Okay. I really need a minute to vent here.
I hate complaining. I do. But this is really getting on my nerves. And I figure whining about it in my journal would be a lot better than having a Clara-style meltdown in front of my family.
So anyway, we finally got our scripts at rehearsal the other day, and I’ve been so eager to start memorizing my lines. I’ve never had this many before, so it’s a little nerve-wracking. I really don’t want to mess this up, so I’ve kinda dived right in.
Thankfully Clara’s been out of the house a lot lately doing who-knows-what (probably terrorizing Windenburg with Lena), so I don’t have to deal with her blasting her music at all hours of the day and night.
Unfortunately, my Bruder has decided to step in and take her place.
He needs to practice for his band. I understand that. I mean, that concert down at the coffee shop was proof enough that they have a lot of work to do (please don’t ever tell him I said that). But does he have to be so LOUD when he’s practicing? My bedroom’s around the corner from his, and I can still hear every single note. And it’s even worse when Florian’s here.
I’ve tried asking them to keep it down, and they always promise they will, but it never really gets any better. Do you know how impossible it is to concentrate with all that noise?
So today I finally decided I’d had enough. I went to maman and Papa and told them what was going on, and you’ll never guess what happened…
They told me if I had a problem with it, I should be the one to move! Are they for real?
Maman made some excuse about Luc having a lot of equipment to move, and Papa tried to convince me that “getting some fresh air” would be nice for focusing or something. Can you believe it? They just smiled and shrugged it off like it was no big deal.
I was so mad. But I didn’t want a fight.
So now I’m just sitting out back here watching Gus play on the monkey bars. I tried practicing my lines for a little while, but I was too upset to focus. So I went inside and grabbed my journal.
I know it’s silly to get so worked-up about it. I just feel like Luc and Clara are always walking all over me. And I don’t think they always mean to either. I just don’t like speaking up about stuff like this. I don’t like starting fights or causing drama, so usually I just keep my mouth shut. But not them – they’re never afraid to say what they think. And usually I just suck it up and go along with it.
But now the one time I decide to say something to my parents, they side with Luc over me.
It just doesn’t seem fair.
At least it’s a beautiful day.