4.1: Dear Diary

In all the books and movies, people always start these things with “Dear Diary”, but that just feels so silly. It’s probably one of the lamest clichés ever… So I’m not gonna do it.

But what do I say instead? Should I just jump in? Am I supposed to say something about myself? Maybe? And who the heck am I asking all these questions to anyway?

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I’m pretty sure no one will ever read this thing… Unless Clara gets her hands on it. She’d probably use it to try and dig up some dirt on me or something. Not that she’d find much. I’m probably one of the most boring people you’ll ever meet.

My name’s Jocelyne Rosebrook, by the way. I’m sixteen years old, and my Onkel Stefan just gave me this journal. I never really saw myself as the type of person to keep a diary, but I figure I should at least give it a try.

You could say writing kind of runs in my family. My great-grandfather’s the one who started it, and now… Well, now he’s gone.

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His funeral was this morning, and it was so awful. I’ve never seen my family so miserable before. And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so miserable before either. I loved him so much… It’s just hard to believe that he’s really gone. I mean, he was totally fine one day, and the next they were rushing him to the hospital. They told us it was a stroke.

It sounds like such a horrible way to die. I don’t even wanna think about it.

I guess that’s kind of why I ended up hiding away up here in my room. Seeing everyone so upset, hearing them all talking about him… It just made everything worse for me. I had to get away. Hide. That sounds pretty bad, doesn’t it? It might not be the best solution, but… It’s just how I deal with stuff. And we’re all handling it in different ways, I guess.

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This has been really awful for my bis-vovó, of course. Great-grandpa was the love of her life. We could all see it, any time they were together. She’s been trying so hard to smile these past few days. But you can see it in her eyes. She’s… empty. I don’t think she’ll ever be the same again.

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My Oma’s been taking it really hard too. She’s keeping it together pretty well in front of the rest of us, but I can hear her crying in her room at night. Talking to Opa about the past, and how differently she wished she’d done things. Worrying about what a horrible daughter she was… It’s awful.

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My parents are doing okay, I guess. I’m just so happy Onkel Stefan is able to be here for my Papa. They’ve always been so close.

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I think it must be a twin thing. I can feel it with Luc too… Even though we fight like cats and dogs sometimes.

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Anyway, I think it’ll be really hard for Papa when Onkel Stefan goes back home though. We won’t see him again until Christmas. Then it’ll be up to Maman to make Papa smile, I guess. Maybe easier said than done.

They’ve been acting kinda weird lately, even before great-grandpa died. I guess Papa’s always stressed this time of year, when the football season starts back up again. Maybe that’s it. And I’m sure losing his grandfather won’t help much…

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And then there’s Gus, Luc, and Clara. They’ve got it just as bad as me right now.

Clara’s been spending a lot of time alone in her room the past few days – I guess we’re kind of alike that way… But that’s probably one of the ONLY ways. She just sits in there blasting that crappy, depressing music she’s always listening to. Do you know how hard it is to read or think or do ANYTHING when your bedroom wall is shaking because your Tante has clearly never heard of headphones?!

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Luc’s been almost as annoying, but not in the same way. I mean yeah, he’s been all emo and playing his guitar and stuff. But at least that’s decent music.

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It’s just that he keeps wanting to TALK about stuff. Telling all these stories about great-grandpa, talking about how he’s feeling, asking me if I’m okay… I know he’s trying to help. But I wish he’d leave me alone right now.

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Lucky for him he’s got Gus to talk to. That little chatterbox never knows when to stop… Even now, with everything going on. He’s the biggest pain in the butt, of course. But I love him, and right now I guess I’m pretty grateful we have him around. We could all use a little brightness now that great-grandpa’s gone… And Gus definitely brings it.

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Anyway, that’s enough rambling from me for now. I was only planning on jotting down a couple sentences… Guess I got a little carried away for a minute. But you know what? Writing all that stuff down felt pretty good. Really good, actually. And it was so easy.

Maybe Onkel Stefan was right. Maybe anyone really can be a writer.

And maybe this tradition isn’t so silly after all.

