I knew it. I knew I’m no good. I can’t change. I can’t. No matter how hard I try, or how much Humberto wants me to, or how much I want to, I just CAN’T.
I went out alone tonight. Humberto was tired from work and felt like staying in. And I should have stayed with him. But I didn’t. Because I’m a fucking screwup.
Miguel and Natalia barely call me anymore. Say I’m “boring” now that I’m hanging out with Humberto so much. And I guess I can’t blame them for feeling that way…
Still, it sure felt lonely tonight at that bar without them.
But I wasn’t lonely for long.
I don’t know why I felt so bad about it after. I mean, Humberto’s not my boyfriend. We aren’t exclusive. We aren’t… anything, really. No matter what he seems to think. And no matter how much I want it.
I hadn’t been with anyone else but him in weeks. I thought I could be good. I thought I could change for him. But tonight just proves it. I can’t. I’m a slut. That’s who I am.
“Old habits die hard.”
That’s what they always say, isn’t it?
Soooo…this proves she is addicted, I am if Humberto cant cure you…well then you need to get professional help. PS how do you do the journal writing in TS4 once they are adults?
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Yup. She’s literally a sex addict, unfortunately. Whenever she is feeling sad and lonely (aka all the time) she “needs” the sex to feel better. And with Humberto unavailable that night and her feeling lonely at the bar… Yeah.
And as for the journal, it is cc I downloaded ^_^ I don’t remember where from though 😛 Just be careful — if they leave the desk, they bring the journal with them and end up READING it rather than writing in it. They’ll only write if they are seated at a desk with it. And if a more comfortable chair is available, they will get up and take the journal there instead. It’s kind of annoying sometimes hehe but it’s very useful cc (when the simmies decide to cooperate, that is :P)
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Its from MTS..I downloaded it myself
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Thanks for the info! I forgot where I’d found it 🙂
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http://modthesims.info/d/545512
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Hff… Oh Mari. You’re not a slut, you’re behavior WAS just slut-like.
That’s meant to reassure you, BTW.
I am terrible at compliments. 😀
Attempt 2:
You’re not like that anymore, I mean you went weeks! You should be proud of that!
Great update, Citizen. 🙂
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Thanks Spottydog! And yes, Mari has a hard time separating her behavior and her identity. She thinks her actions define her. She needs to learn that you can be a good person and still make mistakes. *shakes head sadly*
Thank you for reading!
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You’re welcome! 🙂
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Oh no, Mari! you could have done it…. booo. Now I am sad. I wonder what Humberto will say or if she will ever tell him. Maybe she’ll just leave, that does sound like her… just never call him again.
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You will find out relatively soon where things are headed with Mariberto, given this recent development. And yes, writing this made me feel sad too 😦 Oh Mari…
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I guess she hasn’t hit rock bottom yet…. Not sure Humberto will be around when she does. I hope so.
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A slippery slope for poor Mari, that’s for sure! (By the way, thank you so much for reading!!! I see you liking my chapters but this is your first comment ^_^ So let me take this opportunity to let you know how much I appreciate you reading! <3)
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I have been reading since I found Dust to Dust! I do tend to lurk a lot – sorry.
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There is nothing wrong with lurking! 🙂 I just got excited to have the chance to say hi and thanks! ^_^
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So… is there anyone in the town besides Grim she haven’t had sex yet? Just curious.
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LOL! Are you talking literally in-game, or in the story? 😉 Hehehe. Game-Mari has only slept with the people we’ve SEEN her sleep with in the story. So that’s… *counts* 5? Hahaha but story-Mari has probably banged about half of Windenburg (and probably some tourists too!). So sad 😦
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Tourists for sure, they’re flash in the pan folks. All the tourists! There’s no reason to know or care who you’re with. Sigh, Mari….
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Oh, Mari… 😦
That’s really all I can say at the end of this chapter.
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Agreed 😦 I feel so mean. Why did I make this poor girl so tormented?? Haha
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Mari, Mari, quite contrary. GET SOME THERAPY. Did you forget when you were normal? Because that was a thing.
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I love this comment so much hahahaha She certainly seems to have forgotten, doesn’t she?
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Mar-Mar… *disappointed shake of head*
*heavy sigh* I think she’s finally starting to feel like Jade did when she and Alex actually got together, with the whole “feeling bad” thing. I just hope this didn’t completely ruin everything with Humberto…
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You will see soon what happens!
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Hmmmm…
(Things are shaping up quite nicely for theory #89284. Methinks I’m going to be quite mad in a few chapters if I’m right…)
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I really wanna know what theory #89284 is!
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Heh, wouldn’t ya? LOL
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No no no! Mari what are you doing? I wonder what Humberto will say to this when he finds out. They may not have said it in words, but they are definitely boyfriend and girlfriend!
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You’ll see soon what will happen! Thank you for reading ❤
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By the way how do I follow your blog??
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Oh never mind haha. I’m already following it 😛
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On the plus side, she doesn’t like her behavior? For a while there she was enjoying being all destructive to herself so maybe she’s ready to change? #longliveoptimism?
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Amanda….I swear gen 3 had better be better cause it’s the only thing that’s keeping me from grabbing my bow…
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I promise things are better in Gen 3! Even Mari!
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I doubt the Mari part…o.O
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Just wait!
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Sweetheart, you need help breaking this cycle. Seriously.
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😦
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#mylifeveststayson
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#smart 😛 Hehehe (You are doing so well dealing with all this drama in one sitting, I’m impressed you haven’t given up and/or thrown your computer out the window in frustration at Mari XD)
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