4.16: Might Be

It’s been more than a week, and I still can’t stop thinking about what Clara said.

This thing with Anna…  Is it really cheating? Why is she telling people we’re dating? We’re just friends… Aren’t we?

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The fact that I even have to ask that question scares the hell out of me.

I can barely even look at Colette anymore. Every time I do, I just feel so sick.

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And I haven’t been looking at Anna either. We haven’t gone out since that night I talked to Clara… I even skipped my PT sessions all last week. Because looking at her made me feel sick too.

I hadn’t seen her at all since today.

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But this afternoon, I finally decided to show for our session. I’d been making so many excuses not to, but I really needed to talk to her. I couldn’t put it off any longer.

I didn’t know what else to do, so I just kinda came out and asked her – Was she really telling people we were dating?

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And I really, really hoped she was gonna say no.

But she didn’t.

Instead, she looked really confused for a second. And then she asked me “We’re not?”

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I seriously had no idea what to say. I mean, I wanted to say no. I really really wished I could… But then I realized we might be.

Like I said, Lettie and I had skipped that whole part of our relationship. I’ve never really known what it felt like to be dating someone before. Could that really be what this is?

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Shit.

So I stood there like an idiot for way longer than I should have, and all I managed to choke out was “I’m married.”

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Then Anna just gave me one of those cute smiles, and told me she knows.

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And I didn’t say anything.

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What the hell am I doing? This is wrong, isn’t it? I mean, it sure as hell feels wrong…

But the more I think about it, the more confused I feel. I mean, I haven’t done anything bad, have I?

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So what if Anna thinks we’re dating? That doesn’t hurt anyone. As long as she stops telling people we are (which she promised me today she would), where’s the harm in that?

And it’s not like we’ve kissed or anything. Not even on the cheek. We haven’t even held hands. And we definitely haven’t had sex. Now THAT would be wrong. BEYOND wrong.

But you know, there are some people who let their spouses sleep around and they still don’t call it cheating. Lots of people have those kind of relationships. Hell, even Stefan tried it, for a while.

I used to kinda judge him for it, but maybe it wasn’t such a crazy idea after all…

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Jesus, I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore.

But what I do know is this: I love my wife.

I don’t love Anna.

But she sure is a hell of a lot more fun.

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66 Responses to 4.16: Might Be

  1. Senna says:

    Anna is a woman that actively goes after married men, in the workplace no less?

    Lady needs to be fired before things really go wrong. :/

    And I get the feeling she’s lying to him about not telling any more people they’re dating, and I fear it may escalate if things don’t go her way… (if he keeps rejecting her, she might claim the dreaded r-word, or something) 😦

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  2. maladi777 says:

    Oh, plum, this is a lot worse than typical mid-life crisis. I think he’s devolving! Because he’s worse than a teenager right now. Teenegers are usually pretty clear who they are dating and who they’re not. Tobi not so much. 😀

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha Tobi is in 10000% denial-mode right now. He KNOWS he’s dating Anna. But as soon as he admits it to himself, that makes it real. *sigh* Definitely not being mature about this at all right now. -_-

      I guess the silver lining is that he’s still not done anything physical with Anna. That’s the sign that he hasn’t completely given up on Colette yet. He’s just feeling very torn and very lost… I wanna shake him and be like “your wife can be fun too if you actually take HER out instead of Anna!” *sigh*

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  3. Oh, Tobi. 😦
    Please TALK to your wife.

