Interlude: Unanswered

The sound of soft music reached Clara’s ears before she even made it to the top of the basement stairs.

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She couldn’t help but smile at the sound. There was something so comforting about listening to piano music. There always had been. When she was a child, her parents’ home was always full of the sound of her mother’s beautiful playing. And now that she was grown, she had her husband’s music to take its place.

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For some people, “home” was the smell of their mother’s chocolate chip cookies, or the feeling of a loved one’s embrace. For Clara, it was the sound of a piano.

Florian stopped playing at the sound of his wife’s approach.

“Hey, babe.” He smiled gently. “What’s up?”

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“Just wanted to see what you’re up to.” She replied casually. “Still working on that same song?”

Florian nodded. “It’s coming along… slowly.” He placed his fingers back on the keys and played a few bars for her.

“Aw, I love that!” Clara smiled brightly as he finished. “That hook’s awesome!”

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“It’s Lucas’.” Her husband replied. “It was a new guitar riff he’d been messing around with… I thought it’d be nice to try and turn it into something.” He shrugged slightly, his smile fading away as he spoke.

Clara felt her own smile waver. “That’s really nice. I bet Lucas would love it.” She said seriously.

To her surprise, Florian’s expression darkened at her words. He rose to his feet, walking around the keyboard as he spoke. “I wish people would stop saying shit like that. We can’t know what he’d think or want, okay? Because he’s gone.”

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“I’m sorry.” Clara’s voice was soft. She knew better than to take her husband’s anger personally. He was hurting worse than he ever had, just like she was. “You know I didn’t mean it like that.”

Florian shook his head. “It’s okay. I’m sorry. I just…” He paused for a moment. “It’s the same damn line David and Mia keep using.” He said at last.

Clara nodded in understanding. “Ugh. I almost forgot. Those greedy pieces of shit…” She muttered, scowling.

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Florian’s former bandmates had been relentless ever since the fire. Though they’d been kicked out of the band years ago, they were eager to capitalize on Lucas’ death, begging Florian to agree to a re-release of their old material. “Trust me, fans eat this type of shit up.” David’s email had said. “It’s just business… I’m sure Lucas would understand.”

The memory was enough to have Clara seeing red. She quickly chased the thought away, calming herself as best she could.

“Anyway,” Florian continued, changing the subject, “I’m glad you like the song so far. It’s nice to be writing again.”

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His wife nodded, her smile returning. This is my chance… She took a deep breath, fighting to keep her tone as casual as she could manage. “So… have you, uh, thought about writing other things?”

He raised an eyebrow at her. “Like what?”

Clara shrugged. “Something slow… Like… a lullaby, or something?” She suggested.

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Florian laughed heartily. “Honey, the twins are a little old for lullabies, don’t you think?”

“I know.” She agreed. “But… I wasn’t thinking about the twins.” Clara eyed him intently for a few moments, waiting.

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It took only seconds for him to understand. “Oh my God. Oh my God! You’re… We’re…?!”

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Clara grinned. “We are!”

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Finally!” Florian smiled, his eyes flicking down toward her abdomen. “God, this is amazing! I can’t believe it…”

“I know!” Clara agreed. “It’s crazy, right?!”

It had been nearly a year since Clara and Florian had decided to try for another baby. And they’d been struggling ever since. Who would have imagined it would be so easy the first time, and so hard the second, when they actually wanted it?

“How far along do you think you are?” Florian’s question called her back to the present.

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“Maybe two months?” Clara guessed. “I’m gonna schedule an appointment soon so we can be sure… At first I thought it was just stress or something. But I had a feeling… So I decided to do a test.”

“So you’re sure then?”

His wife’s smile widened. “Definitely.” She assured him.

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He leaned forward and kissed her again in reply. Clara smiled against his lips. She loved seeing him so excited, so happy. It was a welcome change.

“Well… We should probably wait before we tell anyone though, right?” Florian asked as he pulled away from her. “Including the kids…”

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Clara nodded in agreement. After struggling to conceive, it seemed best to wait a bit longer before sharing the big news. She felt the smile slowly vanish from her lips as the thought crossed her mind. The idea of sharing the pregnancy with the rest of the family had sent a strange wave of sadness washing over her.

“It feels weird, doesn’t it?” Clara asked softly, breaking the silence. “I mean, after Mama and Papa, the first people I thought of telling were…”

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“Me too.” Florian sighed, his own smile disappearing. He fell silent for a few moments before speaking again. “God, it’s just not fair.

Before she realized what was happening, Clara felt the hot sting of tears prickling at the corner of her eyes.

