3.28: Has to Be

Is it really possible that the answer I’ve been searching for my WHOLE life has been on a little 6x9cm card this whole time?

I wonder how many years this has been right under our noses…

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I gave up hoping that I’d find my real Papa a long time ago, ever since Mama told me the truth. And I guess, hard as it was, I just learned to accept it. I’d never find him. It was impossible. Hopeless.

And I would just have to deal with that.

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But when I looked at that card… I felt something. Something I’d never felt before.

And when I confronted Tobi about it, I could see in his eyes that he did, too. Why else would he have kept that old thing? He got rid of the rest of his baseball cards years ago…

I just can’t believe he kept this from me. He keeps trying to play it off as not a big deal. He’s saying it’s all in my head.

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And at first, I almost believed him. I mean, it would be CRAZY, right?

But… I’ve kinda been doing some research on this guy. This Joshua Yuen. Could he really be my Vater?

I mean obviously the first clue is his face. Right here on this card.

His hair’s the exact same shade as Tobi’s. Skin too. And according to his stats, Joshua is 6’4”. Tobi’s just an inch or two shy of that. And he’s always been the tallest one in the family…

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And as for myself, well, I’ve been studying my face in the mirror more than I think I ever have. If anyone saw me, they’d probably think I’m vain as Hell. But the more I look, the more I see it. We have the same mouth. The same smile. Almost the same nose, too.

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I’ve been looking up some of his interviews online too. And his voice… It’s really deep. Warm, y’know?

Like mine.

And speaking of interviews… Well, I think I finally found it – the one thing that makes me SURE it’s him. It HAS to be.

Grandpa was able to help me dig up some old paper copies of some American newspapers down at the archives. I just made up some bogus excuse about researching for my dissertation… Worked like a charm.

And look what I found. It’s from an old interview, from about 18 years ago…


I think I’ve re-read that interview about a hundred times, putting it all together.

He said he was in Windenburg during the summer, six years before this interview… That’s the summer right before Tobi and I were born. Our birthday’s in May. So that would mean that sometime in August, Mama would have had to…

Well, I don’t wanna think about it too much. But you know what I’m saying.

And “not in the best place”? “Young love gone wrong”? It doesn’t take a genius to figure out what that could mean. I mean, back when Katrina dumped me, it was awful. And I definitely did some things I’m not proud of…

Anyway, it all fits. All of it.

I really don’t think I can believe it. I mean holy shit. I’ve been dreaming of finding my Papa for about as long as I can remember. And now, after all these years… I think I’ve finally done it.

It has to be him.

It has to be.

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Thanks to JoieWilder for writing the interview!

41 thoughts on “3.28: Has to Be

  1. Oh yay Josh will get married to somebody who’s on the same page! Well, has married… Is married – hopefully? 😀 All these timelines are fascinating. I love the puzzle you guys have created 🙂

    Also, how exciting for Stefan! Seems like his face has lit up now that he has hope of finding his dad.

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    1. Haha yes I’m so happy for Josh! Joie is very kind by allowing my story to spoil a bit of Josh’s future haha. And yes this is huge for Stefan! I think is the happiest we’ve seen him 🙂


  2. Oh no, sounds like Stefan thinks that the “young love gone wrong” means him and Mari. I doubt it means that though since they were never an item.


    1. Oh no, that’s not what he thinks 🙂 he was just making the connection that when Katrina dumped him, he slept around a bit, so he is making the (correct) assumption that Josh had sex with Mari to get over a breakup. Just using it as more evidence for his theory! 😛

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  3. Omg Stefan, you smart cookie, you!

    I’m actually really excited about this. I mean, nothing has really been solved yet, and I kinda doubt that Stefan will let it rest until he founds out as much as he can about Josh and the truth. But it’s a step in the right direction, I think …

    Also, super happy Josh is going to find love again ❤ I never cared much for Alison.

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    1. (Don’t tell Joie, but neither did I haha I always felt he deserved better! ❤ so it makes me happy to know he will find it someday!) and I'm glad you're excited and happy for Stefan!!! So am I ^_^

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  4. Oh, smart Stefan! Working it all out. And now I don’t think your so obsessed now I have your point of view. I can’t wait for you to meet your father…

    Awesome update, Citizen! Sorry for the short comment, I have to run.

    (And I was totally #TeamAlison. I apparently have been spoiled. I wasn’t there yet, lol! 😉 )

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  5. (sigh) Ok…I’m happy that he’s feeling hopeful and happier, but…please…can we just get this over with? LOL Stefan, go to The Bluffs on said date, go up to him and say, “Josh, you are my father,” in your BEST Darth Vader voice (pun totally intended :-p ), have your reunion, move to America with him and your wannabe family and live happily ever after the end. Just go! LOL

    Sorry. I should be more sensitive. Daddy issues are tough and lifelong…I know. He’s kinda reminding me a bit of young Mari back in the days when all she did was whine about how everyone was doing her wrong and she was such a victim. I’m ready for the next thing!

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    1. Lol well that wouldn’t work because that interview with Josh about him going to the bluffs was from about 17 years ago… XD But I get the sentiment. And ouch, poor Stefan. You are as ruthless with him as some readers are with Mari lmao. Hopefully you aren’t disappointed with the fact that the entire rest of this generation involves daddy drama… So… Hold on for another couple months? Hahaha

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  6. The next 30 chapters are going to be torture? Oh my, I have to prepare myself! At some point I was just SO done with Mari’s shit and I fear that feeling coming back with Stefan, haha. At least it will be 30 chapters of wonderfully written torture!


    1. Haha I had a very bad feeling some readers would have Mari-like feelings toward Stefan 😦 Looks like it’s already coming true!


    1. Wooh! I seriously think you get some sort of reward for being so quick XD You’re awesome!!! New chapter is coming in about half an hour ^_^

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    1. Wait, who was? Josh? Nope, no love there. Just sex XD The “love gone wrong” is referring to something from the story he’s from (Joie’s Legacy). Basically his long-time gf dumped him and his coping mechanism was to sleep around…. which led to him sleeping with Mari haha (that’s what Stefan was thinking of too. When Katrina dumped Stefan, he slept around, so he realizes that it’s possible Josh slept with Mari as a similar coping mechanism (which is true!)

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  7. Yes, more kids than just the twins! 😀 Josh is my favorite character in Joie’s legacy so I am totally fangirling over having his DNA in mine, and getting some secrets about his future ^_^


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