4.20: Get Through This

Oh my God. Today has just been…

I’m not even sure I can come up with a word to describe it.

It was even worse than yesterday. Way worse.

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I guess I should start with the one good thing that happened – Clara’s not pregnant.

Waiting for that little stick to change color was probably the scariest two minutes of my life. I can’t even imagine how Clara must have felt.

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She didn’t say much. She just cried the whole time. And when we saw the result, she cried even harder.

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But it was good tears that time… I think. She went back to her room right after. All I got was a half-mumbled “thanks”, and that was it.

I wanted to say something to her – Ask how this happened (well, I know “how”, but…) and figure out a way to help. But it was just too awkward. So I decided to wait for things to calm down and stuff, know what I mean?

But they didn’t calm down. At all.

Papa got home from his game last night really late, which is pretty normal. What wasn’t normal was all the yelling.

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I’m not sure what started it, but he and maman started screaming at each other. They said all this SUPER embarrassing stuff about… Like sex and stuff. Oh my God.

And that wasn’t even the worst part… Maman said Papa cheated on her!

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I couldn’t even believe what I was hearing. I was up almost all night, just crying and crying.

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Even writing about it is making me want to cry again… I know things were getting kind of weird between my parents for a  while now… But cheating?! Why? How could he?!

Maman and Papa tried to make us feel a little better this morning – they knew Luc and I heard them last night. We didn’t even have to say anything.

They apologized, of course. They promised us that everything would be okay, and that if anything was going to… “happen”, we’d be the first ones to know.

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And then I just had to ask. I couldn’t stand not knowing.

Papa said it was true – He cheated on maman. “But not the way you’re thinking”, he promised. And maman backed him up.

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They didn’t say any more than that, so I’m still not 100% sure exactly what Papa did. I guess this means he didn’t… y’know, do anything with this other woman, at least… But whatever he did do must have still been pretty bad.

And of course, that wasn’t the end of it.

Maman told us she found Clara’s pregnancy test last night.

So after they sat me and Luc down, Papa went upstairs to talk to Clara, and maman gave the two of us some money.

“Why don’t you two take Gus out for some ice cream?” She asked us.

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Yeah, sure. Because with everything going on with my family, ice cream definitely tops my priority list, right?

I knew what she was doing. And so did Luc. So we didn’t argue.

Poor Gus has no idea what’s going on. He sleeps like a rock – didn’t hear a peep from maman and Papa last night, from the sound of it. So Luc and I had to try and pretend everything was okay.

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Way easier said than done. Especially when I still haven’t forgiven my Bruder for the opening night of my play… Or even for a couple months ago, when I got kicked out of my own bedroom just so he could practice with his stupid band.

How was I supposed to sit there and pretend it was all okay? It’s not. I’m just so mad. And not just at Luc. I’m mad at Papa for hurting maman and keeping secrets from all of us. I’m mad at maman for lying about everything being okay. I’m mad at Clara for not listening to any of us and getting herself into this whole mess…


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Anyway, we just got home a few minutes ago. I wasn’t really sure what else to do, so I decided to sit down and try to get all of this down on paper while it’s fresh in my mind. Maybe sometime later I can go back and read this and try to make sense of everything.

Because nothing makes sense right now.

Okay, I’m wondering if maybe we should have stayed out a little longer… I can still hear Oma and Opa talking to Clara next door. No yelling, at least. I can’t make out anything they’re saying… But I bet they’re just trying to calm Clara down. She’s sobbing so loud it almost drowns them out.

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And maman’s been crying too, I think. Her eyes were all red when we got home.

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And Papa’s just sitting out in the backyard. I almost think he might be crying too… But it’s hard to tell from my window.

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I guess bis-vovó’s the only one not wrapped up in all the drama right now. Once Gus ran off to his bedroom, she gave me and Luc a big hug.

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“Everything will be okay,” she promised us. “Our family’s strong. We’ll get through this. We always do.”

I guess right now all I can do is really, really hope she’s right.

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47 thoughts on “4.20: Get Through This

  1. My Lhama! Thing sure are tense in this house…At least Joce didn’t freak out and said to the whole house she as mad, I mean, I think that it’s going to happen sometime, because I don’t think anyone can keep some feeliings deep down without telling anyone…I realy like her! And Jade: ”We always do…” I don’t think It’s a good thing, saying thats the family had so many problems that they will pass more one…


    1. Things are definitely tense right now! Joce is very good at keeping her feelings inside… Hopefully she can stay that way for now and not cause more drama? Haha

      And Jade’s comment was meant as a positive! She’s just trying to assure Joce and Luc that the family has been through tough times before, and everything always works out ok in the end. So she is helping them believe that things will work out well again 🙂


  2. Poor Joce. At least she can sort of take solace in the fact her own situation isn’t as messy as everyone else’s? Though it’s not much, of course.

    Also, Jade ❤ She's such a lovely lady!

    I wonder what Luc makes of all this.

    Oh, and I'm glad Mai and Jonas finally know about Clara's little secret. Hopefully they can talk some sense into her – considering what she's been through recently, she might be a bit more open to taking advice.

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    1. Yes, poor Joce is the “normal” one right now haha caught up in the middle 😦 As for Luc, I imagine he’s feeling very similarly to Joce right now — shocked and saddened by the whole situation 😦 Especially with their parents.

      I’m glad Jade was around to impart a little wisdom. She has seen the family though some tough times to say the least haha so she knows better than anything that the Rosebrooks are nothing if not resilient hahaha they always bounce back… Eventually…

      And yes, the cat is out of the bag! Mari and Jonas are so worried for Clara. I hope she’ll listen to them… We’ll see soon!