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They hadn’t told many people, but Lucas and Hazel had begun trying for another child too, just a few months after Clara and Florian had made the same decision. It had turned into something of an inside joke between the two couples – a game, almost. Who would get pregnant first?

Clara never imagined she’d win like this.

One stupid mistake – one cigarette not fully snuffed out – had stolen two of their dearest friends away from them. There was no way of knowing whether the cigarette had belonged to Lucas or Hazel. But either way, it didn’t matter. No matter whose fault it was, they were gone.

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Their little boy was all alone now. He’d never have a little brother or sister. His parents would never have the second child they’d dreamt of. And they’d never meet this baby either. This baby would never know their Onkel Lucas and Tante Hazel. They’d be nothing more than stories and old photographs. The thought made Clara cry even harder.

“How are we gonna tell anyone about this, Florian?” Clara asked at last, choking back a sob. “How can we expect them to be happy for us when they’re going through this? When everything still hurts? When Lucas and Hazel are…” Even nearly four months later, it was too painful for Clara to say the words out loud.

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Florian reached forward, pulling her into his arms and pressing his lips against her hair.

He left the question unanswered.

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44 Responses to Interlude: Unanswered

  1. witchazard says:

    Citizen please don’t have them lose this baby I couldn’t handle it. Also talk about taking the joy out of having a baby. Darn you cigarettes!

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  2. Simslover163 says:

    So it was cigarettes after all that caused their death,eh? Well, they should’ve been more careful with them. Even better, NO SMOKING. 🚫

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  3. Spottydog714 says:

    ‘One cigarette not fully snuffed out’

    See?

    See?

    SEE?

    Cigarettes are a BAD IDEA!

    (I don’t know who in particular I’m accusing. Maybe Florian and Clara, since they smoke.)

    Anyway, to the update.

    Yay! Clara’s pregnant! That’s awesome 🙂 And oh, that’s unimaginably sad, the pregnancy game. Poor Clara. And four months. It’s been a while. I want to give everyone hugs.

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  4. CitizenErased14 says:

    Unless the game completely tries to screw me over, no more multiples lmao. And I do have a name picked out! (Clara isn’t actually pregnant in-game yet. But soon! Haha) We will see what it is 🙂

    And no, we will never know. But sorry for giving you something sad to wonder about :-/

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    • azzywoods says:

      Don’t worry, planned pregnancies for the Rosebrooks are never multiples. (Seriously, never. You’ve got Mari, Lina, Gabi, Clara, Auggy and Zayne as planned kids, with Stefan and Tobi, Joce and Luc, Charlie, Alex and Tony, and Remus and River as unplanned)

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      • CitizenErased14 says:

        I know! It’s freaking insane. It’s like the game just KNOWS. And it likes to force me to mess with my outline/plan to accommodate 😂

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  5. audreyfld says:

    At least we know what caused the fire. Nothing sinister. I know they are sad, but bringing a new life into the family will bring about healing. I hope Florian dumps his band and takes on a solo career. It was nice to see Clara and Florian genuinely happy if only for a few minutes. 😦

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah I think the baby is going to be a big positive for the family. Just for now it’s hard to be happy and celebrate while things still feel fresh (yes, it’s been about four months since the fire now, but it’s gonna take a while longer before things really start feeling normal again I think!)

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  6. Jes2G says:

    Home for me is the sound of distant trains! 🙂

    So, I know Clara isn’t pregnant in game yet, but yesterday (or sometime earlier this week), there was a picture, and I had a fleeting thought. I was like, “is she bustier than normal?” LOL This was a nice surprise, and I think the family will think so too. It will be a welcomed distraction from the gloom. I think she should tell, but I totally get why she doesn’t want to. I don’t think anyone would be so heartless and say something stupid like “how could you screw in a time like this?!” And if someone does? Tell them to meet me inside…

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahahaha Clara has gotten a bit fuller in the hips and bust with age, just like her mother 😂

      I think it will be great for the family 🙂 and I don’t think anyone would say something like that. Or at least, I hope they wouldn’t! 😛 But yeah, I think just in general the pain is fresh enough that it feels “wrong” to be celebrating and stuff. Though they’re still happy, as we saw in this chapter. But there’s definitely a bit of a cloud hanging over this celebration 😦

      And I love that you shared what “home” is to you! I haven’t quite pinpointed what mine is. But I was definitely thinking about it while I wrote it 🙂

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  7. Clarity says:

    Mia and David are such jerks. That cigarette though… suspicious. With the mention of the two of them, it made me think maybe they planted it. But that doesn’t really make sense, they’re not great people but I don’t think they’d resort to murder. So instead I’m gonna be disappointed with Lucas and Hazel for smoking. Though really, if you think about it, Mia and David are the ones who got Lucas into smoking so it was their fault in the first place. Don’t bring them back, Florian. They’re terrible influences.

