glad you enjoyed my part of the collab 😉 I couldn’t resist poking a bit of fun at myself and the way I treat my characters hehehehe

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  14. Sorry WP gave you so many issues! I loved your comments though 🙂 I’m glad you’re so excited about all the changes for everyone, and I’m happy you are a Mari fan 🙂 I love her so much. Welcome to the YA years 😀

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    1. It makes me so excited to see you catching up! Every “like” notification makes me happy 😀 You’re closer than you think! 🙂

      And, yes, this chapter was a huge rollercoaster of emotions for me as well 😦 RIP Jonas!


  15. Okay, I was doing fine, absolutely fine, until Stefan called Jonas his papa.
    Now my roomate thinks my boyfriend broke up with me.
    Thanks, Citizen!
    (Just kidding. This was beautiful and I’m feeling too much feelings for a bunch of ones and zeros! Well done. )


    1. Thank you! (And sorry for your comment issue! So I’m just picking one of the comments and replying to it LOL.) Sorry for all the unexpected feels in this one. But I’m glad you enjoyed it (Hopefully you assured your roomie that you and your BF are okay LMAO)


  16. I’m so horribly sad. I got chills a few time reading. There’s so much to comment on.
    1. Cute baby
    2. I still want to marry Tony
    3. Alex is awesome
    4. I love that River is like Luc
    5. Charlie is getting married!!
    6.Noah and Auggy have a cute daughter
    So sad 😦 but also cute

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  17. OMG! The timing on reading this. Wow! Today at my uncle’s funeral there was a video running of pictures from his life. I sat with my aunt and she told me about the pictures. Most I had never seen before. Their wedding picture. My cousin’s first pictures. Pictures of my uncle with his parents when he was a kid. This letter reminded me so much of that video.

    Sad to see Jonas go, but he had a long and eventful life.

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    1. I’m so happy to see you here catching up! ❤️ But I’m sorry for the tears 😦 This was a rough one.


                1. I actually play with aging off 😮 I have to actually make them die when their time comes 😭 I keep track of how old all my characters are and they pass when I feel it’s time 😦


  18. I’ve been mentally preparing myself for Mari’s passing for a while now but hadn’t given much thought to anyone else’s, and I thought you’d mentioned at one point that she’d have no more entries? So this tugged at my heartstrings (what’s left of them) and I quickly realized what it was about. RIP Jonas!
    Lovely, but sad ❤

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    1. Yeah this one was kind of unexpected! We weren’t going to hear from her again, but I couldn’t resist doing this chapter. It’s so sad to say goodbye 😦

      Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts!

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  19. Jonas 😭😭😭 He was such an amazing husband/ father and friend. So patient and kind. Always steady and the rock in all situations. I will truly miss him. Oh Mari — hugs💜

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  20. It’s insane to think how young Tobi and Colette was and how much older they are getting and I cried with this one too right in the feels I loved Jonas so much!

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    1. Awww thank you, Noodles! I loved Jonas too! And it’s always so sad to see the characters get old 😭😭😭 I totally feel you there.

      Thank you so much for reading!


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