Is it really possible that the answer I’ve been searching for my WHOLE life has been on a little 6x9cm card this whole time?
I wonder how many years this has been right under our noses…
I gave up hoping that I’d find my real Papa a long time ago, ever since Mama told me the truth. And I guess, hard as it was, I just learned to accept it. I’d never find him. It was impossible. Hopeless.
And I would just have to deal with that.
But when I looked at that card… I felt something. Something I’d never felt before.
And when I confronted Tobi about it, I could see in his eyes that he did, too. Why else would he have kept that old thing? He got rid of the rest of his baseball cards years ago…
I just can’t believe he kept this from me. He keeps trying to play it off as not a big deal. He’s saying it’s all in my head.
And at first, I almost believed him. I mean, it would be CRAZY, right?
But… I’ve kinda been doing some research on this guy. This Joshua Yuen. Could he really be my Vater?
I mean obviously the first clue is his face. Right here on this card.
His hair’s the exact same shade as Tobi’s. Skin too. And according to his stats, Joshua is 6’4”. Tobi’s just an inch or two shy of that. And he’s always been the tallest one in the family…
And as for myself, well, I’ve been studying my face in the mirror more than I think I ever have. If anyone saw me, they’d probably think I’m vain as Hell. But the more I look, the more I see it. We have the same mouth. The same smile. Almost the same nose, too.
I’ve been looking up some of his interviews online too. And his voice… It’s really deep. Warm, y’know?
And speaking of interviews… Well, I think I finally found it – the one thing that makes me SURE it’s him. It HAS to be.
Grandpa was able to help me dig up some old paper copies of some American newspapers down at the archives. I just made up some bogus excuse about researching for my dissertation… Worked like a charm.
And look what I found. It’s from an old interview, from about 18 years ago…
I think I’ve re-read that interview about a hundred times, putting it all together.
He said he was in Windenburg during the summer, six years before this interview… That’s the summer right before Tobi and I were born. Our birthday’s in May. So that would mean that sometime in August, Mama would have had to…
Well, I don’t wanna think about it too much. But you know what I’m saying.
And “not in the best place”? “Young love gone wrong”? It doesn’t take a genius to figure out what that could mean. I mean, back when Katrina dumped me, it was awful. And I definitely did some things I’m not proud of…
Anyway, it all fits. All of it.
I really don’t think I can believe it. I mean holy shit. I’ve been dreaming of finding my Papa for about as long as I can remember. And now, after all these years… I think I’ve finally done it.
It has to be him.
It has to be.
Thanks to JoieWilder for writing the interview!