Interlude: Confession

Gus glanced down at the tiny clock on the corner of his monitor and watched as the time changed from 3:11 to 3:12. Please, stay out just a little longer. He thought desperately. Stay with your friends. Just leave me alone.

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For the past few years, whenever his sister came home from school, she ended up spending much of her time with her best friends, Joel and Mei. When he was a bit younger, Gus would almost feel jealous at all the attention Jocelyne gave her friends over him. Doesn’t she know I miss her just as much as they do? He used to wonder.

But everything was different now… and not just because Jocelyne’s friends were expecting a baby boy in a few months. With everything he’d been going through, the last thing Gus wanted was attention. He’d tried to be better lately – act more normal. Anything to get his family to stop prying.

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But nothing seemed to stop them. They were still being way too nice to him. Asking him how we was doing. Giving him endless “I’m here if you ever need to talk” speeches. It was driving him crazy. If he’d wanted to talk to them, didn’t they know he would have done it by now?

And ever since Jocelyne arrived home the day before, the way she’d looked at him made him nervous, and uneasy. She’s not gonna drop it. She’s gonna bug me about it too. He knew she would.

And sure enough, the sound of a soft knock reached his ears. Jocelyne was back, right on time.

“Gus?” His sister’s soft voice was muffled slightly by the door. “Can we talk for a minute?”

A feeling of dread washed over him at the sound.

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Clara walked the length of the living room again and again as the minutes ticked by. Where the hell is she? Lena was nearly twenty minutes late already. Quit banging your girlfriend and come see me!

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When Clara had first told Lena that she’d be attending uni nearly three hours away from Windenburg, her friend was quick to express her displeasure. “You’re abandoning me? Wow, thanks bitch. I love you too.” Even years later, Clara still got a hearty laugh every time she thought of it.

But everything changed about two years ago, when Lena met Ashlyn one weekend on a visit to Falkenburg. All of a sudden, Lena didn’t mind the distance so much anymore. It was rather convenient having her girlfriend and best friend in the same place.

And usually, it was convenient for Clara too. She got along really well with Ashlyn, and the three of them often went out together during Lena’s visits. Sometimes they even let Jocelyne tag along with him.

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But days like today, when Clara needed her best friend – just her – it didn’t feel so convenient anymore.

At last, Clara heard the sound of the opening front door.

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“Honey, I’m home!” A loud, joking voice called from around the corner.

Clara felt a wave of comfort wash over her at the sound.

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Gus shifted uncomfortably in his seat and watched as Jocelyne feigned interest in his fish tank.

“How’s the Fellowship doing?” She asked.

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It was all he could do not to roll his eyes. Jocelyne may have been a skilled actress, but Gus could always tell when his sister was lying or hiding something.

“Still going strong.” His own smile was just as forced as hers. “Gimli had some kind of weird scale thing last week, but Opa Diego bought these special drop things for the water. I guess it helped.”

“That’s great! You’re lucky his office is so close to that exotic pet store.”

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“Yeah… Real lucky.” Gus hated this forced small talk, and something told him his sister was getting sick of it too. He watched as her smile very slowly faded from her face.

“Gus… What’s going on?” She asked at last.

He could feel all the blood drain from his face. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” He replied much too quickly as he rose to his feet and turned away from her.

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“Yes, you do.” Jocelyne insisted. “You haven’t been yourself since the summer. And I can tell this is way more than being bummed about Emma. We all know it, Gus. This has been going on for way too long. We’re all so worried, and we want to help you. But you need to tell us what’s going on. Please.”

“Just leave me alone, okay?” Gus snapped angrily at her. To his surprise, he felt his eyes begin to well up with tears as he spoke. “I’ve told maman, Papa, Oma, Opa… I’ve said it a thousand times.” His voice grew louder and louder with every word. “Are you all deaf or something?! I’m fine!”

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Jocelyne remained calm, despite his sudden outburst. “Gus, do you even hear yourself?” She asked gently. “You’re not fine.”

