Interlude: Breaking Point

The downstairs lights were still on when Mari stumbled home.

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The effects of the alcohol had still not quite worn off, and her mind was caught in a bit of a fog as she tentatively opened the front door.

“Mãe?” She called out uncertainly as she crossed the front entryway. “Dad?”

It was past 2am – surely her parents would have been asleep by now. And even if Stefan or Tobias had needed a changing or feeding, her parents would always take care of it in the nursery, or their own bedroom. But not downstairs.

“Guess again.” A familiar voice called from the living room, harsher and colder than she’d ever heard it before.

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“Lina?”

Her younger sister sat on the large white sofa, staring daggers at Mari as she entered. She said nothing.

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Mari knew instantly that something was very wrong. She felt her stomach drop as she looked into her sister’s narrowed eyes. “Why aren’t you at home? W-what are you doing here?”

At last, Lina replied. “Mãe and dad called me a few hours ago.” Her voice was soft and calm as she spoke, but there was a slight edge to her tone that did nothing to help Mari’s unease. “They wanted me to come over and check on you… and the babies.”

Mari’s brow furrowed in confusion. “W-what?” But that doesn’t make any sense…

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“They said you weren’t answering the house phone, so they tried your cell… Straight to voicemail.” She sighed. “So they got nervous and wanted me to head over and make sure everything was okay.”

Mari’s heart began to race. What is she saying?! Mãe and dad… Aren’t here…? “B-but I don’t –”

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“Mari, where’s Gabriela tonight?”

The young woman’s still-foggy mind fumbled for a moment before finding the answer. “A sleepover.” She recalled at last. “With some friends from school.”

Lina nodded. “And where are mãe and dad?”

“Uncle Paolo’s birthday party…” Mari’s eyes slowly began to widen with each word she spoke. “That was tonight?!”

“And where are the babies, Mari?”

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Mari felt as though her heart had stopped beating. “They’re… Oh my fucking God.

“How many times did mãe and dad remind you, Mariana?!” Her sister suddenly snapped. “How many times did you ‘yes’ them to death about watching the boys tonight?!”

Oh my God…

OH MY GOD.

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When Mari had finally emerged from her room earlier that evening, she’d assumed her parents had simply gone to bed early.

But they had left.

And then so had she.

More than four hours ago.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Mari raced out of the room and up the stairs as quickly as her legs could carry her. She felt tears already stinging the corners of her eyes as she choked back a wave of nausea that washed over her.

Please be okay. Please be okay. Please be okay.

With an echoing slam, Mari threw open the door to the twins’ nursery, terrified of what she would find on the other side.

But she found nothing.

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Both cribs were empty.

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Tobias and Stefan were gone.

This time, Mari’s attempts to fight back her nausea were not quite as successful. She swallowed hard against the bitter burning of bile rising up in the back of her throat, just barely managing to hold down the contents of her stomach.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. WHERE ARE THEY?!

Mari could no longer breathe. What had she done?! How had this happened?!

The sound of calm and even footsteps at the doorway gave her the answer instantly.

You!” Mari rounded on her sister, her entire body trembling. “What the FUCK did you do?! WHERE ARE THEY?!”

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Lina simply shrugged, completely unfazed by the outburst. “Somewhere a Hell of a lot safer than here with you.” She said softly.

“Don’t play this fucking game with me, Lina!” Mari balled her hands into fists, raising them threateningly toward her sister. “Is this some kind of sick joke?!”

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The younger girl sighed. “They’re with Ryan.” She said at last. “Okay? They’re fine.”

“Ryan?!” Mari stared at her sister, dumbfounded. “Your fucking moron of a boyfriend has never so much as changed a diaper. Why the Hell are you trusting him with my kids?!”

“Oh, they’re your kids?” Lina shot back, her voice dripping with sarcasm. “Whoops, sorry. Guess it’s pretty easy to forget, since you don’t do shit for them.

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She shook her head in disgust before continuing. “And now this?! Jesus, Mari! Do you realize what could have happened if mãe and dad hadn’t called me?”

“I know!” Mari felt dangerously close to vomiting yet again. “I fucked up, okay?! I fuck everything up! And I’m sorry! But… that’s no excuse for kidnapping my fucking kids.” Mari narrowed her eyes threateningly. “We are driving to your house right now and bringing them back.”

Lina shook her head. “No one’s going anywhere.” She said simply. “And no one’s ‘kidnapping’ anyone.”

“Oh really?” Mari crossed her arms, her lips curling into a cruel smile. “Well, we’ll see what the police have to say about that.”

For just one moment, a flicker of panic seemed to flash in Lina’s eyes. But then it was gone as quickly as it had come. “Sure.” She said with a shrug. “Right after we talk to them about all the neglect and child endangerment going on around here. I’ve already got three witnesses.”

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Mari’s face paled. “Y-you wouldn’t. Y-you wouldn’t fucking dare.”

“Try me.”

