I almost can’t believe it.
Last night, Colette and I… The two of us, we… Woah.
I decided to take Stefan and Papa’s advice… “Go for it”, y’know?
But I guess I kinda took their advice farther than I was planning to.
And it was… Well, a lot of things. Definitely not quite as perfect as all those dirty videos like to make it out to be. It was scary as Hell. Kinda awkward at first. A lot messier than I thought it’d be.
And absolutely fucking amazing.
We laid together for a long time afterward. Falling asleep for a while, then waking up and deciding to try again… It was incredible.
I just keep thinking about her. The way she feels. Smells. Tastes. Everything.
What if it was really our last night together?
We walked down to the lake this morning, and sat together to watch the sunrise. Neither of us said a word. We didn’t have to. It was perfect.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt closer to anyone in my entire life. Ever.
And now, in just a couple hours, we’ll be saying goodbye. For who knows how long. And it’s just not fair…
This can’t really be the end, can it?
It feels too much like a beginning.