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Clara had to blink back the hot sting of tears from her eyes as she finally broke away from her friend’s embrace. “God, I missed you so much.” She said seriously.

“Me too.” Lena agreed. “I’ve been working like a freaking dog ever since summer… I would have visited sooner, if I could.”

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“I know. It’s fine. I’m just so happy you’re here – you have no idea.” She paused for a moment, looking her friend up and down. “Did you seriously dye your hair? Again?” She laughed.

“Oh, and who are you to talk?” Her friend teased. “I’m pretty sure you’ve been through every color of the rainbow… Twice.”

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“No, still no green. Or blonde!” Clara corrected her with a small wink as they headed toward the couch. Just having Lena there with her was already making her happier than she’d felt in weeks.

Unfortunately, her happiness was short-lived.

“Clara, what the hell are you wearing?” Lena looked down at Clara’s outfit as though noticing it for the first time.

She shrugged. “Clothes?” Lena raised an eyebrow at her words. “I don’t see why it’s a big deal. It’s comfortable.” Clara forced a smile and hoped she sounded casual.

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“Yeah, and it makes you look like a fucking whale. Or… have you actually…? No offense or anything.” She added quickly. “But… wow. I thought Americans called it the freshman fifteen, Clara. Aren’t you a few years late?”

Under any other circumstances, Clara would have taken the teasing in stride.

Instead, she burst into tears.

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“Jesus, Clara! What the fuck?!”

I’m such a goddamn pussy. Fuck these hormones! Somehow, the thought simply made her cry harder. It was a good two minutes before she’d calmed down enough to choke out “It’s nothing. I’m fine.”

“Bull. Fucking. Shit.”

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When Gus remained silent, Jocelyne drew closer to him, smiling softly. “Gus, someone very special to me told me something really interesting.” She continued. “He said that we keep secrets when we’re afraid. Sometimes, we even keep them from the people closest to us. And I can tell you’re hiding something, Gus. I can tell you’re scared.” The girl paused for a moment, her smile fading slightly. “You’re not telling us what’s really going on, are you?”

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Gus still said nothing as his heart began to pound harder and harder in his chest.

“So, if you’re afraid, I need you to know that you don’t have to be. I love you. And whatever’s going on, I’ll help you through it.”

The young boy just shook his head. “No one can help me.” His voice was barely above a whisper. “No one.

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“Why not? What’s wrong? You can tell me. It’s okay.”

Gus bit his lip. It’s now or never. Just do it. Don’t keep it in anymore. A tiny voice seemed to whisper in the back of his mind. He took a slow, deep breath and spoke the words aloud for the very first time.

“Jocelyne… I’m gay.”

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“You are so fucking far from fine, Clara.” Lena continued, the irritation apparent on her face. “I’m supposed to be your best friend. So don’t you sit there and lie to me!”

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Clara sniffled softly as she wiped the last of her tears from her eyes. Jocelyne had already weaseled the truth out of her a few days ago. So much for keeping this under wraps until I tell Florian… There’s no point in trying to hide it any longer, is there?

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She took a slow, deep breath. “I’m pregnant, okay?” Her voice was so quiet, Clara almost struggled to hear it herself.

“What?!”

“I’m pregnant.” She repeated.

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For a moment, Jocelyne’s eyes widened in surprise. Clearly that hadn’t been the answer she’d been expecting.

Gus felt like he couldn’t breathe as he waited for her to say something, anything.

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“Come here.” She said at last, closing the distance between them and wrapping her long, slender arms around her brother.

Gus felt a sudden rush of so many emotions crashing down on him. Fear and shame… But happiness too. Relief. He buried his face into his sister’s shoulder and wept.

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She held him for a long time, whispering gently in his ear over and over again. “I love you. It’s okay.”

When the tears finally stopped, Gus and Jocelyne ended up sitting on his bed together. His sister said nothing, and almost appeared to be waiting for him to speak. So he did.

