3.41: Believe It or Not

Okay, as happy as I am to be an Onkel again… I never realized how much I did not miss the sound of a crying baby, or the smell of a dirty diaper.

At least it’s only one this time. And little Augustin is pretty damn adorable.

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That name’s such a damn mouthful though. Colette named him after her grandfather, and no one seems to be able to decide on a good nickname for the poor little guy.

Jocelyne suggested “Gus”. Tobi, Colette, and my grandparents love it. Personally I think it’s kinda boring.

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Clara and Lucas voted for “Auggy”. Tobi and Colette say no friggin’ way… But me, Mama, and Jonas think it’s pretty damn hysterical.

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Anyway, we’re all really excited about the new baby around here, and I know Josh is excited to finally get to meet little Auggy for himself. His flight’s supposed to come in tomorrow afternoon.

Tobi’s really looking forward to having him see the baby, and I am too, but… Well, believe it or not, I think he might be more excited about it than I am.

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Now don’t get me wrong. I love seeing Josh. It feels like ages since the last time we saw him. And the rest of the family has really been warming up to him… Especially the kids. Hell, it’s starting to feel like they’re more excited than me and Tobi combined whenever Josh is in town.

And at least I don’t have Mama to worry about… Not anymore. I mean, she’s still been avoiding Josh as much as she can whenever he comes to visit. But when she does see him, she’s been nothing but polite to him, just like she promised all those months ago.

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And in return, well… Tobi and I have been trying our best not to push things. We know we fucked up the first time… And we promised we’d never do it again. No more springing visits on her last-minute. No inviting Josh over without asking. No trying to bring Clara along unless we check with her first.

We’ve been doing our best to keep up our end of the bargain… And I think it’s helping. I mean, she let Josh take Clara to the zoo with us last time he was here. It’s something, right?

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I dunno. I should be happy things are finally calming down. I should be happy to be seeing my Vater again. I guess it just feels like no matter what I do, nothing will ever be easy. Nothing will ever be normal. And I’ll never be –

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I don’t know. It’s probably the stress talking.

I mean between the new baby, job interviews (that one last week totally fell through. Fuck.), and Christmas coming up… It’s a lot going on.

I’m sure I’ll feel better once all this crap blows over…


34 thoughts on “3.41: Believe It or Not

  1. Hm. I seems like Stefan is suddenly realizing that meeting his biological dad did not magically solve all of his problems… And of course they didn’t magically become the perfect family. Time to wake up! Poor him, though, I wish he had a little more luck in his life in terms of women and jobs…

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    1. Stefan is definitely changing his way of thinking… We’ll see what happens from here! And yes, he poor guy has the shittiest luck hahahaha.


  2. Aww i sense that Stefan still doesn’t feel whole. I have no idea what’s missing and I get the feeling neither does he. Hmm maybe what he needs is his own family? Everyone around him is moving on doing their own things and he’s stuck doing the same he’s always done. He nedds to move out and start his own life! It would do him good.

    I love the nickname Auggy! (wasn’t that it?) I’s so adorable. But I love Gus too. Maybe even more! 😀 Such a great chapter!

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    1. You make a really great point about Stefan. There’s still something missing in his life, but he can’t figure out what it is, or WHY he feels that way Hopefully he’ll figure it out soon!

      And I’m glad you like the nicknames! I think we need to have #TeamGus and #TeamAuggy 😛

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    1. OMG You made me laugh with that comment about Auggy. XD I will never look at that screenshot the same way again 😛

      And yes, Stefan is certainly starting to wise up a bit!


  3. Oh and…#TeamAuggy, cause Gus makes me think of fat beer-belly drunk fishermen who drown in lakes…xD or maybe the kid’s nickname could be Stin? Pronounced Sten? Not too bad I guess Auggy doesn’t sound like a guy’s name!

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  4. I’m not really liking Gus or Auggy… I’m all for #TeamAugust (my birth month!) Stefan needs to be able to find THE ONE, or I fear he may never be full… It almost reminds me of something my AP Lang teachers said once: That the reason we’re never really satisfied with things is because we will set a goal, and then once we achieve that goal, we will, shall we say, move the goalpost further and push ourselves more. In this case, I think that Stefan had always wanted to find his father, and now that’s he’s found it, he’s moved the goal post again and is looking for the next big thing in his life.

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    1. Stefan definitely is starting to realize that finding Josh didn’t magically solve all his problems! Now he just has to discover the root of those problems… and what he can do to fix them…

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    1. Haha thank you, but I totally can’t take credit for that zoo — I downloaded it from the gallery! I loved the big fake giraffes though. It was so cute!

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    1. Hi! Thank you for reading and commenting! I always love it when lurkers come out of the shadows and say hello 🙂

      I will try to check out your blog when I have a chance. Thank you again for reading!


  5. See, I caught myself thinking of the baby as Gusty at one point lol! Nice to see Stefan grow up a little. He just needs to focus on other people in his life than just his parents – most people his age don’t really contemplate their mom and dad that often, sheesh!

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    1. Stefan is definitely having a change in his perspective right now. He’s starting to realize that maybe his problems run deeper than his daddy issues 😉


  6. I like both teams! My Papa’s name is Gus, but Auggie is the name of the world’s cutest kid on Girls Meets World. So… distinguished man or adorable kid… I’ll figure it out then join the discussion over at the forums, lol.

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    1. Hahaha I love that you like both names 😀 Two out of the three POV characters in Gen 4 call him Gus, so I suppose #TeamGus technically wins… But I personally am #TeamAuggy, I must admit! 😛

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