    Congrats, Clara! And don’t worry about your family being happy for you. My sister was born a week or two after my grandfather died and it actually really helped everyone cope. It was kinda like for every life you lose, there’ll be another, you know? The family is going through a terrible time right now and they need a little happiness.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha I promise that David and Mia did not plant the cigarette. It was truly carelessness on Luc and Hazel’s part… and unfortunately that cost them their lives :-/

      I think it’s so true about how when lives end, there are always new ones to celebrate too. I think/hope this will be good for the family in the long run! I think celebrating/feeling happy just feels a little weird at first. Such a challenge for them. But yes, happiness in the form of a new baby will be great! ^_^

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  8. fabtiffsim says:

    Ya gotta watch Jurassic Park otherwise how would you know that “life always finds a way”??!!

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  9. SpurklyNinja says:

    Damn shame that it was a cigarette that killed Luzel… 😦

    Frickin Dave and Mia! 😡 Trying to make money off of Luc’s death? Are you fucking serious?

    A happier note: YAY NOOBOO! I don’t think the family will be mad or hurt that you two are having a baby. While everyone is going through a hard time, it seems like a baby would bring everyone a little bit of happiness back into their lives.

    It’d be hilarious if they had twins again or, heaven forbid, triplets. 😀

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh god no more multiples, pleas lord Jesus save me. 😂

      And ugh yes. David and Mia are scum. I hate them so much. 😦

      And yes, hopefully the baby will bring some much needed light to everyone’s lives 🙂

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  10. Nakashima says:

    I swear if you make them lose this baby were going to have words. It could be the one piece of happiness for the entire family right now.. Youre making me worry by having them wait to tell!

    Sooo, quads this time? :’)

    Their old bandmates are just scum. Never liked them, never will. Seriously, trying to capitalise on such grief.. THEY can go die in a fire.

    Crap. Just noticed I’m caught up now. Now I’ll need to go find a life. 😛

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Woooh! You caught up! You might have some kind of new record hahahahaha. I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed the story so far, and I hope you enjoy what’s to come too!

      I do have a heart, I promise. Losing the baby would just be TOO cruel right now! And OMG no more multiples PLEASE. Good Lord!

      And ugh. Yes. David and Mia are totally the ones who deserved to die in a fire -_-

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  11. thegeekgamez says:

    It took me over a month, but i FINALLY read all of Dust to dust and Ashes to ashes! started on the first of october! i have to say, this is the most tear yearking simlit story i’ve ever read. I am excited to see what the rosebrooks are up to next!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you so much for reading both of my stories! That’s so kind of you to take the time to read 🙂 I appreciate it so much!

      And yes, this story is very much a soap opera/tragedy haha and I appreciate that you have put up with all of it as you’ve been reading these past couple months!

      Thank you again for reading ^_^

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  12. SilentWolf101 says:

    *huggles and Wolfy cuddles*

    Awwwwww, poor clorian… 😦

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  13. sonniejj says:

    This was such a bittersweet chapter! I’m so happy for Florian and Clara, they’re great parents. But Luc and Hazel 😦

    Even though towards the end I didn’t particularly love either of them, it’s tragic. No family deserves what they went through.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, lots of mixed emotions here 😦 I think celebrating happiness in the wake of loss must be so difficult (I have never actually had to do that myself, but I can imagine!)

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  14. raerei says:

    Life continues on….even in the misery of death, joy sneaks back in all stealthy like. Congrats Clarion. 😃 cant wait ti meet kid(s) the next.

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  15. lisabeesims says:

    Lol … like a lullaby… smooth

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  16. im still reading this but it is kinda touching nerves for me as this is how i lost my mother but im still enjoying your stories 🙂

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s awful. 😦 If you need to take a break from reading, I completely understand! If it helps at all, you are almost caught up and once this arc ends (which it will next week), the focus isn’t going to be the sadness and grief anymore.

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  17. theceltygirly says:

    I got so excited for a second… but then I realized the banner only has six people. SOOO
    1. You just didn’t include new baby since they’re younger than the six all the same age orrr
    2. YOU BRUTRALLY MAKE THEM LOSE IT which I would probably cry

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  18. optimistsdigest says:

    Love the sims! Definitely following now! Keep up the good work 🙂

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  19. skcaga6 says:

    At least she didn’t wait three months to tell him this time.

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