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“I’ve never said it out loud before.” Gus almost laughed. “That actually felt pretty good.”

“I’m so happy.” His sister replied seriously. She reached out and gave his shoulders a small squeeze. “I’m glad you told me, Gus. Don’t ever be afraid to just be you, okay?”

He nodded. “It’s a little easier said than done.” Gus admitted, though he relished in the feeling of the weight that had been lifted from his shoulders. “But… Thanks. For not like, freaking out, or judging me, or…” He shrugged slightly, his cheeks growing warm.

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The more the thought about it, the more ashamed he felt at imagining that his sister would react with anything but love and acceptance. She’s not like that.

“I would never.” Jocelyne smiled. “And neither would Luc, or Clara, or maman and Papa, or Oma and Opa… Don’t be afraid, Gus. We all love you. No matter what.”

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“I know. It’s just really scary. I’m still kinda figuring it all out and stuff.” Gus felt his embarrassment returning. “It’s not exactly easy to talk about… And I guess it’s not really them I’m most worried about.” He confessed.

Jocelyne could tell in an instant exactly who he was talking about. “Of course. That’s why you broke up with Emma.” She said slowly. “But she doesn’t know, does she?”

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“What the fuck?! No way! No fucking way!” Lena was practically beside herself. “You’re joking. You’re not serious.”

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“I am.” Clara replied seriously. “How do you feel about being Tante Lena?”

Her friend’s eyes simply widened. “Well, shit. I don’t know!” She confessed. “Am I supposed to be panicking? Or excited?” For a moment, she appeared to be searching Clara’s face for some sort of clue.

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“Maybe a little bit of both?” She said at last. “Oh, and by the way…” Clara hesitated for a moment. “It’s twins.”

“Oh, come on! Now I know you can’t be serious!”

“I swear to God, Lena. Two babies.” Clara shook her head slowly. “They’re even due around my birthday… More April babies.” She smiled slightly. Clara, Mari, Jocelyne, and Lucas were all born in April. And now I guess my kids will be too… Her smile widened at the thought.

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Lena just laughed, then leaned forward to give her friend a quick hug. “This is just… crazy. Like, fucking nuts. Oh my God, Florian must have died when you told him!” She was practically shouting now, finally letting her excitement show. “How’s he feeling about being a Papa?”

The smile vanished instantly from Clara’s face. And moments later, Lena’s did the same.

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“Oh God, he didn’t take it well, did he?” Her friend asked softly. “I was afraid of that…”

Clara shook her head. “N-no, it’s not that…” Her voice trembled slightly as she spoke.

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It took only seconds for Lena to read her like an open book. “He doesn’t know?! Jesus fucking Christ, Clara!”

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Gus did not even bother replying to his sister’s question. He knew it was rhetorical – of course Emma didn’t know.

“Oh, Gus.” Jocelyne sighed softly. “I know it’s not easy… But you really need to tell her. She has to know.”

He nodded slowly. “I know she does. And I wanna tell her. I really do. I just… can’t.

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“Emma loves you.” Jocelyne replied gently. “And I know you love her too. She’s your best friend. She’ll understand. She has to.”

“I know, I know, it’s just…” A small sigh escaped Gus’ lips. “I guess I’m kind of afraid she’ll think it’s like… her fault, or something. Like, she made me this way?” He shrugged helplessly. It sounded so ridiculous, but he really meant it. “I just can’t stand having her hate me any more than she already does…” Gus almost felt his tears returning.

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“You’re so brave, Gus. I’m so glad you opened up to me.” She said seriously. “But if you’re not ready to talk to Emma yet, I get it. Just… Think about what I said, okay?”

Gus nodded. “I will.” He promised. And then, for just a moment, he actually smiled. “I guess if she does end up hating me, I’m not much worse off than I am now, huh?” She already wasn’t talking to him. How much worse could it get? It was a thought that made him want to laugh and cry at once. But this time, the laughter won.

