Remember what I said about wanting to get to know Jade’s friends better? Well, the five of us, we’ve been going out a lot lately – getting completely smashed at the bar, tearing it up on the dancefloor, dragging ourselves home, and doing it all again the next night.
It’s absolutely draining (and, admittedly, hasn’t been doing wonders for my work performance). But damn, is it fun!
Still, I’m not so sure if I’m completely ready to dive into their, uh… lifestyle. And it’s not for lack of trying on their part. They’re all so damn charming and persuasive. And being completely drunk off my ass definitely doesn’t help things.
One night, even Paolo was trying to put the moves on me.
And believe it or not, for one crazy moment, I looked at him and almost
Okay, you know what? I think I’m just gonna stop right there. The point is, nothing happened (Thank God!). But I definitely have to be more careful…
Anyway, Jade’s the only one I’m interested in… But nothing’s happened, even after all these months together. Not even one lousy kiss.
She’s told me so many times that I’m her best friend. And I really think she means it… But Paolo and Marcus are her friends too, and I know for a fact she’s done a Hell of a lot more than just kiss the two of them.
I dunno… Part of me thinks I should just give up. I mean, could it be that I’m really in the friendzone now? Couldn’t it at least be the friendwithbenefitszone?
Sometimes I get nervous that she doesn’t think I’d be good enough… I mean, maybe she can tell I still haven’t — I mean, I’ve never… you know. Been with anyone before… (Oh God, did I seriously just write that? I need to remind myself to burn this thing when it’s full).
But I guess it’s more than that. I don’t just want her body. I want… Everything. All of her. I mean, I don’t wanna start throwing around the “L” word or anything, but…
I think I’m really falling for her. Hard.
Anyway, I feel like maybe it’s time to just man-up and tell her how I feel.
I mean… What’s the worst that could happen?