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  4. kaffepigen says:

    Uh oh I smell trouble in the future. Tobi, what are you doing?! You just said yourself that this feels wrong! Then stop it! I don’t get it. He knows it’s wrong, though he continues to persue this relationship that apparently he didn’t even know he had to begin with. Anna really jumped to conclusions there. He should have told her that they are just friends and that they just went out for a drink as friends, but i think secretly he likes having this other woman in his life that he can have fun with, and even though he loves his wife and NOT Anna, he might just be fantasizing about Anna behind Colette’s back. Anna is cute, young and fun, where as Colette is, well not old, but older, and apparently not so fun anymore. The fact that she holds off on the sex part of their relationship is not good. Instead, if she doesn’t feel like she want that at this point in time, she should talk to Tobi about it and explain why she feels that way. I know a lot of us has said they should have a heart to heart about their problems, but again this is the Rosebrooks so that might never happen. Except if they are in couples counceling together, Which i really recommend them to do.
    When does the drama ever stop?
    Answer: Never!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      You’re right, it never does! Hahaha

      Tobi really really likes getting the attention Anna gives him. I think it’s new and exciting to him, and that’s why he continues it, even though deep down he knows it’s wrong!

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  5. Mumei No says:

    Oh, this is getting twisted… Tobi is kind of in denial, I think deep down he know that this is something questionable, but he continues to lie to himself, and if there is nothing wrong, why don’t tell Collete then? If he is that convict that nothing is wrong, he could tell Collete, and ler me remember that people talk, and you never know who they are goin to talk to, and who that person will talk to, so, it would be better that Tobi told that to her, at least better that she discover be rearing a conversation about the dates do Anna and Tobi…As many has said, if they had talk, that would not happen, because with this family, it seens like they wait until it reach the boiling point, and talking again about the “people talk” thing, I imagine how devasting would be a newspaper with the title: “Local famous soccer player has an affair! The wife didn’t even know about it.” (´Д` )

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh yes, total denial! Unfortunately you’re right about this family and communication… 😦 Hopefully things won’t get as far as you’re predicting! Eek!

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  6. hemera123 says:

    Tobi just said he loves his wife – not Anna. Then you should know what is right: try to fix things with Colette! It feels quite odd that Anna is bragging about she is dating Tobi – a married man. Does she want Tobi to get caught?

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    • Jes2G says:

      She wants to be on TMZ LOL XD Her secret plan this entire time was to get caught cheating with him so she can be all over the news and thus begin her career as a infamous Windenburg party girl LOL.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I think Anna is so wrapped up in their budding relationship and also really believes that Tobi is fine with dating her/doesn’t mind it getting out there. He’s never indicated to her that he wants it a secret, technically!

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  7. Jes2G says:

    GAAAAAAAHHHH!!! I am so done with this dude.

    What step are we on in the ten duel commandments?! I’m already standing in position! I may or may not be aiming for the sky though. Let’s go through this, shall we??

    1.) The challenge: demand satisfaction (check). If they apologize, no need for further action. (nope)
    2.) If they don’t, grab a friend—that’s your second. (Clara tried and failed. Next!)
    3.) Have your seconds meet face to face. Negotiate peace, or negotiate a time and place. (well…that didn’t go too well!)
    4.) If they don’t reach peace, that’s all right. Time to get some pistols and a doctor on site. (DONE)
    5.) Duel before the sun is in the sky. (he’s already picked his place to die!!)
    6.) Leave a note for your next of kin. (heh, well, if I win this duel…someone will “conveniently” find his notebook LOL!!! <—evil)
    7.) Confess your sins. Get ready for the moment of adrenaline. (I’ve confessed mine, but he hasn’t confessed his yet!!)
    8.) Last chance to negotiate. Send in your seconds and see if they can set the record straight.

    (sigh)

    I guess this is where we are. GRRRRR! Tobi is safe for one more chapter folks.

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  8. Simslover163 says:

    AUGH!! Come on, Tobi!! Please fix things with Colette, your sweet Hershey kiss, or else things will explode! I have a feeling Anna is a tricky lady and she thinks that they’re dating! I mean come on now! He’s married, as he told her. If Colette sees Anna flrting and kissing with Tobi, she’ll get boiling mad, her fists will clench, and steam will come out of her ears! What will could possibly happen?? A cat fight between Colette and Anna? Colette slapping Tobi and then yelling at him nonstop and a divorce?? So many possibilities!! :O

    4 generations of non-stop drama!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      The drama never ends, it’s true hahaha. We will see where things go from here… We are reaching a tipping point. The question is where things will fall….