Jocelyne let out a small laugh as well. “I guess that’s one way to look at it?” She replied with a smile. “You’ll figure it out, Gus. I know you will. Just… take your time.”

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The boy’s smile slowly melted away. “I’ve taken enough time already.” He said softly, shaking his head. Before he even knew what was happening, the decision had been made. “This isn’t fair to her. I know it isn’t.” Gus closed his eyes for a moment and took a slow, deep breath. “I need to do it. I need to tell her.”

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Clara felt a burst of anger rise up inside of her at Lena’s words. “You’re right, he doesn’t know.” She snapped. “Not that it’s any of your business… Because it’s not, Lena. So just stay out of it, okay?”

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“I’m not gonna sit here and let this go. Why the hell haven’t you told him?!”

“I’m going to. I swear to God, I am.” Clara sighed, her expression softening. “Just… not yet.”

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“That still doesn’t answer my question. Lena crossed her arms across her chest as she spoke.

She’s really gonna make me do this again, huh? Clara had already explained herself to her niece, who she’d failed to convince, no matter how hard she tried. Something told her Lena’s reaction would be even worse.

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“Look, I just… I wanna tell him in person.” She said at last. “You know how Florian feels about kids. He’s never been too crazy about the idea. Not this soon.” Clara sighed. “And you know how important the band is to him. How’s he supposed to practice or record or tour with two screaming, slobbering babies to worry about? These kids are gonna fuck everything up for him.” Clara paused for a moment, her tears threatening to return.

“He had all these dreams, y’know? We both did. Traveling with the band, seeing the world… I’m basically destroying the poor guy’s life by keeping them…” She paused for a moment, shaking her head.

I’m letting him down… For the first time in my life, I’m letting him down. All Clara had ever wanted was to make Florian happy, to give him everything he wanted… Just like she knew she should. But this time, she’d put herself first. She’d thought only of what she wanted… Which was to have these babies. He’ll never forgive me.

“He loves me. I KNOW he loves me. But that won’t stop him from resenting me and these kids for the rest of his life. There’s no happy ending to this one, Lena. So yeah. Not exactly a conversation I want to have over the phone.”

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For a moment, Lena almost looked disgusted. “What is wrong with you?! Yeah, he might flip. That’s a big possibility. But guess what? He’s gonna flip even worse when he finds out how long you waited to tell him!” She cried. “You said it yourself — He loves you, Clara. And if you really love him, you’ll tell him – now. Not later. And yeah, doing it over the phone will probably suck. But it’ll suck a hell of a lot less than waiting!”

Did she seriously not hear a word I said?! “You don’t get it, do you? I –”

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“No, you don’t get it, Clara. This is a mistake. You have to see that! You need to trust him and you need to tell him the truth. Please.” Lena’s voice was pleading. “You’re better than this, Clara. I know you are. Even if your brain’s all fucked up with hormones or some shit, I know you can see that… Can’t you?”

Clara said nothing for a long time. She wanted to shout or scream or cry… But it was no use arguing. What good would it do?

After all, Lena was absolutely right. And so was Jocelyne, much as she hated admitting it. When she told him didn’t really matter, did it? She’d already let him down, maybe even ruined his life… Why make it worse by waiting?

“Goddamn it.” Clara sighed softly. “I’ll do it, okay? I’ll tell him.”

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57 Responses to Interlude: Confession

  1. julyvee94 says:

    Awww yisss finally! Now this are gonna be tough conversations but finally we are moving forward!

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  2. theplumbob says:

    Woo! Go Lena! I’m waving my (edgy and alternative) pom poms over here! Seriously though. She’s so good for Clara. We all need a firned like her, I think.

