3.38: Once and For All

I can’t believe that this week’s gone by so fast.

Or that I’m somehow still standing after all of it.

Practice, games, the kids, Colette… That’s already hard enough to juggle as-is. But with Josh here, it’s been, well… Even more crazy than usual, I guess.

But so worth it.

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Josh really is an awesome guy. He’s so nice, he’s got a great sense of humor, and he’s really good with my kids – even if Stefan and I have to act as interpreters between them.

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I don’t know if I’ll ever feel comfortable calling him my Papa… But I definitely think I can call him a friend. And that’s good enough for me.

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Still… It was kind of exciting to get the test results back. Not that it was a huge surprise or anything. But it gave us the real answer we’d been waiting for, once and for all.

Stefan was pretty much beside himself over the whole thing. And I was happy too. But… it felt a little weird at the same time, I guess.

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Especially when we told Mama and Papa.

I don’t think they were surprised either, of course. But it still felt so… final, now that we’ve got the test to back it up. And it was really awkward having to tell them.

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Papa just smiled. I know this has been hard on him… But he knows how I feel. We had a long talk about it a few days after Josh got here.

Josh may be my Vater. But Jonas is my Papa. Nothing will ever change that, no matter what.

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I wish Stefan could see that too.

Oh well.

Anyway, Mama was the one I was really worried about. She was quiet for a long time. It was like she couldn’t find the right words or something. And I wasn’t sure whether she was gonna start screaming or crying…

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But she didn’t do either.

She got to her feet, looked at both of us, and just said “I’m so happy for you.” She even almost smiled.

And even if it didn’t exactly sound like she meant it, I really think she did.

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Telling her how we planned to celebrate, well… That didn’t go quite as smoothly.

Josh is leaving in three days (well, four technically, but his flight is so early that I don’t really count the fourth). And we still haven’t gotten the whole family together to meet him. So we invited him over for dinner tomorrow night.

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And I wish I could say he was excited about the idea, but…

Let’s just say it took a little convincing.

And as for Mama, well… She didn’t completely explode, at least. But she’s definitely not happy.

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I knew this was a bad idea. I shouldn’t have let Stefan talk me into it. But it’s too late now.

I guess all I can do is hope it isn’t a complete disaster…

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36 thoughts on “3.38: Once and For All

    1. Hahahaha oh no, even #teamoptimism is giving up! Hey, you never know. It might be okay! 🙂 😛 Thanks for reading!


  1. Goodness I feel for Mari – having Josh at the dinner table will be a solid reminder of her shady past – hey isn’t he one of the guys she cheated on Humberto with??!!! #TeamTakeMyDinnerToGo – ain’t no way I wanna be present in that scenario!

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    1. That new team name is brilliant omg XD Yes, he is one of the guys she cheated on Humberto with! Josh’s very presence brings up a plethora of issues for Mari… Insecurity and fear about him “stealing” her sons away and a constant reminder of her past 😦

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      1. There is no doubt that this is going to be super awkward for all involved XD But the hope is that they’ll play nice for the twins’ sake 🙂 we’ll see Saturday…

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        1. lol, Stefan is going to be super excited and probably sense the tension but either get mad or just ignore it, just happy, Tobi will be stressed, everyone else will be wishing they were elsewhere, Josh will…hm. I don’t know he doesn’t like Mari, and it’s clear Mari will be hating herself over and over during this dinner. In fact I think the kids should have their own table set up elsewhere. This is gonna get ugly, and that table doesn’t have enough room for all of them! O.O

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  2. Dinner with Josh? Sounds great, but with Mari’s worried look, I’m not sure if this going to work out. You guys better not serve Angry Flaming Spaghetti and the Boiler Room drinks. If Mari gets out of hand during dinner and there are lemons and limes around, she’ll be following this quote by Cathy Guisewite, “When life gives you lemons, squirt someone in the eye.” Don’t squirt lemon or lime juice in anyone’s eyes, please. #TeamOptimism is by my side.

    On the other hand, Mari has received star treatment from Medicine Man Matt in my game. She had the Itchy Plumbob and Matt got out two apples from her stomach.

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    1. Hahaha maybe that’s Mari’s real problem all along… Itchy Plumbob and apple blockage making her irritable? XD We’ll find out Saturday how dinner goes… Hopefully no lemons will be squirted!

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  3. *cheers* This update made me really happy for some reason. I think everyone was more optimistic in this chapter. Even Mari. #TeamBabySteps

    Favorite line:
    Oh well.
    Yay! Cheerful Tobi!


    It’s funny how your chapters make me dance and cry in equal measure. Well, that’s a lie. I do more dancing. 😀 I guess that’s the issue with reading awesome work. You feel stuff. Which is totally a good thing BTW. 🙂

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    1. I love your comments Spottydog! They make ME dance! ^_^ I think you’re right about the baby steps 🙂 Mari is getting a little better. Everyone is. Very slowly. Hahaha

      Thank you so much for reading! ^_^

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    1. I “liked” this, even though I strongly disagree with “Damn Stefan” 😛 I agree with the rest though XD


  4. Tobi has such a good head screwed on his shoulders. The way he’s looking at this whole thing is so right! The comment about Josh being their Vater and Jonas being their Papa was spot on. Too bad Stefan is being such a stubborn kid about it. Honestly, grew up dude and realise who raised you… (you know I love Stefan haha! But he’s so childish about this whole ordeal!)

    As for the upcoming dinner… Oh boy 😀 Should be fun.

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    1. Yes, I love Tobi. He is a really good kid (and he actually has the good TRAIT too!). I loved writing that line about Vater vs Papa too 🙂 An important distinction that I wish Stefan could see! (And I love him too. But like with Mari, it’s a tough love hahaha)

      We’ll see on Saturday how dinner goes… 😉 Thanks so much for reading!


  5. It couldn’t be a better timing for this chapter to be published. I just caught up on the Thoreau Legacy so now I’m all caught up on both. What should i read now, i wonder… Hehe 😉

    I wonder how Mari REALLY feels. Did the mean that “almost” smile? I can understand how this effects her though. First they didn’t tell before two days before he got there that Josh was visiting. And now they’ve invited him over to dinner without asking? (or did i get that wrong?). It’s just wrong in my mind.

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    1. Yes, the boys keep doing things without asking Mari lmao they are not very considerate…

      So excited you caught up with the Thoreaus!!! Love that story (even if I’m biased :P)

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