Remember what I said before? About giving myself gray hairs? Well, I’m starting to think that may be a legitimate concern.
Lettie’s been telling me he’ll be fine, but I still can’t stop worrying about Gus.
I mean, ever since he was little, he’s been such a happy kid, y’know? Even when he hit puberty and we braced ourselves for the classic “teenage attitude”, it never came (And hell, we even got a taste of that with Jocelyne… so that’s saying something). He was bright and happy as ever, making us laugh all the time…
But ever since this whole thing with Emma… it’s like he’s a different person or something.
He hides in his room almost as much as Clara used to… maybe even more.
And he’s just so upset all the time. He barely smiles anymore. He even lashes out at us sometimes, usually over the stupidest little things. Just last night he practically bit Papa’s head off at dinner, all because he asked him if he was finished with his plate.
I know breakups can’t be easy. I mean, I’ve been lucky enough to never have to go through one myself. But I’ve seen plenty of them over the years… And it’s definitely not pretty. But this just feels different.
Maybe because of how close he and Emma used to be. They’ve been like two peas in a pod ever since he was seven, maybe eight years old. It wasn’t a huge surprise to us when they started dating… We’d all been expecting it for years.
But we never expected this.
To be honest, I’m not even sure exactly what happened. Gus won’t talk to us about it. I’m assuming she was the one who ended it but I have no idea why. All I know is that this has really messed him up, and she won’t even talk to him anymore.
So I get it. He didn’t just lose a girlfriend… He might have lost his best friend too.
I just wish he’d talk to us… But I’ve tried, Lettie’s tried, Mama and Papa have tried… Nothing. He just gets mad. It almost reminds me of Clara, back when… Well, I’d rather not write about it. I haven’t thought about that in a long time.
The point is, I’m worried… And I really wish he had someone he could talk to. Lucas has had his fair share of heartbreak over the years… I feel like he’d be the perfect one to talk to Gus right now. But back when the breakup happened, Lucas was too busy getting ready to head out on the road. And now he’s gone.
Gus has always been pretty close with his Schwester too… Maybe I’ll see if Jocelyne can talk to him the next time she’s home… Though I’m really hoping things will be better on their own by then.
I guess all I can do right now is just wait and see.