    And yay for the breakthrough with Auggy as well. So nice to see he’s finally realising the obvious, that things can’t get any worse with Emma. It will be nice to see him shine once he fully comes to terms with his sexuality, I think he’s going to become so awesome once he lets go of his fear 🙂

    Oh, and let’s not forget Joce had a part to play in both of these developments. Sure, she may not have succeeded with Clara at first, but I’d liked to thing she cracked her up a little bit.

    Oh, last but not least, vanity time – that hair styke and colour looks great on Lena! It really suits her!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yes, Lena gets there I end of the year award Hahahaha If anyone could have gotten through to Clara, it was her! (Though, as you pointed out, Joce probably started the process in Clara’s mind. Lena just finished what she started haha)

      And yay for Auggy too! I can’t wait for him to not be so sad anymore. Hopefully all will go well when he finally opens up to others!

      I think both Auggy and Clara will need a little while (but just a few days/maybe a week, not months haha) before they actually tell Emma/Florian… Time to mentally prepare hahaha but at least they’ve both decided that those conversations NEED to happen (and soon!).

      And I’m glad you like Lena’s hair! Joie actually gets credit for picking that for her haha

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  3. I’m so glad both those things are out in the open now 🙂 Gus, I’m so proud of you! The first time saying it out loud was the hardest (though it’s never easy). Clara… you’re getting there =p Much baby steps.

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  4. Mumei No says:

    Finally! The things are done! gus will tell about himself to his friend and family, and they WILL be okay with it ( I hope!) And Clara did good to tell Lena about the pregnacy…she can’t keep it to herself! And hey, if he truly loves you, you guys could just erase the kids, and when they are going to uni or starting their family, start travelling the world!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yes, progress has been made! Hopefully Gus’ friends and family will react well! And I like your advice to Clara and Florian haha I’m sure they can find a way to still live their dreams. Or at least, I hope they can!

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  5. The start of the school year is ruining everything! Just kidding, haha.

    This is a great chapter. Look at Jocelyne getting Gus back on track. And Lena is killing the best friend game right now. She got through to Clara when Joce couldn’t. And she’s totally right, Florian is gonna be pissed. Clara’s been acting weird for a while and he’s going to be upset she didn’t tell him a while ago. But also he’s gonna be relieved that there was a simple explanation for what happened. Let’s just hope his bandmates aren’t assholes who will insinuate that the babies aren’t his. Luckily Sim genes are very strong, lol.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks! This was definitely a chapter with a lot of progress haha. And Lena is just the best, isn’t she?

      Now that Clara is finally planning on making the call, we will hopefully see sooner rather than later how Florian reacts to the news!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      And yes, boo real life responsibility 😦 Hahaha

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  6. sonniejj says:

    Woosh, this chapter was intense!
    I’m so glad Gus talked to Joce. I think that might have been exactly what he needed. I hope now that he got some of that weight lifted off his shoulders, he might go back to being himself. Also, I didn’t notice how much he looked like Tobi until that screenshot of them next to each other!
    As for Clara, that girl definitely needed a good talking-to and I’m glad Lena convinced her to be honest. I understand her hesitation about having that conversation over the Phone, but that argument works when you’re apart for a week or two. Not months. Especially not in a pregnancy-situation.

    And don’t worry about changing your uploading schedule! Of course we’ll miss your updates, but it’s definitely a lot better than overwhelming yourself and not being able to post at all for a while anymore. Us loyal readers will stick with the Rosebrooks! It’s all good ❤

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks Sonnie! I’m glad the schedule change seems to be ok with everyone haha I just feel bad.

