I think I’ve ripped out about five pages from this thing in the past ten minutes. Every time I try to write about what happened, what I saw, I just… can’t.
I mean, my baby, my little girl was…
Okay, okay. I’ll try to focus on what happened AFTER, I guess… Not that it’s much better.
Looking back on it now, I realize that I really should have known all along. And, to be honest, I think part of me already did.
I just didn’t want to believe it until I saw it with my own eyes, I guess.
But God, I wish I hadn’t.
I felt like I was going to be sick. I didn’t stick around to see or hear anything, really. Thank God. But I had to get home. I had to find my wife. Jade and I had to figure out what to do about this – what to say to talk some sense into Mari.
But when I told Jade what happened…
You aren’t gonna believe this.
Apparently I “invaded our daughter’s privacy” and “should be ashamed of myself” because “Mari can take care of herself” and it’s “none of my business”.
I’m supposed to be perfectly fine with the fact that my own daughter is…
I mean, that she’s acting like a…
Well, I’m not going to write it here.
Anyway, when I tried to explain myself to Jade, she got even more mad. Started making all these wild accusations.
I can still hear her now: “If that’s what you think of Mari, then what the Hell did you think of me when we first met?!”
Oh God, did she really have to go there?!
Jade just doesn’t get it – this isn’t the same. This is our daughter. And I don’t care what Jade says — she’s NOT just having fun. There’s something really wrong here. This isn’t our Mari.
And it’s not just that she’s… doing… whatever… It’s the way she talks to us. Or treats her sisters. Or misses work all the time. This behavior… It’s all connected. It has to be.
But do you think she’d listen to me? Of course not.
I guess things just sort of fell apart from there. Jade went to bed angry, and I turned into the bad guy.
Am I seriously supposed to be okay with this?
Doesn’t she get it? We’re losing our daughter… Hell, maybe we have already.
And I guess I’m the only one who can see it.