2.27: Matter of Time

I’m such a fucking idiot.

I knew I would fuck it all up eventually. I always do.

It was just a matter of time.

I should have tried harder to warn him. I knew trying to be friends would be a huge mistake. But it’s too late now. Way too late.

I thought last night was just gonna be a normal trip to the movies. We’d gone tons of times before. No big deal, right?

02-10-16_8-25-50 PM

Wrong.

I don’t know what the Hell came over me. He just turned to me and started staring. Looking at me like he… I dunno. But no guy has looked at me like that in a long time.

02-10-16_8-25-25 PM

Damn it, he’s just so sweet and genuine and strong and sexy and…

I couldn’t help myself.

02-10-16_8-30-31 PM

And it only got worse from there.

He started spewing all this cheesy romantic shit, and I totally fell for it. Hook, line, and sinker.

We ended up back at his place, and then next thing I knew…

02-10-16_8-35-10 PM

It was the first time I’ve screwed anyone while sober. Ever.

And oh my God, it was good. More than good.

Intimate. Beautiful. Amazing.

Maybe the best I’ve ever had.

Shit.

I can’t do this. We can’t do this.

I waited until he was fast asleep and tried to pull myself away – sneak out before he’d even notice I was gone.

But God damn it. One look at him, and I just couldn’t.

02-11-16_8-49-19 PM

For the first time in my entire life, I spent the night in someone’s arms.

And it felt so damn good.

Fuck.

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Featuring Humberto from VirtuaLee’s Cursed Beauty !

 

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43 thoughts on “2.27: Matter of Time

    1. Hehe well, in Mari’s eyes, they DID go horribly wrong… 😛 Poor Mari. She is so broken. *sigh* (also, this is your first comment on my legacy! Yay NoaLyn! <3)

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  1. “Damn it, he’s just so sweet and genuine and strong and sexy and…” DAG NABBIT MARI… finish your sentences..hahahahahaahaha – ok I will finish it for her and….FIIINNEEEEE

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  2. (sigh) I wish I understood. What is it she’s after? I mean, she beats herself up for being a whore, so she clearly doesn’t really want to be that way, but that’s the only way she sees herself. Is she trying to be a martyr? What is she trying to prove? What is she running from? How messed up is she really? lol, rhetorical question, of course, but geez girl! Just run with it and be happy! No one is going to make fun of you or whatever you think is going to happen! Hmmm…what DOES she think is going to happen if she suddenly turns normal and happy?

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    1. Okay I know you said rhetorical, but… XD (I won’t get too carried away haha). But the first thing you said is Mari’s biggest issue — she has turned herself into a whore and thinks that’s “who she is” and that she’s too “fucked up” to be happy/deserve happiness. And she is already predicting disaster, I think.

      She is extremely emotionally disturbed with a very warped vision of herself and her situation. This will sound funny (I know I’ve mentioned this to someone else before, but I don’t remember if it was you haha), but I have a friend who has a Masters degree in psychology and also has gone through very dark, almost Mari-like times. She and I have had many long conversations about Mari and her fragile emotional state and its actually kind of “fun”/eye-opening to develop her various mental/emotional struggles/problems/issues. 😛

      Now the question is… How much longer will all these issues last? 😉

      (Oh look, I wrote a novel anyway -_- Hahaha I actually love discussing Mari’s issues. I’m weird :P)

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      1. “How long will it last” is inconsequential. The important question is how in the world will she come out of this?! I’m sure hunky Humberto will have something to do with it, but…he has a loooooooot of work to do! And he has no idea LOL.

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        1. Also very accurate! There have been jokes made before about Mari needing therapy, but… She really, truly does. But can she ever be convinced to finally get the help she needs? *dramatic music*

          Sorry, I love my dramatic music XD

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          1. lol, you can have your music as long as I can have my announcer voice…and all my other voices lol. But, yeah…she really does need help. You could honestly take this one scenario and make it it’s own story because things like this take time, but…for the purposes of legacyness, I’m sure we’ll see her recovering faster than usual lol.

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  3. Maybe I’m a fool, but I’m gonna let myself jump on this ship! XD This was too sweet. I really love the subtle note that she didn’t cross anything out when she was describing her time with him. I think that’s really telling. She’s learning to trust again!

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    1. There has definitely been a bit of a change! I’m really glad you picked up on the fact that she barely crossed anything out. I think this is the most honest we’ve seen Mari since she was a teen! 🙂

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    1. Hahaha thank you so much for reading!!! And commenting! 🙂 I’m so happy you are enjoying it ^_^ I update every-other day, so you won’t have too long to wait for more updates. Thank you again for reading! It means a lot!

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  4. For some reason this chapter is hilarious. Maybe it’s because of the way Mari feels about actual feelings. I feel that I’m stepping on the Mariberto ship. I’m so gonna regret that. Also, looking at the actual legacy part, how many days has she got to adulthood, has she maxed any skills and completed any aspirations? Okay, sorry for the immense amount of unrelated questions each chapter, I just like to know these things. Feel free to not answer if you’re too busy or don’t know off the top of your head.

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    1. Hahaha I can answer your questions 😛 I have turned aging off in my game for now, because all of this stuff after the Diego breakup takes place within a year. If I had aging on right now, Mari would already be an adult! Haha But aging will be turned back on again soon as we move forward in time more 🙂 I want the pace to be “realistic”. As for skills and aspirations, Mari is halfway though her Renaissance Sim aspiration 🙂 She does not have any skills maxed out, but she’s level 5 in several of them. Programming, Handiness, Gardening, and Piano are her level 5 skills, if I recall correctly 🙂

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  5. Yay! Mari, don’t lose him… Please, don’t lose him… Please………….. I’m begging you………………………..

    PLEASE DON’T BE EVIL THIS TIME, Citizen! I don’t know if my poor wittle heart can take it…

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    1. LMAO! That first part of your comment was the best 😛 Poor Mari does not know how to deal with happiness, because she’s so dang convinced she doesn’t “deserve” it 😦 Silly Mari.

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  6. Mariberto is definitely the ship name that came to mind for me. Sounds much better than what anyone could come up with for Diego’s punk ass. A nice, romantic musician will be nice for her. Calm her down. I speak from experience here, lol.

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    1. Oooh experience with nice romantic musicians? 😉 Hehehe I love Mariberto ❤ He was exactly what she needed at that time for sure. You'll see soon (maybe by now you already have — you seem to read quickly hahaha) how things end up with them!

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      1. Yup, my husband is a musician, and he definitely brings out my nicer side. Or rather, being near him highlights the parts of me that don’t seem so nice, so I improve my behavior, lol. He’s so nice, it’s impossible for it to not rub off.

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