      I’m so happy you enjoyed this chapter! Gus really needed to tell someone, and I’m so glad he did! I think Joce mentioning his fear was kind of the things that convinced him. He felt like she understood what he was going through a bit (thanks, Mark!) And yes, he looks a lot like Tobi! 🙂

      And Lena worked her best friend magic for sure haha. It will not be easy, but Clara knows what she has to do now. We’ll see how it goes! 😉

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  7. witchazard says:

    It’s okay you don’t want your story to feel like s burden. And if you need a break just take one true fans will respect your decision. Now on a lighter not. You litterally did something that needed to happen for a long time. In glad Gus is finally opening up now the stage of acceptance can begin. Also good thing Lena got into Clara’s head making telling him is the only right decision no matter what the outcome. Cause I’m sure Florian will think being pregnant is way better than having a affair. Still sorry Clarian until I know Florian’s reaction to the news Luzel is still in first for fave couple. Also Jocelyn got some points for being the one to get Gus to open up. Though she still has a long way to go before she and her potential boo get to fave couple. I mean Stefan is above her and I don’t even know who he’s married to yet!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks for your understanding and also for enjoying this chapter! 🙂 I’m so happy for Gus, and proud of Clara for finally seeing the light haha

      Now that the conversation is going to happen, we don’t have to wait TOO long before we see how he reacts. So there may be hope for Clarian to keep the crown! Hahaha and as for Joce? Well, there are some developments coming for her plot line soon 😛

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  8. kaffepigen says:

    Finally Gus confessed! It was about time, but i do understand it can be difficult to tell people you’re gay. I have a friend that’s gay and he hasn’t told most people, only a few family members and one or two friends. Because he’s afraid of how people will react, and also apparently he has a very homo-phobic grandfather so he doesn’t want him to know.

    I never thought Jocelyne or the rest of the family would take it any other way, and I’m glad I was right. Gus needs to know that he has his family’s back on this. And he needs to tell Emma already! Glad to know he’s gonna do that now. I just hope he follows through.

    Clara has to tell Florian about the babies! I fear his reaction as well. I know he loves her, but that won’t stop him from leaving her because he wants to follow his dreams and the plans he has. Though I doubt he will leave her. I think he might be angry at first for her not telling him and holding it from him for so long. But in the end he will stay by her side and raise the children together with her. I seriously hope he will do that.
    A close friend of mine said once that you will never be completely ready for having children until the day you have them. And I think it is very true, especially here. None of them are ready but when they finally hold them in their arms, then they will be ready and know they’ll do anything to keep them safe.

    Sorry to hear you won’t be updating as much any more, but I understand that your work comes first 🙂 Don’t stress yourself 🙂 And yeah, rather a few times a week than a hiatus 😀 So which days will you be updating from now on?

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh no, I’m sorry about your friend’s situation 😦 that’s so tough! Gus needs to take the next step and tell others… Hopefully he will soon!

      And hopefully Florian will not have a bad reaction! We’ll see… And those are some wise words about parenthood and being ready for it!

      As for my new update schedule, the days will be different every week, since I will be alternating days 🙂

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  9. maladi777 says:

    Yes, yes and yes! Lena was speaking my mind! Honestly, some of Clara’s reasonings were absurd! Like the one about Florian resenting his kids. I can’t see that happen. From what we’ve seen from Florian he’s a gentle and caring soul.
    Happy to see Gus casting off his burden at last.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Lena definitely wins the friend of the year trophy hahaha. I don’t know though, Lena even admitted that she thought Florian might not take the news well/didn’t seem surprised when she misunderstood and thought he had. We still don’t know how he’s gonna feel about this. But since she’s finally decided to tell him, we’ll know soon! Haha

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      • maladi777 says:

        I know Lena said that about him. On the other hand he was so worried about Clara when she was dating the plum Julian. Gave me the impression he cares a lot about others, resenting his own children doesn’t fit the image. But I can’t see the whole picture, of course. Being disappointed to have to give up his dream is understandable.

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  10. Jes2G says:

    Good news all the way around…and progress! I agree with two things that have already been said here: a.) Lena is an awesome friend, and we all need someone who’s not afraid to slap you across the face when you need it lol, and b.) I have a feeling those d-bags Florian calls bandmates will find this situation good fodder for more tasteless nagging. I think there’s gonna be a brawl soon LOL.

