3.48: Offer

Okay. I did it. I finally made up my mind.

I think.

I guess I’ve had a while to think about it. Submitting the application, doing all the phone and Skype interviews… It took a few weeks. Then they took some time to talk it over, I guess. And that gave me some time to decide too.

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I could have backed out any time I wanted. Hell, I came pretty close a few times. But I never did.

And the other day… They finally gave me an offer.

I almost couldn’t believe that it was real. It all seems too good to be true… This job is perfect for me. It’s everything I’ve always wanted. I had to be dreaming, didn’t I? But I wasn’t.

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I asked for a week to make up my mind. It’s only been two days… But I think I’ve figured it out.

I mean, I’ve already been looking at apartments, even before I got the offer… One sounds really promising. I’ve been calling and emailing the landlord about it already. It’s a decent size for one person, a reasonable price, only a thirty minute commute from the lab…

And only ten minutes from Josh. Right in the heart of Willow Creek.

I think I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna say yes.

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But I need to talk to my family first. I can’t make this official without telling them. It’s not right. Is it?

Oh God. My family.

Can I really do this? I love them. I don’t want things to change. I don’t want to leave them behind. I seriously feel sick just thinking about leaving them. I’m not kidding. Like, I actually feel like I’m going to puke.

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But you know what also makes me sick? Thinking about being stuck here for the rest of my life. I can’t do it. I know I can’t.

So I guess I won’t.

I just keep thinking about everything grandpa told me. How unhappy he was back in Newcrest. How coming to Windenburg was the best thing he ever did…

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I know I won’t ever be happy if I stay here. There’s nothing in this city for me. I know there isn’t. I mean sure, maybe going to Willow Creek will be just as bad. Maybe I won’t find what I’m looking for there either. But if I never try… how will I ever know?

I just have no idea how I’m gonna tell everyone. I’ve been trying so hard to keep this whole thing a secret… But now I’ve gotta come clean. I’ve gotta tell them the truth. Including Josh.

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Luc knows about the job offer, of course. But I made him promise not to tell. And from the sound of it, he’s kept his word. Josh has been here for almost a week – one last visit before the kids go back to school and Tobi goes back to work. And he hasn’t said anything yet.

Mama and Jonas invited him over for dinner tomorrow night… So that’s when I’m gonna do it. I’m just gonna suck it up and tell them… And pray it doesn’t turn into a disaster.

I keep telling myself that I’m doing the right thing. That this is what’s best for me. That my family will support me no matter what.  That everything’s gonna be okay.

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I can’t wait until I finally start believing it.


53 thoughts on “3.48: Offer

    1. Hahahaha don’t worry. We are gonna see/hear from Stefan in gens 4 and 5. Not a lot, but a handful of times each generation. He is not getting the Lina and Gabi treatment XD

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  1. I would have hoped he felt would have better since he finally made his decision. I am very curious about the reactions everyone will have. Maybe once it is out in the open he will begin to finally get his chance at being happy and doesn’t have to carry a crap load of guilt about leaving. :p

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  2. I’m happy for him, I really am…but I still think it would go down better with Mari if he’d told her he was applying in the first place. Silly Rosebrooks, never learning.

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    1. Someday, in like gen 7 or 8, I will have a character who actually knows how to handle difficult situations and have tough conversations… Maybe XD

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  3. Now that I think of it, what is Stefan really looking for?! Since he said he might not get what he’s looking for in Willow Creek, like what “are” you looking for Stefan?! 😂 He seems so lost, or at least he did until this chapter but now he seems to have finally found his way and yet he’s afraid he might not reach his destination! 😖

    NO STOP! Stefan stop and breathe and believe in yourself! Believe that you WILL find whatever that is you’re looking for; be it a great job, a lover, a best friend, but above all , believe that you will find happiness. So don’t doubt yourself or your decisions!

    PS: I just don’t want to imagine how his family is going to react, so I won’t even go there 😂😆

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    1. I think the short answer is that Stefan is looking for an “escape”. He needs to get away from it all and figure out who he is. Finding that job in Willow Creek is a big first step toward him finding himself and his happiness… But he is so worried right now about his family 😦

      We will see his family’s reaction in the next chapter… 😛 Thanks for reading!

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    2. I reckon he just wants to be somewhere where he doesn’t feel like he’s living in the shadow of his more successful and popular brother. Willow Creek is as good a place for him to reinvent himself as any.

      Some people feel the need to start anew every once in a while, and the move temporarily satisfies this urge. It’s not exactly a longterm solution, but it helps temporarily. (I should know, I’m one of said people)

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  4. Oh my, i can just imagine the outburst coming from Mari. It’ll be like fireworks! I am sure she’ll say it is all Josh’ fault and the old fear of him taking away her “babies” will surface again. I can’t wait to read it!

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      1. I know we have to move on to Gen three but there will always be a special place in my heart for these boys…cuz you know how I feel about Tobi too <3<3 Also will be slinging snot when grandpa Alex moves on 😦

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        1. Yeah, lots of mixed emotions about moving on! If it’s any consolation, Tobi will still be writing in Gen 4! He actually has a pretty significant plot line in the first part of the next generation 🙂 So we don’t get to quite say goodbye to him yet!

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  5. I think Stefan is making the right choice. He doesn’t seem to “belong” in Windenburg. But I also want him to keep him in this story! I hope we will be able to occasionally slip into his point of vue! I’m legitimately nervous for him to announce it to his family! #praythatMaridoesntexplode!!!

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    1. I think it’s the right choice too! ^_^ And hopefully there won’t be an explosion, but… Well, this IS Mari we’re talking about… 😛


  6. I bet Mari blames Josh for finally succeeding in his nefarious plans to take away her sons. Or maybe she’ll surprise me.

    I’m happy for Stefan though. I can’t wait for dinner to be over and done so he can get past this moment of fear and confusion. He deserves to be simple happy–and nothing else– about this move. Well… he’s allowed a bit of sadness because he’ll miss his family. Other than that, no fear, no apprehension, no worrying about other grown-ups with full support systems in place.

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    1. He does deserve to be happy! I think he is feeling a lot of mixed emotions right now. Happiness is definitely one of them, but there’s certainly some guilt, fear, and sadness too! Poor guy 😦

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  7. Good for Stefan, but moving away from your family is scary, but if your not happy you’ve got to something drastic to change. I’m more curious about how Tobi will take it. They are twins after all and they have never been apart. I think he’ll just, if not more, be affected by it than Mari. Can’t wait for the next chapter!!

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  8. I hope he’s making the right choice! I totally support his will to follow his heart – I think that’s really the most important thing a person (OR SIM!) could do in their life.
    I just hope the family (especially Mari) doesn’t throw a bit tantrum. They need to see that this is what he really wants! At least grandpa Alex should be okay with it, haha. 🙂

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  9. This was so awesome! Stefan is so much like Marie!!! Lol. I am so happy he is finally moving on and finding himself although he could have been more graceful. But I get it. I do feel for Tobi though. He will definitely miss him. And Clara. She is going to be more than Mari!!!! But all things said, it is best for everyone. Stefan is suffocated by those around him and needs room to express himself. 🙂

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    1. He is very much like Mari with those dark brooding thoughts XD But I think this will be wonderful for him too ^_^ Thanks for reading!


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