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46 Responses to 4.1: Dear Diary

  1. Spirashun says:

    Yay! I have a good feeling about Jocelyne, she seems calm and kind of reminds me of her great-grandpa a bit in that regard! She’ll be an interesting change after the strong personalities of Stefan & Mari 😛

    Not that I didn’t love them, of course!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha yes she is definitely not quite as… “Aggressive” as Stefan and Mari were that’s for sure 😛 I am loving writing her, it’s a nice change from the last couple of generations XD

      Thanks for your comment! 😀

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  2. Jes2G says:

    Nice job, Jocelyn. Looking forward to your voice.

    Little Gus, Auggy, whatever his name is these days lol, I just want to go to the park and eat ice cream with him lol.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Jocelyne says thank you 😛 Writing her voice has been a nice change!

      And Gus/Auggy (depends who you ask 😉 ) is such a little sweetheart. I love him! That’s what he gets for rolling the cheerful trait 😉

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  3. sonniejj says:

    So far I really like Jocelyne. She seems a lot more like me than the heirs over the past generations so I can definitely relate to her more. Though it’s always fun to read about people who are totally different from yourself.

    And oh my gosh, I am already #TeamAuggy all the way. That little boy has stolen my heart. I think I’ll like Luc as well, but I also love Clara as the slightly rebellious teenager. Such a fun generation already!

    Also #TeampoorJade, so sad 😦 I miss the Alex-and-Jade-days

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you! Jocelyne is definitely different than most of the other journal writers so far 😛 (I guess she has a few Tobi and Alex elements though). And I’m glad you like my gen 4 kids already! I really love this little “cast” of characters a lot. ^_^

      And yes poor Jade 😦 She and Alex had a very beautiful love 😥

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  4. kaffepigen says:

    Aww gus is such a cutie :3

    I really like Clara. She’s so different to the other characters. What kind of music is it she’s listening to? I’m thinking it might be the metal genre. That isn’t for everyone 😉
    It is so good to see Jocelyne getting started on her journal.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hehe Clara is my favorite! ^_^ I imagine her listening to a bit of a variety, all in the rock-type genre. So I’m sure metal is one of them 😉

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  5. Virtualee says:

    When I look at jocelyn in these screenies she reminds me of her grandmother so much. I am nervous about her parents though – I have no idea what theheck is going on but am sure we will find out soon. Clara seems like a badass and I already love her. I also enjoyed the contrast of the twins pic on the wall and them in their teens in the same screenie – you are so great at staging a shot!! YAY for daily updates <3<3

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thank you Lee! Jocelyne looks a lot like Mari (gotta love those gorgeous genes!). You’re the first one to catch on that something might be up with #TeamToCo haha more on that soon 😉

      And I’m glad you already love Clara! She’s my favorite of this generation (though I do love Joce). We’ll hear more from Clara tomorrow 😉

      And thank you for noticing that shot 😀 I had fun staging that one! Thanks for reading as always ❤

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  6. Spottydog714 says:

    I’m way too old fashioned for this… I saw Clara and was immediately like, I don’t approve (of your music)! But, hey, I’m sure I’ll love her anyway when we here from her. It’s hard not to love your characters, because you write them so well. Jocelyne is amazing. I love her already. She’s much calmer than the past heirs. And no, #TeamToco. *crosses fingers that it doesn’t sink*

    Dawwww, Gus.

    And Jade is fully grey! She’s in her 70s. *goes up and hugs her*

    And Mari, your mother is still alive. Make amends while you can, even though they’ve forgiven you already.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahahaha you made me laugh so hard with that Clara comment 😛 I’m glad you love Joce 🙂 She’s a nice girl and very fun to write!

      We’ll see soon what the situation is with #ToCo… can’t go into any details right now! And I love your advice to Mari. Hopefully she will have a long talk with her mother and get some of her feelings out. I don’t think she’s ever fully forgiven herself for her past mistakes with her family. Hopefully she will see that they’ve forgiven HER, like you said. 🙂 ❤

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      • Spottydog714 says:

        #TeamToCo all the way! I really hope it’s a lovely reason… They have three children… And yes, Mari needs to learn to forgive herself. I will look forward to this mother/daughter chat if it’s happening… It would be nice for Mari to see that her parents have forgiven her! 🙂

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  7. Simslover163 says:

    So far, I really like Jocelyne. No, Jocelyne, you won’t be the most boring person you’ll ever meet! Poor Jade! I feel so bad for her! 😦