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  11. azzywoods says:

    Jocelyne the Secret-Buster. Too bad she couldn’t get through to Clara. It was nice to see Lena again, I missed her. She is so awesome- I think she’s the only one who could’ve made Clara see sense. I hope Florian reacts well, though I think he will. I hope the band a-holes don’t have anything to say about it…*sigh* I hate them.

    So glad Auggy told someone! I really hope Emma takes it well if he actually tells him. Joce had the sweetest reaction and said the best thing she could. Congrats to Joel and Mei on their soon-to-be-arriving son.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      “Secret buster”… I like it! Hahahaha and yes, I adore Lena. She is so cool! Most awesome friend ever!

      We’ll see how florian takes the news… And what happens with the asshole band mates too! 😉

      Glad you liked the Auggy and Joce scene too 🙂 She loves her little brother very much ^_^ And Joel and Mei thank you for the congratulations 😉

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  12. CitizenErased14 says:

    Thanks for your encouraging words about my schedule change ^_^ And funnily enough, that IS Shannyn’s hair 😉 You can thank Joie for that hehe

    And yes, there was an off-camera chat between Joce and Clara. I bet most people can imagine how it probably went hahaha

    And yes to the Rosebrooks loving each other unconditionally! I’m so proud of Auggy for feeling comfortable enough to come out to Joce 🙂

    And I’m glad you noticed and enjoyed the parallel! I enjoyed writing this very much ^_^

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  13. CitizenErased14 says:

    Hehehehehe if anyone was gonna catch that, it was you 😉

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  14. SpurklyNinja says:

    Yes! Finally, people! TALKING!

    All I could think during Clara and Lena’s talk was, “PREACH IT!” This especially: “What is wrong with you?! Yeah, he might flip. That’s a big possibility. But guess what? He’s gonna flip even worse when he finds out how long you waited to tell him!”

    “Gus, someone very special to me told me something really interesting.” She continued. “He said that we keep secrets when we’re afraid. Sometimes, we even keep them from the people closest to us.” 😉 😉

    And don’t worry about cutting down! Focus on your life. ❤

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  15. CitizenErased14 says:

    I’m so glad you enjoyed the scene between Gus and Joce! ^_^ I have never actually had someone come out to me before, so I had nothing to base that scene off of and was a bit nervous! So glad it worked! And yes, we will always love Gus!

    And yes, Clara, Clara, Clara! Haha thank god for Lena! Definitely her “shoulder angel”!

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  16. lisabeesims says:

    Well the cat is out of the bag on both fronts … Now I’m little bit of the pressure can be released in their lives. Speaking of pressure … none from us … while we enjoy your updates we also know that real life happens.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks for the understanding about the schedule change! 🙂 And yes, a huge weight has been lifted for both of them! Hopefully the open and honest communication can continue!

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  17. NessyRosy says:

    It’s nice to see both Joce and Clara’s friends are doing well 😀 Mei and Joel are expecting? Yay! And I’m so happy for Lena, she looks really lovely too 🙂

    Jocelyne handled Gus and his outbursts so well. I think she was definitely expecting it. I’m so glad that she was able to be there for him though and even used Mark’s helpful advice ❤

    I'm really glad that Gus has finally told someone and explained how he's feeling. Joce is so loving and supportive *sigh of happiness*. Poor Gus 😦 He feels so much love for Emma and is terrified of her reaction. I believe she'll be supportive, maybe shocked at first, but she'll be there for him 🙂

    It's sad to think he believes she may think she made him gay, that's not how it works sweetie, I'm so relieved that Joce was able to be there for him and that he's decided to let Emma know. I'm so proud of him *happy tears and a massive hug* 😀

    Haha! I love the friendship Clara and Lena have. It's awesome! I love the teasing 😉 It may have been a bit harsh how Lena brought up Clara's weight, but it certainly got her talking! XD I love how they are straight with each other and don't mince words 🙂