Mari said nothing as she stared into her sister’s cold gaze. She’s not kidding. Fuck. It was a few moments before she finally found her voice.

“Look… I’ve learned my lesson, okay?” Behind her anger, Mari’s voice was almost pleading. “You made your point. It worked. You scared the shit out of me… And it won’t happen again, alright? I promise.” She made a show of crossing her heart as she spoke.

The younger girl just rolled her eyes. “Mari, do you seriously think this is just about what happened tonight?  This has been a long time coming, trust me.”

What?!”

“You heard me.”

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For a moment, Mari wasn’t sure whether she wanted to cry or scream. She settled on the latter. “Why are you doing this?!” Her angry shrieks echoed through the empty house. “What do you want from me?!”

“I want you to GET HELP!” Lina threw her arms in the air as her face contorted in rage. “You are sick! You have been for a long time. And this has to stop, for Christ’s sake! Think of your kids!”

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Sick?! What the fuck is that supposed to mean?! Are you saying I’m fucking crazy?!”

Lina shook her head. “I don’t know what you are. But something’s wrong. This isn’t you!”

“Will you listen to yourself, Lina?! God, you sound just like mãe and dad…” And Humberto too…

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“Exactly! And you never listen to a word they say! They’ve put up with your shit for way too long.” She shook her head slowly. “But I won’t. Not anymore. Maybe now you’ll finally listen.”

Mari’s head was spinning, and this time it was not because of the alcohol. “Why doesn’t anyone get it?” She muttered half to herself. “I can’t fix this. I’ve tried, and I can’t! This is who I am!”

“That is BULLSHIT, Mari. This isn’t you! Maybe this is who you think you are, or think you’re supposed to be… But it’s not!”

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Lina took a deep, shuddering breath before continuing. “And I can’t stand to see you like this anymore… Treating mom and dad like shit all the time, ignoring poor Gabriela, neglecting your own kidsHating yourself the way you do…” She paused. “It’s not right, Mari. You’re better than that. But you’re never going to see it for yourself unless you let someone help you.”

Mari had a dozen venomous replies ready on the tip of her tongue… But none of them would come. She said nothing for several long moments as she let the weight of her sister’s words wash over her.

“Lina…” Mari’s voice shook as she broke the silence. “I-I… I don’t… I don’t know what to do, okay? I’m fucked up. I’m… broken. I’m… I don’t even know anymore.” She felt tears beginning to trickle down her flushed cheeks. “But I don’t know how to make it better. Every time I try, I just… I can’t.”

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The younger girl sighed, and held her face in her hand for a moment. “Maybe that’s because you can’t do this on your own. Maybe you need to realize that you have a family who loves you, Mari. Who wants to help you. But only if you’ll let us.”

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Lina bowed her head for a moment, as though in apology.  “And… until you get that help… I can’t leave my nephews here with you. This isn’t a healthy place for them. It’s not safe. It’s not right…”

“Exactly.” Mari replied, her voice barely above a whisper. “Maybe you’re right. Maybe it really is better this way… I’m so afraid, Lina. I can’t be around them. I don’t want to fuck up their lives. I don’t want them to see how fucking worthless I am…” She paused to allow a soft sob to escape her trembling lips. “I can’t let them hate me. You can hate me. Gabriela can. Our parents can… But not them. Never them.” With the back of her hand, she reached up to wipe away a few of her tears. “So go ahead and take them. You’d be a Hell of a lot better for them than me anyway.”

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Her sister simply sighed in exasperation. “Mari. Please. Listen to yourself. The way you’re talking… It’s not normal. It’s not healthy.” Lina shook her head. “But you can get better. I know you can. And I know you’ll do it.” It wasn’t a question, or a demand. Lina spoke as though it were absolute fact. “Because I know how much you love your kids.”

“But I — ”

“But nothing. This is just temporary, Mari. To give mãe and dad a break… And give you time to start figuring some things out. Just please, meet us halfway this time. You can’t put this off any longer.”

Mari said nothing. It was as though she’d forgotten how to speak. Or think. Or breathe. So she simply stared.

“Look, I need to get back home and help Ryan with the boys.” Lina sighed softly. “Mãe and dad will be back in the morning. I’m sorry it has to be like this, Mari. But please, just… Think about what I said.” She crossed into the hall, then turned to glance over her shoulder as she continued.

“If you won’t do it for yourself — Or for me, or Gabriela, or mãe, or dad — then do it for Tobias and Stefan. They need their mother. They need you — the real you… But you have to help us find her again.”

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Without a second glance, Lina turned and walked away, disappearing from sight. The only trace of her presence that lingered was the soft echoing of her footsteps on the stairs.

Mari listened as they grew fainter and fainter, then finally vanished with the sound of the slamming front door.

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47 Responses to Interlude: Breaking Point

  1. CitizenErased14 says:

    #TeamLina, anyone?