    I thought Clara had a short hairstyle with just the sides trimmed, just like a guy’s, when I saw the sneak peek for Gen 4! Then I saw that she had a ponytail! Whoaaaaa. She’s so cool-looking and I love her too! Luc being emo with the guitar? HA! Looks like Jocelyne will need some earmuffs or some noise cancelling headphones if she can’t take Clara’s music.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks Simslover! 😀 I love Clara’s hairstyle, I’m glad I found it! And I’m glad you love it too! And yeah, poor Joce may have to invest in some headphones 😉

      My heart breaks for poor Jade too 😦 But time will help heal her I think 🙂

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  8. azzywoods says:

    Poor Jade. Oh Clara…I’m looking forward to seeing EVEN more of the other Gen 4 characters. Yay for daily updates!

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  9. maladi777 says:

    It was good to see the rest of the family again. Both girls are really pretty.
    I notice one thing that amused me, the colours of their outfits often matches the room colours. I tend to notice these things for some reason. 😀

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Hahaha it’s true! Joie got me into giving my characters a favorite color that they always wear and decorate their rooms with XD For Mari it was pink/purple, Tobi is red, Stefan was green, Joce is blue, Clara is purple, Lucas is orange, and Auggy is teal blue/green 😀 It’s kind of fun to color code them 😛

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  10. raerei says:

    Ha – more of a tease although a good overview of all the current Rosebrooks. I want more! I am LOVING all the makeovers they are perfect at conveying everyone’s personalities. I just love Joce, she’s so calm and put together after all the drama of her grandmother. (And the crazy but fun drama of the twins). She seems like she’s got a good head on her shoulders!

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  11. OooOoooh… I wonder why Colette and Tobi are acting weird… It better not be a breakup… I still am with #TeamCobi ❤ !
    I'm so happy Auggy is there tho! This family needs a cheerful sim in their life, especially now! #TeamAuggyalltheway !
    Also, SO happy there will be daily updates now! Even if it's more work for you, I'm so excited!!!!
    😀

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  12. crstasse says:

    Sounds like there is trouble in Paradise for Tobi and Colette!! I’m very curious to see what’s happening there!
    I really enjoyed reading Jocelyn’s first journal entry and getting a glimpse into the other characters from her perspective. I can’t wait to get to know gen 4!!

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks! we’ll see what’s happening with Tobi and Colette soon. And I’m glad you enjoyed Joce’s first journal! ^_^

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  13. Jocelyne is lovely, I can’t wait to get to know her better. Will the journal chapters be only from her or might we get some from her siblings or at least her twin?

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  14. RemïNarrow says:

    Okay I think I’ve found my favorite character in A2A! Jocelyn 😍

    She’s so pretty, and so much like me! I can totally relate with her!!! That part where she says, “It just made everything worse for me. I had to get away. Hide. That sounds pretty bad doesn’t it? It might not but… It’s just how I deal with stuff.” I was like hell I do the exact same thing! Hi-five sister! 😜

    Btw, all the other characters look amazing! Mari looks gorgeous with short hair and dayum Tobi 👌😍

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Haha I’m so glad you love Joce and can relate to her! I love writing her, she’s so different from the other heirs so far!! ^_^

      And thank you! Mari is still beautiful… Aging gracefully! And Tobi… Yum 😉 Hehehehe

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  15. lisabeesims says:

    It is true that it is a bit cliché but I like dear diary. Of course I can be a bit cliché myself LOL

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  16. iveretree says:

    Awww Tobi looks so grown up! I’m super excited to hear more from Jocelyn, it seems like we have a really interesting and diverse cast this generation 🙂

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Thanks!!! I’m excited to see you catching up! Yay! Yes, Tobi is grown up (and hotter than ever! Hehe) I’m glad you are liking the characters! Joce and Clara (our POV characters) are very different than my past heirs. I hope you enjoy ^_^

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  17. theplumbob says:

    Aww man that picture of Jade broke my heart 😦

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  18. CitizenErased14 says:

    Joie did such an amazing job decorating the house for me!!! Each character has a favorite color that I incorporate in their wardrobes and rooms ^_^

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  19. theceltygirly says:

    I really like Jocelyne 🙂 I should try to sleep again soon, but I’ll get in a few more chapters 😉

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  20. skcaga6 says:

    She’s so pretty!

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