    I think that having Joce know must have also made it a bit easier for her to bring up her pregnancy (Sneaky Citizen 😛 I had an idea she may have known since the family dinner XD ). I feel sorry for her that she couldn't tell Florian first (I understand why in her eyes), but no matter what, it's great news ❤

    I love how Lena asked if she was supposed to feel panic or excitement XD She knows her friend all to well 😛 I loved seeing how happy Clara was talking about having Twins being born in April, she already loves those little NooBoo's so much ❤ But it's sad that she thinks she's messing up all of Florian's life plans and feels like she's letting him down. Girl, if you just told him I KNOW (possibly eventually if his band mates haven't messed with his mind too much) that he'll be there for her 100% He loves her so much and will adore the little one's even more ❤

    May I say THANK YOU LENA!!! Finally telling Clara to let Florian know! and obviously Joce too 😉 Haha XD I'm so happy that Lena told her she needs to let him know now! YAY! I'm glad she's finally going to tell him. I'm excited for the future chapters 😀

    This was a great chapter. I loved how you dealt with both issues in the same chapter and split them up, it had me wanting to scroll down to read one side first, than the other. However, I was patient and read it with expectation LOL!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Nessy, I seriously need to tell you that every time I get a comment notification from you, I get excited because I know it’s going to be so insightful and well-thought out. You are a wonderful reader. I just wanted to tell you that! ^_^

      This comment is no exception. I love that you enjoyed this chapter so much! It was really fun to write (especially the parallel/switching back and forth!). I think Jocelyne was the perfect one to talk to Gus. Like you said, she really knew how to handle him well! Hopefully this is an important first step toward opening up to the rest of his family (and Emma too!)

      And as for Lena… Friend of the year, right? Seriously though. I love her. She’s so good for Clara. And I don’t think anyone but Lena could have gotten through to her! Clara is taking babysteps here haha and hopefully all will go well when she eventually tells Florian the truth. But we’ll see! 😉

      Thanks again!

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      • NessyRosy says:

        Aww, thank you ❤ *hugs* 😀 I can't help it, you're just so good at writing and making me feel connected to everything you write. You're amazing 🙂 ❤

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  18. raerei says:

    I love the dual nature of these two confessions and how they played back and forth between them. 😀 Very very very well done! And woot for the telling of the secrets! Hopefully sooner rather than later though. haha They’ve both put it off long enough.

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  19. Virtualee says:

    ::sings:: Confessionssssssss are so heeeaaalliiingggg

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  20. Intense chapter! I think I held my breath throughout the whole thing… Just… Give me… A second.

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  21. theceltygirly says:

    Okay I loved this chapter!!! I loved the paralleled conversations!! You’re so good at formatting emotional chapters.

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  22. misfit913 says:

    I’m so glad both of those secrets are finally out and not eating away at them any longer!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh yes, this chapter was so wonderful to write… It was a real relief for both of them, I think! (Thank you again for reading, by the way! You are going quickly! 😀 That’s so awesome)

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      • misfit913 says:

        I bet! Yes, I’m sure it was a relief! Secrets aren’t fun to keep. No problem, I’m enjoying it 🙂 I’m trying to get caught up so I can actually read the new ones when they come up on my feed!

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  23. addbratlove225 says:

    This is a very emotional chapter and I thought the parallels where it was like alternating between perspectives (for an author, I am not very good with words right now) were very well done! Lena’s definitely a great friend and i think that’s what Clara needs right now.

    Completely random, but I caught the Lord of the Rings reference with Gus’s fish!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you so much! I loved writing this one. Lena is an amazing friend and definitely what Clara needs! And I’m glad you liked the Fish Fellowship 😉 Hehehe

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  24. kaycee39 says:

    I’m so glad that they both finally opened up. Gus really needs to let Emma know what’s going on and confide in her and Clara has definitely got to talk to Florian about this because it’s both of them involved here. Wonderful chapter 🙂

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you! It felt so good to give both of them this moment of honesty… the next step is having these confessions be to the right person!

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