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  2. audreyfld says:

    Yes!!!!! This was her rock bottom. Baby steps. Maybe she can find her way back. Nothing else was ever important enough to her before.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Yup! Exactly ^_^ Many people have expressed that it seemed as though a mother’s love wasn’t enough to snap Mari out of it… but quite the opposite — it’s the ONLY thing! She just needed an extra push 🙂

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  3. Senna says:

    Damn! This chapter was a hard-hitter! 😮

    Still, I find myself agreeing with Lina. Mari does need some kind of help, and she needs to be a mother to her twins.

    I can’t help but feel as if things aren’t going to end so well for her, though… :/

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      Have a little faith in me! I can be nice too hehehe. But yeah, this was probably the most intense chapter I’ve ever written hahaha

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  4. silentwolfy101 says:

    Finally, somebody to help her…
    #TeamLina

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  5. theplumbob says:

    Sooo, with all the BS Mari’s been telling herself about the best thing for the boys being them being away from her, her first reaction to when Lina took them away was essentially “give me back my kids, you bitch”? How conveniently selective, Mari. Hypocrite much?

    I know this won’t happen, but personally I would love to see Lina raise the kids. Somehow I find the idea of Mari becoming a model mother in the future hard to digest. The girl aggrevates me too much lol.

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    • CitizenErased14 says:

      You aren’t alone there! Pammiechick expressed a similar desire on the forums. It does make me a bit wilty-flower, because I’m really nervous about how you guys are gonna react to Gen 3… But I already know I can’t please everyone, so if nothing else, hopefully you like the twins! 🙂 (They are super cute, btw)

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      • theplumbob says:

        I’ll probably never be a fan of Mari, but I’ll always be a fan of your writing ❤

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        • CitizenErased14 says:

          Well that much I do appreciate ^_^ There are some positive things coming for Mari in Gen 3, so I do hope that you are able to feel a bit of happiness for her! And if not, that’s also okay 🙂 Focus on the cuteness of those little boys XD

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    • maladi777 says:

      Same here. I don’t want Mari anywhere near the kids. Lina raising them sounds as the right punishment for Mari. I can’t find a fragment of sympathy for her in me. Sorry. If something happened to the boys, while she was getting drunk and doing who knows what and where, there would be no second chances. I know a couple who lost a baby due to a stupid accident and they were far more responsible than Mari. There’s nothing she can do make up for it. And honestly, I hope Humberto is happily married to some nice caring lady by now.

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  6. Spottydog714 says:

    FINALLY! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY! *screams and bounces off walls* #TeamLina all the way…
    I can finally see the top of the mountain the Mari has been trying to climb.
    I’ve never wanted to hug a character as much as I want to hug Lina now!
    This was always gonna happen. Mari needed tough love.
    I genuinely crying, Citizen!
    Really, I am!

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  7. Virtualee says:

    ::Lina drops the mic and leaves the stage::

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  8. Jes2G says:

    WOOT! This was exciting! I needed some popcorn or something while reading this! I love how you kinda came out of left field with this one. You surprised us and DEFINITELY surprised Mari. Love it! I had a situation with an heir one time and used a sibling to give a push. Those unsuspecting people/conversations are always the ones that are the most powerful!

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  9. JoieWilder says:

    This is exactly what I’ve been waiting for, and you sure as hell delivered! #TeamLina all the way. Someone FINALLY did what Alex and Jade were too “nice” to do – stand up to Mari. I really hope that she’s finally going to get professional help now. Tobias and Stefan deserve a mother.

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  10. iveretree says:

    I hope this means that things are about to get better? Pretty please?

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  11. rinellie says:

    Yay! I hope this is enough for Mari to actually start making some changes in her life. Lina’s one cool chick.

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  12. kaffepigen says:

    I sincerely hope this will open Mari’s eyes and she will get help. The boys deserve so much better, and I know Lina will take great care of them. But I also believe they need their mother. She just needs help to get better and when the time is right, she’ll be ready for them to return home again. And then she’ll be a good mother and not go out and sleep around any more. Maybe even call Humberto? I really hope she does. 🙂

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  13. Simslover163 says:

    As I read this, I felt like some going to #TeamGabriela, as I agree with Gabriela that Mari needs help or #TeamHelpMari as we need to strive to help Mari. Mari seriously needs help or else child support could come and take the babies away.

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  14. Well, we are going in the right direction….but Lina, sweetie…you really need to take lessons on this kind of thing. You push, push, push, and she’ll go right over the edge. Taking her kids away, while that angered her, those voices will come back, tell her it’s for the best, that this is best for her kids, and she will continue down that dark path. Also, you were REALLY harsh I think, even if it was needed. TOO HARSH tbh!

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  15. theceltygirly says:

    “Both cribs were empty.”
    I got chills at that.
    Oh, this was so powerful and emotional. Lina did the right thing, totally harsh, but probably needed. Some people can’t be coddled. Serving up a fresh plate of reality.

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  16. skcaga6 says:

    About damn time! Go Lina!

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