      Thanks for reading, as always 😀


    1. Yup, it’s a disaster right now hahahaha

      And don’t you love calm Mari? I know I do haha she is seriously a different person now. The Josh situation was like her final demon from her past she had to overcome. Now she is so calm and free 🙂 (but, y’know, still a total potty mouth hehe)

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  3. Ah, well. Mari and Clara didn’t yell. That’s always a bonus.

    And Tobi, Colette, talk to each other and fix your marriage. Please…

    I feel so sorry for Joce. She’s stuck in the middle right now.

    Though, I’m a firm believer that we don’t just suffer, we suffer so later things in life aren’t as bad. If Clara hadn’t got herself into this mess, Tobi might not have confessed and Colette might not have found out from him. As awful as it is, it could be worse.

    But still. Crying is better than making out with someone who’s not your wife. #BabySteps

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    1. I feel bad for Joce too! It’s gotta be tough being in the middle of all that drama… And yes, crying is better than cheating on your wife LMAO Though I hate seeing Tobi do either!

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  4. Jade must be quite old by now. I hope she won’t add to all the mess by passing away. (That sounds worse than it did in my head, but I’m sure you know how I meant it).
    This family needs a vacation or something. Or let them buy one of those new water slides. You don’t cry when you slide, no? 😉

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    1. Okay you made me laugh so hard with this image of Jade just dropping dead in the middle of everyone crying and screaming around her LMAO Could you IMAGINE? I torture these poor sims enough already, don’t you think? 😛

      And yes, maybe they need a nice waterslide… XD

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  5. Is Jade immortal?? Giggles
    Anyway I’d totally run into her arms too, I had such a wonderful relationship with my grandmother 🙂
    And mari did earn some points in this chapters for me!
    Also Joce is proving to be very mature for how she is dealing with all this situation!
    Being able to not make things worst letting out the stress that Lucas caused to her in such a moment is something that not many things would be able to do!
    I can tell after Alex she is my favourite one 🙂

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    1. Hahaha Jade’s not THAT old yet. 😛 But she is definitely old and wise and has a great relationship with the rest of the family 🙂 😀

      I’m glad Mari earned some points haha and yes, Joce is handling this whole thing pretty well, all things considered! 🙂 I’m glad you like her so much!


  6. Hugs to Jocelyn. Tobi and Colette know how much this is hurting the twins and at least they maintained a united front and didn’t try to lie to them. That’s a huge step. And when they told them they would be the first to know if anything was going to happen it probably pushed the idea of separation or divorce as a reality to each of them and upset them more or maybe scared them. I don’t think either of them ever thought that would ever happen. They both love each other and got a full dose of what their problems are doing to their family. They need to talk to someone soon. Jade certainly seems like the likely candidate here. She can tell them that anything good is worth fighting for. If not, perhaps counseling. I think Tobi is ready to do the work. Colette just has to decide if she is willing. I think she will be. Maybe Jocelyn will even be that catalyst for that like Clara was for all of these secrets to finally come out. 🙂

    And I agree that calm looks good on Mari! Poor Jonas looks devastated. I think Mari will be able to relate to Clara’s situation and hopefully this will make their relationship better. Always a silver lining somewhere. 🙂

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    1. I need the “insightful” button for WP! Your analysis of Tobi and Colette was perfect — being upfront with the kids really made the possibility of divorce “real” to them. I think that came as a huge shock. They are both hurting so horribly right now. It’s tough to write about 😦

      And yeah, Mari is being really wonderful and compassionate toward Clara right now. I’m almost sad I didn’t get to write the conversation with her, Jonas ,and Clara, but it just didn’t “fit”. But know that they are beign amazing and compassionate parents right now haha (but also firm… They are NOT happy about all the secrets. But this is one of those cases where they are going to be gentle and comforting and kind until things are sorted out, then deal with the secret-keeping and such later 😛 )


  7. Joce is handling it well, considering the giant drama. Mari is very calm about the whole situation…I like that. Crossing my fingers for ToCo.

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    1. Thanks Azzy! I am hoping for ToCo too! And Joce and Mari are both handling things quite well, I agree! 😀 Thanks so much for reading ^_^


  8. I was so sad reading about all the problems Joce and her family have to face but when I came to the part where Auggy doesn’t know about a thing I actually laughed out loud 😀 ! Please let him keep his innocence and cheerfulness.. I don’t know what the family would do without him ❤

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  9. Hm, could this be the start of Clara and Joce getting along ? Hopefully Clara remembers that Joce was with her through her lowest point ( which is probably right now ) and starts treating her nicer ? In the future..

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  10. Tobi was the definition of both asshole and idiot… *sigh* Don’t 100% lose hope on ToCo yet though… there are a few chapters left!

    And OMG I’d die too! Poor Joce! And she’s only 16! Hahahaha


  11. And this is why I love the Rosebrooks! With all the terrible communication, and all the mistakes, they still get it together in a crisis (even crises of their own making, ijs).

    Mari, I assume, is handling Clara in the best way possible, probably like how she wanted to be handled when she got her heart broken in high school.

    Colette and Tobi with the united front! Deciding to put their kids first and sort their crap out around that.

    This family is strong, and stronger together. I hope they take note of that and keep it up.

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    1. This comment made me happy hahaha It’s very true, for all their faults, this family is very strong in the face of difficulties (and they sure have a lot of those… hahaha)

      Mari is being amazing with Clara (YAY!) and yes, Tobi and Colette are doing great with their kids too. ^_^ I am proud of all of them haha. Thank you cece!

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  12. I’m very interested to see what Mari and Jonas had to say to Clara. I’m just happy that everything is out in the open. 🙂

    What Jade said is very true. There is so much drama for the family right now, but they will get through it together 😀 She knows 😉

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