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  9. octopocket says:

    Anna looks like she can get away with anything 🙄

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  10. Awww poor Tobi! *hugs* ❤

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  11. audreyfld says:

    Anna is cute as all get out but she is EVIL!!!! She wants to break him up and she will do anything she can to make it happen faster. And shame on Tobi for trying to find ways to justify his relationship with the evil Anna…. Augh!!!…Yes. Tobi. BAD. Even if Anna really is just that stupid and naive, he is leading her on if he thinks its not bad if SHE thinks they are dating…. It’s totally slap the Hell out of Tobi time….and I don’t even want to hug him afterwards….just lock him in a room with his WIFE.

    Now. I feel better….sort of….until the next post…. :p

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahahaha I completely understand your feelings! Sorry for all the anguish I am causing you 😛 Or… Tobi is causing you

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  12. I’m not into slut shaming, so I got no issues with Anna. Her moral compass is all jacked up, and if I were Colette, it would take a lot for me not to whoop her ass if we ever crossed paths. Friends would have to be actively keeping her presence from being noticed by me.

    But back to Tobi… the denial runs deep with that one, ugh.

    And on to Stefan, like for real, he was poly for a second? Interesting….

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah Anna does not hold traditional moral values, that’s for sure! And Tobi is SO in denial *sigh*

      And yeah, Stefan was not full on poly, but was definitely in a non-traditional relationship. That’s JoieWilder’s story to tell someday haha 🙂

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  13. azzywoods says:

    TOBI. You said it yourself, you love your wife. So ditch this Anna, she is NOT worth it. And now I’m really curious about Stefan…

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      I wish Tobi could hear you… Though who knows if he’d listen hahaha

      As for Stefan… JoieWilder will share the details of that story someday! He was in a non-traditional relationship for a while, that much I can say 😛

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  14. silentwolfy101 says:

    *grumble grumble grumble* Married… Not right… *Grumble grumble*

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  15. peacesign101 says:

    I feel like should be commenting a well thought out observation, but the only thing going through my mind is “I hate Anna. I’m mad at you too Tobi”

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha it doesn’t have to be well thought out! 😛 I like getting your feelings… And these ones seem pretty valid! *sigh* Tobi, what are you doing?

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  16. Spottydog714 says:

    I really want to punch Anna. But I’m not going to. I’m going slap Tobi instead and then give him a hug. I feel like Clara is actually a hidden blessing (you can tell her I said that. I’de like to know how she’d react) because she’s got Tobi thinking. I didn’t think the blackmail would have a benefit at all, but I was wrong. Tobi, at least you’ve established the facts. Now, onto step 2. Tell Colette that you love her. I don’t know Step 3 because I’ve never been married nor do I know how marriage couciling works.

    #BabySteps

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      That’s true, Tobi is thinking a bit more deeply about what he’s doing! It’s a baby step for sure! We will see what his next steps are though…

      (By the way, Clara gave you a funny look and said “Is this chick for real?” And then rolled her eyes and walked away :P)

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  17. Tizy says:

    I would put a chastity belt on Tobi just to be sure… and as a married woman I join the team #beatanna

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  18. Farbkleckswelten says:

    what throws me off is that she is from champs les sims too. either tobi has a thing for french girls and I am overthinking this or… there’s something going on.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha there’s no deeper meaning there, I promise! Anna is actually German, she just moved to champs les sims as a teen. I wanted her to have recently moved from somewhere kinda far away, so I just picked champs les sims 😛

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  19. O'jenn says:

    Tobi, red heads are dangerous little fire crackers of fun be careful buddy!

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  20. lisabeesims says:

    Oh at least he says he still loves his wife. Time for you to get things a little exciting Tobi and she’ll be excited.

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  21. NessyRosy says:

    Wow Toby! You need a serious reality check! Poor guy is seriously confused. Stop ‘dating’ Anna and talk to your wife, the one you LOVE! Damn Rosebrook family! XD
    AND
    I can’t believe Anna is okay with dating a married man! She needs to see the havoc she’s causing to his family (as does Toby).

    It was nice to hear from him though and realise just how naive he is in a way when it comes to relationships. Neither he nor Colette really got to have a gradual relationship. It was a whirlwind, even though it was over many years :/

    I just hope things work out between the two. Colette also deserves to know about Anna, and I have a feeling she’ll find out one way or another…

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Oh goodness yes, he totally needs a reality check! *sigh* Tobi is super confused but also being really dumb right now 😦 And as for Anna, well… She definitely doesn’t hold traditional mora views hahaha

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  22. theplumbob says:

    Lmao! His logic is getting more and more amusing every chapter. Yes Tobi, if you let Anna think you’re dating and not tell her otherwise, it’s definitely not a problem. Totally harmless. This is hysterical.

    In a twisted way, I kind of want him to cheat on Colette. It’s like watching a trainwreck, can’t look away. Besides, at this point, I’m not sure if adding the physical part of the relationship would make any difference anyway. Emotional cheating is way more hurtful than physical cheating anyway, at least from what I’ve heard. Like, literally going out and having a one night stand would actually be better than the long-term lying he’s doing now.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Things are getting pretty dire right now, and yeah… train wreck i s a good way to describe it *sigh* Tobi has seriously deluded himself HORRIBLY. I get SO mad at him every time I write a chapter haha you have no idea.

      We had a little discussion on my thread recently about this. Basically, Tobi is approaching the tipping point. Either he is going to fall over one side into full-on infidelity and sleep with Anna, probably destroying his marriage beyond repair, or he will finally get a freaking wakeup call and stop things and MAYBE have a shred of hope at fixing things with Colette… Big maybe though, at this point :-/

      That stupid man *sigh*

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      • theplumbob says:

        I honestly don’t see how sleeping or not sleeping with her would make a difference at this stage. He’s been lying to his wife for what, several months? And lets Anna think they’re dating. Obviously the point has been tipped. It’s not like it’s a one time slip up, it’s a continuous thing… And mending those is much trickier.

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        • CitizenErased14 says:

          I totally see what you’re saying. I guess having sex with Anna would take things to a whole new (much worse) level. Like a point of no return.

          Either way, you’re right — Tobi is in big trouble if/when Colette finds out about Anna. Whether he ends up sleeping with her or not. :-/

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  23. GRRRR!!! I’m so mad I can’t even comment… Apart from this comment right here! 😀

    P.S. You suck Tobi! And Anna you are total garbage!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yeah, Tobi wins the piece of shit award for this whole Anna thing haha and he’s such an idiot lying to himself all the time about it *sigh*

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  24. theceltygirly says:

    Oi, questioning Anna’s character now. Maybe I’m just untrusting of happiness in your legacies, and just think everyone is out for something XD I’m suspecting Anna has the gold digger LTW, and she somehow wants some of Tobi’s fame and fortune, but we’ll see. :3

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  25. Eruleese says:

    This whole thing is odd to me because my name is Anna! xD! but it’s kind of interesting to see a character with my name doing a thing I would honestly never dream of doing!

    Sorry I haven’t commented before, I’ve been just binge-reading Dust to Dust and Ashes to Ashes and it’s never really crossed my mind.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you for reading, Anna! Sorry your namesake isn’t behaving too great right now though… 😉

      I really appreciate you taking the time to read both stories! It means a lot! And don’t worry about not commenting 🙂 But if you feel like sharing your thoughts on any other chapters, feel free!

      Thank you again ❤️

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